《His Personal Maid ✔》CHAPTER 36- CONFESSIONS
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(Previously, on Riverdale. Jughead found out that all along, he had feelings for his childhood friend, Maya. Will Maya reciprocate his feelings when he decides to tell her?? Let's find out)
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"What are you doing here?" Lara asked and turned around from the door to find Jayden sitting on the edge of her bed, facing Rachel's bed with his back towards her in the semi darkness that engrossed the room.
What was he doing in her room at this late hour?
For two weeks, ever since that unfortunate night of her humiliation, they had been avoiding each other. Well, she had been, but he had never made any effort to break the ice or talk to her.
Until now.
He slightly turned his head in her direction, his soft gaze catching her speculating one as he murmured, "We need to talk."
His voice was low and alluring, and posed as a threat to her proper thinking abilities. It was powerful enough to get her crumbling to her knees, but gone were the days she would easily succumb to its torturing pleasures. She would not allow it.
Lara slowly walked into her room, dark hair disheveled with her eyes still on his.
What did he even want to talk about? Hadn't he already said all he wanted to?
"We don't." She stated as she took off her wedged shoes then walked over to the shoe rack she shared with Rachel and placed them on the third row.
"You've been avoiding me." His voice calm, collected and effortlessly sensual soothed its way into the layers of her soft skin as it tried to reactivate her senses towards him. The man she had been crazy about.
Lara turned to meet his gaze. His eyes weren't as icy as they had been that morning in the hallway. They were filled with immense emotion that nearly drew her into their swirling pools of warmth, but she immediately diverted her gaze as she pushed back a few locks of her hair behind her ear.
"What did you expect?" She asked, staring at the wall beside her as if it had begun to display the trailer for an upcoming Tv show on the CW.
His eyes refused to tear away from her. No matter how hard they tried.
"You're right." He conceded, surprise returning her gaze to his as she stood a few feet away from her bed where he was seated, his bare feet touching the carpeted floor, shoulders dropped idly and hands slumped between his parted legs as he was clad in a black short sleeved shirt that displayed his muscled arms, with a pair of grey sweatpants.
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He continued to speak, "After what happened between us, you have every right to not want to see me again."
"So why are you here?" She asked, a scowl finding solace on her pretty face.
"Can we talk?" He requested.
She scoffed sarcastically, "Yeah, 'talk'." as she began to unzip her romper from the back of the one piece clothing and let it slip to pool around her bare feet, leaving her in a beige bra and a matching pantie as she walked towards her closet. With her back facing him, she unhooked her bra, placed it on a hanger and slipped on a thick woolen sweatshirt and purple shorts before grabbing a pair of purple socks from a drawer beside the closet and walked towards his direction.
"What?" She asked as she neared Jayden who had his eyes fixed on Rachel's bed, "Are you uncomfortable watching me undress in front of you? Oh yeah, that's right. You are." She made a jab at their last encounter in his room.
"Lara." He lifted his deep blue eyes to fix them on her dark ones as she stood nearer to her bed with her arms folded on her chest.
She spoke, "I can't believe you're talking to me just because you saw me happy with Pierre. Is that what it takes to get an ounce of your attention?"
"No, not really. Hear me out," He requested. "I want us to talk because I had some reflections, and I want to be completely honest with you."
Lara didn't respond.
But, after a few seconds of contemplating whether to listen to him or not, she decided to hear what he had to say as she took a seat on the edge of Rachel's bed, directly in front of him and crossed her arms. "I'm all ears."
He joined his long fingered hands whilst leaning in, with his elbows situated on his muscled thighs as his eyes never left hers.
"D'you know why I ended things between us?"
She slightly straightened up, returning his searing gaze as she replied, "No. I don't." then she added dramatically, "Why did Jayden end things with Lara right after she sent him the humiliating message of how much she wanted him?"
"So many reasons pushed me to take that decision. But before I begin, I want to apologize for causing you pain and hurt. I assure you, it wasn't my intention."
"You forgot to add the embarrassment." She chipped in.
"Lara, I wasn't responsible for your strip down. Your friends pushed you to do that."
