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My minseo senses are tingling

Huh?

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What colour are you thinking now?

Huh??????

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Tell me the first colour that comes to your mind now

Uhmmmm thats random

But I have three in mind atm

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Just tell all of them

Purple, blue and light red

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That doesn't sound good

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Is smth bugging you?

Wait how could you tell-

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You just expose yourself lmao

Shit

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Its actually from the colours but thats not important

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Do you want company?

If youre down with bungee jumping then okay

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Random but would love to try

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It would be so risky yet thrilling

Yeah especially when you just fall and never get pull back up

Very exciting

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💀💀💀

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You know what?

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I'll just come and make sure you wont do smth like that

Ugh fine

But if you do come here can we just text?

I dont feel like talking rn

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Well okay then

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I'll get in through the balcony again?

Lol no need mark is not here

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Aight

Gosh you bring McDonald's

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I figured that you need it

Thanks I hadn't eat since breakfast

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How long had you cry?

Not that long

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The amount of tissues says otherwise

......

3 hours ig

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Mind if I ask you why ?

I just started to space out and think how much of a burden I am to everyone and people's life would be way happier without me

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Ahh

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Self hatred day?

Thats everyday

It amplifies today

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Does anyone know?

Mark does

But he thought it was getting better so please dont tell him

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Why

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He deserves to know

He is busier and more tired nowadays

I dont want to add more things for him to worry

Besides I think I'm just being overdramatic

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If you cant even manage a smile for me that means youre really tired

I mean I've been thinking a lot lately

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Obviously

Stfu

I think I wont really have a bright future because I lack brain cells

And I have come terms to the fact that I would end up marrying a guy who doesnt love me and be a housewife with a few children when I have severe commitment issues

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First of all am I a joke to you ._.

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Second, I will definitely wont let any of those happen

Well what if smth happens to you or you weren't there to stop it?

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I wont let that ever happen

Why?

Why do you care about me sm?

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Do we really need to state a reason for caring someone?

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Its an instinct for me to get close to some people and it doesnt happen often

Ik thats not the only thing

But chill I wont push it

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Now how about you tell or ask me smth

Smth like?

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Anything

Is it true that friends wont last long and blood related family will be the only one who will always be with you even though they are more fcked up than your buddys?

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Woah that took a turn real quick

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It depends on the friends you have either theyre better or just as toxic as the 'family'

Well thank god I have the guys and you with me

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Why did you phrase 'the guys and you' not 'you guys'

You are a special case

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Idk if I should be flattered or concerned

I'll leave it up to you whatever you want think that as

Because there's no way I'm telling you the reason

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Anyways I hate it when she is right

I am a disappointment and a disgrace

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No youre not >:(

HERE ME OUT

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I REFUSE TO HEAR ANYTHING DEGRADING ABOUT YOURSELF

Aww shoot

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MINSEO

I'M KIDDING

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THIS IS NOT SMTH YOU SHOULD JOKE ABOUT

OKAY GOSH

Anyways

I'm glad I'm here with yall

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Soft hours open :D

I'm freaking glad I escaped that hell hole disguised as my 'home'

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.....or maybe not D:

Or a damsel in distress that wallow herself in self pity even when the smallest thing happens to her

Always the victim that needs to be saved

Sorry I got carried away

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As long as it makes you feel better then I dont mind

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But if you dont mind can you tell me who are you talking about

The woman who claims to take care of me

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Oh your mother

Thats just a label for 'raising' me when she's there because of my dad's money

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Didnt know you were that rich

Thats the problem

We're not rich we are just financially stable

Idek why she took my dad as her target

So does your dad looks like the target for archery or smth

._.

Jeno you are my fave person in this world but no

Akhekwjfiewkekd

Since you said I'm your fave person I dont mind :3

PLS HE IS SO ADORABLE ksisjdjwkw

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Back to my mom

She lacks so much empathy

She legit told my brother to get over it when he open up to her about his insecurities

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What

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What kind of mother would say that to their child even if they're not related by blood

EXACTLY

And because how bad of an example she is in most ways I decided that I wont have children unless my mental and financial is stable enough

So that I wont have to struggle too much parenting them and my kids wont have to go through what I had to

Which means I would be single for the rest of my life

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Why :^

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Why is your face red?

Nothing

Its just you using emoticons is just too cute to handle

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Back to the question

Who wants to wait to have a child that long because of a wife that is just too selfish?

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I'm sure there will be someone who is willing to do that

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And taking care of yourself is important so if people say thats selfish so be it

What is it actually like to have a legit family?

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I can trust them with anything and be happy

Cant relate

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I'm sure your brother and dad cares if your mother doesn't

My dad said if I am depressed then I'm a disappointment

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WHAT

He said I should have learn to control my emotions better

Thats why I only went to therapy when I get here

Ik I'm not okay but its difficult to get diagnosed if your parents are controlling asf

Good thing I'm an adult so they dont need to know 🙄

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I'm sorry you have to go through that

Shit happens

It is what it issss

And as yk mark is already worried sick of me when he knew this so yeah he cares but I dont want to worry him more

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Why did you suddenly mention hyung

You said you are sure my brother cares I'm just telling you he does cares

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HOLD UP

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HE IS YOUR BROTHER???

Lmao the way you shouted wait

And yes he is my bro

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Hey at least that made you smile

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But fr tho it all make sense now

Youre just oblivious

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Who else knew?

Basically everyone except you

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WHAT

For how long

Renjun and hyuck figured it out themselves

Mark accidentally exposed us when we were waiting for yall with Chenji and Jaemin when you guys came late the other day

So all that was left was you

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And no one bothered to tell me?

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I am hurt :(

Hey its not my idea

They said to leave you in the dark as long as possible to make you jealous?

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Fml

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DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT THIS IS EMBARRASSING

Chile I just wanna tease you

And euw if you ever thought I had something with Mark thats incest my dudee

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How should ik you guys are related back then you guys don't even LOOK the same

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ANYWAYS BACK TO THE TOPIC

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Want to rant about anything else?

I have a lot but nah

That was just enough to make me feel better

Thanks for still being patient with me jeno

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Anything for you

And yk you shouldn't doubt yourself and just go for it

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Huhh???

Ik you like someone

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Shit I'm screwed

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Your face is very red pup are you okay?

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NO I'M NOT OKAY MY HEART IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE

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Your face is getting redder

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Nah its just kinda hot in here

Jeno it is autumn how can it be hot

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Just me ig

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But do yk who the person is?

Not sure but ik you like her

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Ohh

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Thank god

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Its just I think you should just confess because its now or never yk

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Youre basically saying I'm a wuss

Exactly

Dont pout like that

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Why not you made me sad :(

Because I might end up keeping you for myself

You

And I dont share things I keep

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Ajhshsaljsads

!message not sent!

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Okay thenn

And also because you are an amazing person

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Thanks for the advice

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I'll do it when I have enough courage

Just talk to me too if you have problems okayy

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Noted

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I'll be going its kinda late

Be careful and stay safe

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Okay