My eyes slowly opened as I heard the door slam shut. I had no idea how long I'd been sleeping or what time it was but judging from the loud music I knew the party was still going. I allowed my eyes to adjust to the room as I sat up on my elbows. Roni had walked in and she had her hands nervously folded in front of her.

When I saw it was just her I laid back down and closed my eyes. After a few seconds I felt the bed dip as she sat down next to me. I could feel her eyes on me but I ignored her and she gently pressed a finger against my tummy.

"Go away Roni." I said deadpan.

"I'm sorry." I heard her say softly.

"I don't care. You were rude and mean to someone that was undeserving of it and I really didn't appreciate that."

I draped one hand over my eyes and the other on my stomach. "I know you're straightforward and speak your mind but sometimes I wish you had an off switch."

"Carr."

"You don't even know how the girl feels or what she's been through. All you do is hurt people... All you do is be mean."

"Carr! Look at me... Please!" She grabbed my arm and forced me to face her.

Hot tears were already running down my face as I stared angrily up at her. The alcohol was clearly beginning to affect my judgment because even though I was mad at her I still couldn't deny how hot she looked and how my body was currently responding. It was affecting me, revealing emotions that I would rather keep hidden and the ones that I had tried so hard to keep beneath the surface.

"No! I can't... I just can't."

I pushed her hand away and tried to leave but she once again grabbed me. Couldn't she just leave me be? My heart was slowly breaking into a million tiny pieces and I just didn't have the energy to hear her tell me how corrupted I was or how being who I am, was wrong. I heard that too many times, from too many people I loved and thought loved me.

"Hey! Stop. Let's talk about this!"

"Talk about what huh? Talk about the fact that I was once into guys and now I'm not? Talk about how I made out with a girl and got caught by my best friend? Or talk about how I then slept with my best friend in hopes that she would love me half as much as I love her?!"

There was a pause and I watched as her expression changed many times over until finally settling on quiet surprise.

"You love me?"

"I-I n-never said that." I stuttered as I tried to save myself.

"Yes you did!"

"I meant as a friend."

"No you didn't."

"Veronica don't tell me what I meant! Look this is stupid, I'm going back to the party."

I got up from the bed and started walking towards the door but stopped when her warm hand held onto mine. It both amazed and annoyed me how perfectly our hands fit together and how my heart seemed to always react to as gentle a touch as this.

"Carr!"

I groaned as I tried to suppress my need for her and once more turned to face her.

"What?"

A gasp escaped me as I felt her lips crash against mine. I felt my body tense for a split second before I registered what was happening. My eyes were opened wide and my hands were held open at her sudden contact. Her lips were unbelievably soft against mine and they tasted just as I remembered.

I ignored the tiny voice at the back of my mind that was telling me to back off and not let her use me but as I said before I was heavily under the influence. My hands wrapped themselves around her and I held her tightly against me. Her mouth was hot and wet and I slipped my tongue in as she moaned. She had her hands around my neck but as our kissing increased its passion she gingerly sneaked a hand between my hair and pulled it loose. It dropped around my shoulders in a curly, wavy mess and she took the opportunity to pull my hair back harshly, revealing my neck.

She licked her way up and down its length before sucking and I let out a little moan as she sneaked a hand beneath my tank top. Since I wasn't wearing a bra it made it easier for her to have access. The fact that she was simultaneously assaulting my breasts, neck and ear made it that much harder to get a grip on reality.

I groaned and grabbed her butt, pressing her closer to me. I wanted her and I wanted her now. Without thinking I lifted her and walked over to the bed. Laying her down I was finally able to appreciate her majestic form. she was insanely beautiful and had such a smart mouth but all I could think about right now was ripping off her clothes and making her mine, even if it was just for the night.

I kissed her neck as her hands found their way into my tumbled curls. She moaned as I nipped her sensitive spot and my heart skipped a beat. The sounds that she made was always enough to send me out of this world. It always made me feel empowered and completely in control and more and more in love with her. I took a moment to just stare into her golden orbs and for some reason my brain chose this exact moment to function and my lips chose to spew forth words.

"Do you love me?"

I watched as her eyes snapped shut and she sharply inhaled. Shit! I just messed up big time. I was about to say never mind when her eyes re-opened and I saw a deeper, darker shade expressing pure emotions. I knew right here and now that she loved me, I just didn't know how much and I really wanted to hear her say it.

"I don't know what I feel for you but all I know is that I want you."

That might not be what I wanted to hear but it was enough to get my heart pumping and my mind racing. I crashed my lips against hers and we spent the rest of the night making blissful, passionate love to each other.