...Did you guys ever feel like your useless? like your so selfish and harsh toward the people around you? did you guys ever feel disappointed in yourself? did you ever just feel like giving up and just....killing yourself? did you every time that you woke up and went to school you just put up a whole fake personality? did you lied to people around you the whole life just to not let them know how sad and depressed you are? did you ever felt outcasted? did you loved a fanficional character too much that you thought you were crazy? did you every time that you close your eyes though of thousands ways of killing yourself? did you ever feel that you are a big disappointment because you can't do anything right? did you ever wanted to let all of that pain out?

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because I do I feel like that every time that I wake up but I try to hide it and just not think of it..but the only things that makes me happy are my family my bff and you guys you guys are the best thing I have and you are one of a very few things that I still live and fight for if I would lose those things I.... don't think I could take it anymore honestly.. I am bolting up my anger and my pain I don't have full trust in anybody to let the pain out so I just keep it inside it hurts to stay alive because I just don't feel loved....and god to think if I told this to my parents they would surely only take this as a joke because I once told them of how I hated how my every friend was talking behind their backs but they just took it as a joke and said "That's normal.." So wanting to kill yourself is normal then too right?! To hate the whole world is normal too right?! Laughing at people when they hurt themselfs is normal too?! and crying every time that you go to bed is normal too?! Because that is how I feel beying outcasted by people.... and it hurts it hurts so much that I don't have anyone to tell this to anyone except for you and... I really love doing all these requests for you all seeing you enjoy my work makes me a bit happy and even though I feel like giving up I can't bring myself to it because I have people to live for to protect some small goals to achieve and that is what keeps me here alive if you would live in my life you would understand my life is like a web of lies and from that Web I learned how to lie great how to see through people's lies. And when I say this I mean it no one should be thrown away, outcasted and hurt like me nobody deserves that and maybe that is why I find the villians more better than heroes cuz they know how it feels....and the scars that were made by my friends or somebody close to me connot be healed they can't they don't want to heal.....

~sincerely your author 💙💙