(We locked in til the end! Ain't no ending this book! I lied tehehehe 🥰)

"I'm hungry!" I yelled watching Razz do whatever he wants.

It's so much y'all missed out on. Razz and I went to Jamaica for maybe a month then France. I had a ball honestly experiencing other's cultures. A little week vacation compared to a month is extremely different.

I am waiting to give birth to a beautiful healthy babyboy November 1st. Razz and I decided after a few months of living our best life it's time to go home. I missed Silas, then I forgot about Silas. Well tried to, I realize that although he a foul hoe, the adult thing to do is communicate. A lot of fathers choose to disappear yet I got a shitty man who is willing to be a great dad. Y'all...... I'm lying my aunt made me come back and realize that shit.

I know he been searching for me, but I can't be found if I don't want to be. I'm home and ain't no running. A nigga bout to feel me. I mean that shit on my unborn.

I got my teaching degree as well and I have a job at a high school starting next year. I took a lot of Silas' money when I fled the city. I had to make sure Razz and my son were good.

"Best, they throwing a huge all white party tomorrow night." Razz said while we laid on my Aunt couch. She was making me some Spaghetti and fish due to my cravings. Feeding her "grand-baby" as she claims.

"A bitch just got home damn." I mumbled eating a pringle.

"I feel you, but this shit all over the fucking internet now."

"I'm good on going. Silas most definitely going to be there."

"I might show my face then leave."

"Razz if you see him, shut the fuck up because you talk too much when drunk." I said seeing Regina texted me letting me know my new house ready.

"You going too, the fuck. We been back for almost 2 weeks laying low. You haven't even bought stink baby nothing because you too busy being scared of Silas. Your house been getting built with finishing touches. Living in fear I ain't fucking with it." He said trying to upset me.

"Don't worry she going." My aunt said handing us our plates.

"Thank you." Razz said.

"I guess!" I said getting into my food.

"Regina said check the garage too." He said eating. I nodded thinking. I'm so blessed honestly. I finished eating and got on social media for the first time in forever.

"Bitch... so Silas back with that hoe from high-school." I mumbled getting mad.

"Tammy? The school hoe."

"Yes!"

"That's crazy because he left you for her in the first place. Now he went back." My aunt said. I eyed her messy ass.

This why I didn't want to come home. It's all good though. I swear it is.

I chilled at the house with my family until I was ready to see my new home.

"Have you texted him?" Razz asked while driving.

"No, he was a travel nigga. Now I'm back home." I shrugged knowing exactly who he was talking about.

"Bitch well he texting me looking for you and his step-son."

"Tell him I don't want no more parts in that." I chuckled to myself.

"Best seriously?"

"YES! What do I look like falling in love or even pursuing another nigga? I know everyone witnessed the bullshit Silas Kian King put me through. He was simply a friend, we went on dates, and chilled. Tell Blaze I'm okay. I'm good luv. I enjoyed the time we spent."

"Silas really opened a different part of you. This ain't-"

"OH Well!" I interrupted him cutting the radio up.

"BITCH!"

We rode in silence until we pulled up to my new house. I had to get Blaze off my mind, because little did I know he was just as crazy as Silas if not crazier.

"Come on Major!" I said getting out the car.

"How many bedrooms?"Razz questioned.

"3... This shit beautiful. Just for us babe." I smiled rubbing my belly.

"No seriously. Guess what hoe!"

"What?"

"We next door neighbors!!!!"

"Clingy whore. I'm actually happy though." I cheesed walking in through the garage.

"Bitch this the new BMW?" Razz asked touching it.

I nodded just looking at it.

We walked throughout the whole house and I stood in the kitchen crying my ass off.

"Regina and Esteban set me up for life. My son room is fully furnished and he has a closet full of clothes and pampers. My room is complete. My kitchen is stocked up. My baby not wanting for shit." I cried while Razz hugged me.

I sat at the bar going live. I had Tink new album blasting with Razz in the kitchen making us a snack. I can't lie... Maybe the wrong move, but a bitch was excited.

"Hey LIVE!" I screamed watching the views roll in. I had my ring on playing shit cool.

Where you been?

Why Silas posted up with hoes?

Y'all still together after he pulled that bull shit?

You a good one.

You glowing mamas.

"Y'all nosey as fuck. I am back and better that's all that matters." I smiled putting my middle finger up.

I saw Hush and the crew was watching along with my girls.

"Hey Hush, Shugg, Ace, Frenzy, Gina, Leigha, Missy, and Ryan!"

"Hey hoes!" Razz said sliding in.

Damn no hey Esteban?

Where Silas?

Damn ma. I been texting you, can I get a hey Blaze.

This fat hoe came back from the dead after running away.

I laughed. "Hey Estebannnnnn. Y'all see this hoe? He made her feel special and now she feeling herself again!"

"Who?" Razz asked pushing me out the way.

"Damn bitch! That Tammy hoe." I said seeing Silas was watching.

I hope that baby dead. Silas don't need to be no daddy to no thirsty hoe kid.

"Bitch! I got time today! It's on sight. I put that on my baby." I said reading Tammy's comment.

Where my seed lil bit? You been foul playing. Where you at, text me mane. Are you even pregnant?

"Nigga foul playing? That's all you. Community dick bastard. I'll talk to you when I choose. Don't come to my live trying me. This why I been hiding. Y'all steady trying a motherfucker. Find y'all selves something safe to do. I'll clear out the bank account for-real this time bitch. You'll be broke again and this time I'm not gone pick you up! Them hoes loved you after I made you! They loved you after you flipped that money I gave you and came up. You like thirsty money hungry hoes. I see you in love with lames, I was never your type." I mumbled as Tink "Regret" came on.

I hope my next is a flex on you

On you, on you

How can I explain?

Every time you cross my mind, it's pressure on my brain (Pressure on my brain)

I'ma zoom in again and I can't figure it out

Why do I always have these doubts?

Oh, no I can't figure it out

But I'm always, always

Callin' you out when you make your mistakes

You said you'd fix shit, but that ain't the case

Tell me what's up 'cause I'm too real to fake it

Came here tonight 'cause I need clarification

So off and on, don't know if you're comin' or goin' (Comin' or goin')

You ain't for me and no I won't pretend

Guess this is where this relationship end

You played me out, another bitch

Had a real one, but you fumbled it

You fumbled it, you fumbled it

You gon' regret how you did me once you see me happy with some other man (Some other man)

You gon' regret how you did me once I put my heart in someone else's hands

'Cause you steppin' on my emotions (Steppin' on my emotions)

And you're way too busy to notice (Way too busy to notice)

That I'm close to walkin' away (Close to walkin' away)

'Cause you're way too arrogant, can't be fair with it

That's the way that you play

I hope my new nigga knows what to do

I been so caught on you, I forgot how it feels

I hope my new nigga fucks me so good, that it feels like I'll never need nobody else

You ain't acknowledge my boundaries

You left me open to choose

I hope my new nigga loves me (Love me)

Loves me better than you (Better than you)

I sang along feeling every lyric. Who would have known... This my life. I am not a fan of it, but I guess I can't hide forever.

BLAZE