Jake ☝🏻️

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Drew POV

I opened my eyes slightly when I heard the birds chirping. I could see the morning sunlight slowly prying its way through the semi opened curtains. I found myself under the blankets but when I looked around the room, he was no where to be found. The rumpled sheets on the other side of the bed a clear indication that he had slept there last night. I gathered he'd left early in the morning like the others did for the morning training. I honestly couldn't care less. I didn't really see the reason behind putting me into bed or what he was trying to achieve by that.

I tried to sit up and winced when an unbearable pain shot through my back, feeling as though a sharp blade was being driven through me. My body shaking slightly as I felt like I had been ripped open, which couldn't be further from the truth. Last night had been the absolute worst experience of my life so much so, I was almost certain that I nothing would ever equate to that horror.

I made my way to the bathroom, with great effort might I add and looked at myself in the mirror. For what reason I don't even know. I looked terrible, scary even. My eyes were so swollen from the crying they looked like they had been beaten shut, my face was flushed, my lips bleeding in some places from being bitten on. I looked at myself and wondered just were the hell that warrior my uncle had groomed me to be. The person I had been just a few days ago. The person that wasn't afraid of anything. The guys that had taken down numerous warriors and rose to be the strongest.

Somehow I felt like I was back to square one. Back to the place I had started from. Like I was the same old weak little Drew I always was and I wondered briefly, when it came to Hunter if I would always be weak in front of him. I sighed and stepped into the shower, deciding against having a hot bath since I couldn't even sit.

I got out of the hour long shower I was taking when I heard the door bell ringing non stop. Whoever was at the door didn't even put an interval of a second between the rings.

"Just come in!" I yelled from upstairs one hundred percent sure that whoever it was, definitely heard me.

I rummaged through the boxes my Dad had brought over last night and took out a pair of sweatpants and a shirt. I didn't feel like doing anything today nor did I want to join the training, not after last night. I walked down the stairs to find Jake in the kitchen opening up all different kinds of foods and laying them out on the table. Ever since he found out he was pregnant he ate none stop.

"I imagine you're quite hungry" he said not turning around to face me as he unpacked the food on the table that looked like he had raided the pack kitchen.

I sat on the stool trying my very best to ignore the throb in my ass and looked at the food. As a kid, my eating habits had been worse than Jake's to the extent that my Dad even said I used to eat in my sleep and I was sure that if my Uncle hadn't hid away food from me, I probably would have eaten that too. And yet now everything made me feel so sick in fact looking at it made me want to puke. So instead of digging in like I normally would, I just sat and looked at it.

"Are you okay?" He asked, looking genuinely concerned.

"I'm fine. I'm just not hungry." I said as I sniffed. Trying to keep back the tears that was forming in my eyes, as the memories of last night flooded into my head, the pain that seeped into my bones only serving as an emphasis.

"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked tilting my head towards him and wiping away my tears.

I contemplated on whether I should tell him or not. I decided on the latter since he was pregnant. I didn't want to add stress to the billion things that was on his mind. Nor did I want to create conflict where the Alpha was concerned, so I did what I had done my entire life..

I protected him.

"Nothing really. I'm fine.."

"Okay. I'll pack these away then. Want to go for a run?" He asked, trying to divert the topic. I was grateful for him not pestering me about it.

"Where's Henry?" I asked with a raised eyebrow as I wiped at my eyes.

"He's out with the Alpha, doing some pack business "

Just hearing any mentioning of him made me uncomfortable and flinch. I tried to hide it as I nodded and looked down at my lap. I waited for him to clear up the table before getting up out the door.

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I cracked my neck to the left and to the right as I rubbed my shoulder. I had removed all my clothing and shifted into my wolf. I shook out my dark brown fur and rubbed my paws in the grass. It really felt good to be connected with nature, it felt as though no matter what you were going through, somehow nature always knew. I walked slowly, picking up my pace and darting towards the woods.

I ran as fast as my wolf would take me, feeling the wind brush past me.My senses were heightened and I could hear almost every single sound, the brushing of the leaves against one another as the winds blew through them. I could hear Jake behind me as I ran through the forest.

I halted when I smelt that intoxicatingly addictive smell that pulled me in. It was so frustrating. The fact that I couldn't help but be drawn towards him despite the bastard he was. I couldn't help but want him.

Fuck this damn bond!

I knew it was because we were mates. It had to be. There was no way that what I was feeling for him, was real. He had brutally forced himself on me with no ounce of mercy, why the hell would I feel attracted to him. My paws threaded the grass quietly as I followed the scent and found him standing in front of a tree with his hands balled into fists.

He cursed and swore loudly as he began punching the tree trunk with his bare fists, like it was a punching bag. He punched it so hard, like it was nothing but a bag of stuffing, like he was in some kind of a trance and he didn't even feel the pain. His fists dropped to his side, and the blood rolled down them, gathering in a pool of blood beneath him. I felt a tug at my heart, at seeing him in pain. I couldn't explain why nor did it even make any sense, but seeing him like this hurt me.

He sensed my presence and turned around. He made eye contact with me not tearing his gaze away and it felt like he was looking into my soul. In that moment, I couldn't help but feel so drawn towards him.

I fought the pull and shook my fur. I looked at him once more, before I turned around and ran further into the woods.

Not turning back.