Hashirama x Dom!Male?Suicidal!Reader

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2nd PoV

When You were a kid you were the smartest in the family. You had quite a bit of friends back then. Each one from another family or clan.

You were children so to you it didn't matter if they were Senju, Uchiha or whatever.

But then the village got raided by some bounty hunters and they destroyed everything.

"Tsuki!!" You cry out as your older sister gets taken by a big bounty hunter.

"Run away [Name]! Please!" She cries throwing her favorite stuffed animal. You catch it and continue to cry.

"No! I can save yo-" in a heart beat you feel pain in the back of your neck and collapse.

When you wake up you notice that it is day time and you are under a tree. "Was everything just a dream?" You think out loud.

"Sorry, but it wasn't" a voice says right in front of you. Your eyes eyes see 2 dark brown ones directly in front of you.

Your eyebrows furrow before remembering the events of last night. "Who are you?" You ask scooting away from the boy.

You noted that he had medium brown hair and you could tell he was kind. "Oh! Right I'm Senju Hashirama!" He yells.

You nod. "I am [Name] Tenassaki") you introduce.

He looks at you long and hard causing you to give him a blank stare.

Your older sister was your only sister. Sure you both fought with eachother but you still loved her.

"I know what its like loosing a sibling, I want to be your friend!" He cheers while looking away.

You nod and put your hand out as a greeting. He turned back and shaked your hand excited.

"Lets meet here around noon" He said with a smile brighter than the sun.

After that day your parents never looked at you the same way. They later had one more child and it was a boy. But you did meet up with Hashirama frequently. Sometimes to train other times to just relax and talk about nonsense.

But your parents looked at you with disgust. You (being literally only 11 when this started happening) glared right back.

A year later

"Being neglected as a child never helps growing up" you read out loud.

"The child will become resentful towards the parents and think they don't need them and often times become a people pleaser and over work themselves"

"Well isn't that obvious?" You mutter throwing the book into a nearby tree.

"[Name], I want you to meet someone!" The cheerful brunet yells from 10 feet away. You found out that Hashirama is also 12 so you were kind of relieved.

"Meet? Who?" You ask standing up and walking towards your best friend.

"[Name]! Meet Madara!" He cheers showing you a boy who looks the same age as you two.

'Who the fuck is this bitch?' You mentally think aggressively. You give the boy cold eyes and he does the same.

"[Name]" You introduce still glaring.

"Madara" he answers.

Hashirama notices but decides not to ask. "Lets go near the stream! That way we can skip stones!" He says.

You and Madara look at Hashirama and nod.

"Say Hashirama, does your friend here know how close we are?" The ugly ass bitc-Madara taunts.

Your eyes darken before turning away. 'He can have his own friends, he is his own person' you think over and over again.

"We are here, [Name]! Do you know how to skip rocks?" Hashirama asks ignoring the question.

You nod and grab a rock as big as your palm.

You turn it side ways and chuck it so that it doesn't sink. It makes it all the way to the grass and you smile.

"Woah! [Name]! I didn't know you are a pro!" Hashirama cheers.

You just nod and look over to see a porcupin-Madara glaring at you.

"Okay! Lets do this!" Hashirama cheers his eyes filled with fire.

You notice Madara glare at you and you glare right back. 'He definitely is an Uchiha, his fiery chakra is stronger than anyone here' You think looking up slightly noticing Hashirama hug you.

"[Name]! I think we should go back now, wouldn't want your parents to get upset!" He says holding your hand.

You nod and wave good bye to Madara. "Hashirama..I don't like him" You say bluntly.

He turns to you and smiles. "Good! Because I thought you guys had a crush on eachother just how you guys looked at eachother!" He says with a slight pout.

"Ew, a porcupine like him? I would rather have someone like you" You say with a smirk.

Hashirama turns away and you laugh. "Don't laugh at me!" He yells before sulking under a tree.

"Okay okay, I'll stop..poor baby" You say.

"Nooo!! I'm not a baby!" He yells, running up to you and shaking your shoulders.

"Okay! I'll stop! I'll stop!" You laugh putting your hands up in defeat.

He smiles and grabs your hand leading you to the large house that you hate.

"Okay [Name]! See you soon!" He says and you both fist bump before he leaves.

About 7 years later

You smile at the fond memory. After that incident Madara would always tag along and it even got to the point where he would call Madara his best friend.

Of course you glared and almost killed him for it but luckily the sunshine of your life would always stop you.

Once you turned 13 they both stopped talking to you. So you thought that they were busy replacing you and didn't want to be in their way.

Call it over thinking but you knew that this world is an absolute monster.

Your personal life with your parents didn't go well. Obviously they both died by old age and your younger brother moved away to be in a village. Leaving you alone in the woods with absolute no human interaction.

You loved it but felt darkness come out of the abyss in your mind. You never thought about the darkness because the light of your life was always there.

'If you where strong enough you could have saved her'

'If you weren't so selfish you could have been with her in peace'

'WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?'

All those thoughts swirling in your head.

You lean against a wall and slowly make your way to the floor. The thoughts getting to be too much. You hug your knees and rock yourself back and forth.

"I'm sorry Ane-chan)" you mutter closing your eyes trying to calm yourself.

