wednesday

5:35am

still a neet :/

this is a phone update so id will probably pretty lazily written. im fucking depressed again i think. actually i think i'm ina depressive state were im getting out of the actual depression part of sadness and u unwillingness and into the fuck life there is no point response. i was just halloween and seeing everyone on social media live their lives makes me feel more and more like a stupid idiot. im jealous and embarrassed of the lifestyle i live abd have lived. why cant i be pretty and take care of myself. my default appearance is always lazy. i dont even pick comfort i just pick whatever fucking works. i cant dance and i probably cant sing either. i have zero coordination and yet i literally waste entire days playing games i am shit at insteadof growing like everyone else. text typing kinda hurts. im done

oh well

5:41am