Veronica's POV

My mind was literally about to melt and slip out my sub-conscience as I tried to focus on what was being asked. Carr wanted me to give my heart over to her but I just wasn't a hundred percent sure if I could do that. Giving your heart to someone was a bigger deal than most people realize.

You were making yourself vulnerable and you were putting yourself up for much more than you have ever bargained for.

Yes I love her but could I give myself over to her so completely? Risking heartbreak? Risking my happiness and sadness? Risking my good and bad days? Because that's essentially what I'd be doing.

I don't think that I could do that, I really don't. I've never given my heart over to someone and the only person that almost came close, ruined my life in more ways than one. How can I trust her not to ruin an already damaged me?

Before I could even answer my own thoughts I was brought back to the now by the feelings my body was failing to control.

"Tell me what I want to hear Roni." She says again and I literally had to bite in my moan.

Even though she had spent just a short time with me, her hands were expert to my needs and it was as though nothing came new to her. I let out a loud moan as she took a taunt tip into her mouth, sucking harshly. Her fingers never eased or slowed in their job and I knew she would use any means necessary to hear the words she so desperately wanted to.

I felt pain, I felt pleasure. They both intertwined with each other to create such a beautiful symphony that all too soon the room was filled with my loud moans.

"Say it Roni, tell me what I want to hear."

I almost said what she wanted to hear just so I wouldn't go through any more torture but that tiny voice inside my head was dancing around in tap shoes and screaming through loudspeakers to get my attention.

Just as I was about to feel my umpteenth orgasm rip through my body she pulled out and I almost screamed as my body protested. I was filled with too many hormones battling to reach the surface and I felt the overwhelming need to shiver but it was as though a sneeze was at the tip of my nose but was refusing to come out.

Then it hit me... Why am I the only one enduring this torture? Isn't the saying two can play that game?

I waited until her mouth had recaptured mine before I made my move. I raked my fingers through her hair and pulled her body flush against mine before I slowly traced my fingers down both of her arms biding my time. Just as I was about to flip her underneath me so that I could hold her arms firmly above her head and return her tortures, she grabbed my hands and quickly yet harshly, pressed them above my head.

"Oh no, no, I'm not gonna fall for that trick so easily sweetie." She whispered as she bit and sucked my ear.

I groaned my plea as her kisses travelled down to my neck.

"Tell me what I want to hear and maybe... Just maybe, I might let you cum."

"Please, don't. Carr... Stop." I say, almost to the brink of tears.

I was an emotional mess and as much as I wanted to give my heart over to her... I couldn't. I turned my head to the side as the first tear slipped down my cheek. I was embarrassed and I didn't want her to think of me as weak, but her punishing my body was more than I can bear.

In an instant Carr's fingers were out and she turned my face to her concerned one.

"Oh my gosh, Roni I'm sorry." She gasps.

"Please..." Was all I could muster as I got lost for words.

I guess the 'every second lovemaking thing' was finally getting to me and my body just couldn't take it anymore.

As soon as she got off from on top of me I grabbed my towel from off the floor and ran to the bathroom, bolting it from the inside. I know it seemed as though I was running, and maybe it is true, but how can I not? When it is too easy for someone to get jealous and hurt me. I can't put myself through that again and I won't.

I held on to the edge of the sink as uncontrollable sobs took over my body. I didn't want to be perceived as weak but I couldn't stop myself from crying loudly... And just on cue, Carr was knocking on the other side, begging me to let her in and apologizing all at the same time.

I ignored her pleas, unable to face her and instead, I headed into the shower. I turned the tap on and allowed the hot water to cover me from head to toe.

Sex was my therapy... No, sex with her... Was my therapy, but for now, water would have to do.

I felt my body relaxing as the hot water started to massage my tense skin and I kept my eyes shut as I tried to clear the fog from my head.

When I had finished showering, I walked out and grabbed some clothes, ignoring Carr the entire time. She was sitting on the edge of the bed when I came out and her shoulders were slouched. I knew she felt horrible for what she did but it wasn't her fault. When she noticed me she had instantly sat up but I shook my head so now, she just watched me as I got dressed.

When the last of my makeup was on I grabbed my phone and some money before I was mumbling something about spending some alone time underneath the big tree on campus.

It was Saturday night and that meant that a lot of students were off partying and therefore, the always crowded tree would be empty. I spared one look at her face before I closed the door behind me.

I just needed to clear my head before I made a decision that could change my life forever.

Walking briskly, I found the tree easily and was about to sit underneath it when I caught something at the corner of my eyes. I turned quickly to see Anthony slowly approaching me. He had something shiny in his hand but I couldn't quite make it out.

"Veronica." He says and steps closer.

I step back.

"Tony." I say softly.

"Do you wanna know what I did whole day?" He asks as he stands a few steps in front of me, hands behind his back.

I was scared of him and what he might do but I just couldn't risk screaming. Besides, no one would hear me.

He took my silence as a yes and continued.

"I'll tell you... I spent the entire day stalking you and that little homo friend of yours-" he laughed harshly before staring at me.

"Imagine my surprise when I saw her doing the things that I never got to do." He tilted his head and smiled.

"She got to make you laugh, she saw you smile, she held your hand in public, she made love to you for nearly the entire morning. She took you into the bushes for some dumb picnic, she-"

"Were you following us?" I cut in, shocked.

"I'm not done yet!" He shouts and brings his hand around.

I notice that the shiny object was a knife and the sensible part of my body shut down. I froze as I turned shocked eyes to his wild ones.

"Good. Now that I have your attention... I'll continue. Were was I?" He says to himself and points the knife underneath his chin.

"Oh... Right. She kisses you in public, she makes love to you under the sun, she gets 'I love yous' from you and-" he laughs harshly. "Me? I get nothing. I get a meaningless pussy from a meaningless girl."

Suddenly he reaches out and grabs me. I let out a piercing scream, hoping that the on campus security would hear me and come. Instead, I hear Carol's voice screaming my name as seconds later she runs to a stop in front of us.

Antony wraps his hand around my waist, pulling me tightly to him as his other hand presses the knife against my throat. He laughs near my ears and I look up at a frightened Carr.

"Anthony, please, please don't hurt Roni." She begs and steps closer.

I wanted to shout to her and tell her to run as fast as she could. I wanted her to save herself and not get caught up in this. She wasn't part of this and I didn't want her to be.

Everything happened so fast that the scream didn't come out until too late.

Anthony threw me against the tree and I felt my head connect with the bark before I heard a snapping sound, my eyes felt like they were coming out and when I tried to stand it was the only thing pulling me back down. I turned my head when I heard a bloodcurdling scream and I saw Carr clutch her stomach as she slowly started to fall.

My vision was becoming blurry as something red started to take its place and I saw the knife in Tony's hand start dripping.

Why was his knife dripping?

I saw two security guards tackle him to the ground and fight him for the knife, yet I stayed put. My eyes were finally starting to shut down and by this time my limbs had given up working. I looked over at Carr and there was some wet substance surrounding her. Her eyes were looking at me and she was whispering something I couldn't make out.

Still I could not move.

I don't know how long I was looking at her but I closed my eyes for a split second and when they reopened someone was shining a light into them and the place was covered with blue and red lights. I looked around just in time to see Carol being taken into an ambulance. Her eyes were closed and she never moved even though the men did.

I wanted to run to her, I needed too, but the man who was looking at me stopped me as he tried to explain the situation. That was when I noticed all the people standing around, that was when I noticed the yellow tape, that was when I saw the looks on everyone's faces.

When my brain finally made sense of what was happening... That right there, was when my scream came out. And by rights... It was the loudest thing anyone had ever heard.