"But your reactions still embarrassed me."
"That was not my intention."
She rose to her feet, "I don't know how you expected me to feel. Did you want me to smile after what happened?!"
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His eyes followed hers,"Can't you see that I wasn't embarrassing you? I was respecting you!"
He continued when she began to walk away in the direction of her closet, "I don't know if you wanted me to sleep with you. Was that the plan?"
"No, I just- You just-" She hesitated, with her back facing him, as she gulped back the lump that had begun to form in her throat, "My ego was really bruised. Bruised to the point where I felt really worthless. I'd never done that before. And I never thought I would, but I did it for you. But the look you gave me... the look in your eyes... You pitied me. There was no attraction in them. Just pity, and I couldn't help but feel very ashamed of myself and my body."
"I was attracted." He confessed. "I only suppressed my attraction to do what was right. Lara, your body is absolutely amazing."
Lara tightened the grip on her arms as his words reverberated down her spine to her core.
"What we had," He continued, "was solely based on physical attraction. There was nothing deeper than that."
"Wrong." She disagreed and turned to face him. "Maybe you didn't feel anything, but I felt something. I wouldn't be involved with you if I didn't feel anything."
"D'you remember your text message?" He asked her. "You talked about getting naughty with me, kissing me and missing what we used to do. Do you see it? It's all physical. You crave for the physical pleasure I give you, nothing else."
He went on, "I realized this from the start, and I know this is all my fault. I take full responsibility. At some points, I felt like I abused my power to get with you, which is definitely wrong. And you don't deserve that."
"No," She cut in, "I wanted it too. My attraction was really strong and when you showed the same interest in me, I was unwilling to let it stop."
Silence hung in the air as they held each other's intense gazes, the atmosphere suddenly squeezing the oxygen out of the room as memories began to sweep into their minds and attempted to seep into their flesh.
Lara wondered where he was going with this. She wondered if there was going to be a reconciliation, or if it was simply a justification for him ending it with her.
She asked, "So, you ended what we had because it was based on a physical attraction?"
"Not entirely," He replied. "There were other factors, like the fact that in a few months you'll be off to college where you'll meet plenty of guys who'll treat you better than I ever could."
"Jayden!" She scolded which prompted him to lift his thick black eyebrows at her. "That was not your call to make. It was mine. And you should have at least discussed it with me so we come to a mutual agreement. It was not your decision to make. It was ours. I know what I want."
Jayden suddenly asked out of the blue, "Lara, what do you feel for me?"
Lara was immediately caught off guard by his unexpected, straightforward question.
Did this question have an answer for it... in 'words'?
Her body language through out their time together had proved she was highly attracted to him, but was that it?
If it was, then why had immense, indescribable pain consumed her frail heart the minute he had ended it with her?
What did she feel for him?
"I- I feel something more than a physical attraction..." She let out.
He diverted his gaze as he chipped in, "You know, Pierre and I had quite a chat before you came back. He's into you, a whole lot. And I see he makes you happy. Do you feel something for him?" He glanced at her.
Lara pushed her hair behind her ear as she said, "Yes, he makes me happy, but what I feel for him isn't really deep. He's charming, but I'm not into him that way."
After what seemed like an eternity of silence between them, Jayden began to rise to his feet, which caused Lara's eyes to suddenly widen. Was that it? He was leaving already?
But he started walking in her direction as he said, "I know I've been very indecisive concerning what I've wanted for so long."
Anxiety gnawed at her knees and air escaped her lungs as he neared her. "But I've made up my mind. After weeks of reflection, and a boost of motivation today, I know exactly what I want."
When he stood directly in front of her, towering over her, he grazed the back of his long fingers along her jawline, then cupped her face with his soft palms as his alluringly spellbind eyes bore into hers. "I want a solid relationship with you. Not the games we used to play; a real relationship. Something deeper than a physical attraction where there's love, trust and commitment."
He went on, "If you're ready, I want us to restart."
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A/N: There's this Sam Smith song that goes like, "Restart!" but for some reason I can't remember how it goes:(
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