"Maybe I should go see you, no one will know or care" You say with a small smile.

"Nobody...nobody will come and save me from this dark abyss..why not save myself?" You say standing up and looking for a peice of rope.

You finally find a long enough peace of rope and tie it into a knot.

You find a hook and it on the ceiling and put the rope around the hook.

You put a chair directly under it and put your head through the loop.

"I'll see you soon Ane-chan" You say tightening the knot.

"[Name]! I'm sorry I couldn't see you for all this time! Its just I have been so busy with being a clan leader and-WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" A very familiar voice says.

You look at the voice and see a very worried Hashirama.

"[Name]! Don't do it! Here let me help you!" Hashirama says using his leafy powers to untie the knot and pulling you down into a hug.

You look at him with blank eyes. 'What emotion am I supposed to be feeling right now? Anger? Happiness? Humiliation? Where did the book that had the answers for my problems go?!' You mentally freak out.

Your sunshine that literally competes with the sun had come back and caught you almost killing yourself.

"[Name]...I'm sorry for leaving you, I'm sorry for not realizing how much pain you went through" Hashirama apologizes.

You shake your head and pull away from the hug. "No, Don't feel sympathy for me, you have it much worse than I do, you can go back to your home, you don't need me anymore" You say turning away from him.

Hashirama holds your arm and brings your chin to look at him. "I'm sorry [Name], I do need you, I need you just as much as you need me!" He yells leaning in.

'I feel like crying..but I can't, I wonder why' you think your eyes beginning to dull once more.

"Come with me, I am making a village! And I want you to live with me! We can have fun like back then!" He yells.

'Stay in this hell hole or go with the light? The light it is' you nod and he smiles.

"Do you want me to help you pack?" He asks eagerly.

"I guess" You mutter blandly. You move over to the kitchen and hand Hashirama a large Onigiri.

"Eat something, I can tell you only are eating food pills" you say.

You notice that his face turned a dark shade of red but decided not to mention anything.

"Thanks [N/n].." he mumbles hiding his face with the Onigiri.

"Why so red Hashirama? Don't tell me you're embarrassed" You tease.

"[Name], I know you don't plan on dating anyone but I want to be your number one friend, I want to be by your side!" He says randomly and completely makes a wall between you two.

You couldn't help but smile. You always knew about his feelings but never realized just how deep they are.

"I accept your feelings Hashirama, Thank you" You say and unnaturally give him a hug.

You noticed how his eyes sparkled and he nuzzled into your shoulder.

"I remember when you were shorter than me! How are you an inch taller than me?" He questions.

You just smile and pat his head. "An inch is nothing Hashirama" You say.

He smiles brightly and holds your hand. "Lets go pack your things so you can see our new home early!" He yells, his voice filled with excitement.

You nod and pull him into your room. Your bed takes up half of the room but its quite comfortable. Your closet is smaller but your clothes fit perfectly.

"Woah! Your room looks so cool" Hahsirama cheers. He goes to sit down on your bed and lays down.

You smile and decide to get on top of him. You do so and put your arms on both sides of his head.

"You look better like this, I like the expression you are making" You praise noticing how red Hashirama got.

"[N-name]?" He stutters. You hum gently carresing his cheeks.

"I want to..I want you to have sex with me.." he whispers. Your eyes widen and look down to see a tent in his pants.

"Alright" you say getting off of him. "Really?" He questions about to stand up.

⚠️Lemon⚠️

You push him back down on the bed. "Be a good boy and sit" You say stripping yourself. He obliges and sits back down on the bed.

"Don't get upset when you feel pain tomorrow" You warn. He nods and you strip him.

"You have abs? Good to know, I understand why your breasts are large" You say flicking his nips. They get hard and the tent starts to poke your ass.

"[Name]~" Hashirama whines slowly starting to massage his member in your ass.

"What? Use your words darling~" you say stopping at his waist.

"Can I thrust into you?" He pleads, sparking a perverted side you didn't know you had.

"No, I will be doing that" you say and rip off his clothing completely. Leaving you to see all of his glory.

"How cute" you praise. You give his pp a kiss before lifting his legs.

"Your so hard? Just for me?" You tease putting a finger in his hole.

His back archs and he looks ready to flip you over and start riding you mercilessly.

"Hurry! I want you! Not your finge-ah!" Hashirama moans as yiu shove 3 fingers inside.

"Hm? Fine" you say and line your dick into his hole.

You wait for his okay but he just slams his ass into your dick causing you to groan and him to moan.

You slowly start to thrust in and out of him, but pick up the pace realizing he wants more.

"I didn't know this bright ray of sunshine was such a slut for me~" you tease as you slam into him.

All that came out of his mouth was moans. You enjoyed the fact that you can do this to him so when you saw tears you slowed down a bit.

"I'm almost done sunshine" You whisper in his ear. He nods and he hugs you around your neck.

You hold his hips down and start hitting it up and down.

Eventually you finish inside him and he gives you a kiss.

⚠️End of Lemon⚠️

"T-that was amazing" Hashirama says through breathes.

"Mhm, I'm tired lets rest here" you say pushing open the sheets and wrapping yourself and Him under it.

You both fist bump before going to sleep.

End.

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