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-William Frederick Book

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Jin felt his heart drown.

It sinked deeper and deeper yet he couldn't bring himself to take his gaze away.

His eyes filled with tears that just didn't seem like they'll go away soon.

He felt the pain.

He felt it so strong.

But he didn't do anything and stood there.

Changhoon was playing with Mark and Jackson with a big grin on his face in the backyard of the orphanage.

He had this smile on his face as it brightened up to a whole new level.

He giggled at something Jackson said and even if it hurt him Jin's lips curled up,too.

A few days ago he fought with Namjoon and left him with determination in his eyes to not let Changhoon go.

But his determination left him as the day turned darker and darker.

Even if it pained him to admit it.

Jin agreed with Namjoon on one thing.

He was not ready to be a parent when he is suffering himself how will he take care of a child.

The child he loves so much.

He cried when the realisation hit him.

Jin closed himself in his room and wept like a baby effectively worrying his parents and sisters.

But he forced himself to stop thinking about the moment and the guilty that was choking him.

He knew he had to let Changhoon go.

Jin was not selfish.

He doesn't want him to suffer like him when the boy can have a so much better life.

And as he continued to gaze at the scene in front of him.

He knew he did the right thing.

Jin had so many regrets about the decisions he took in his life.

But he was sure he will not regret this one.

He smiled and shook his head.

They look so happy. He thought.

They look like a family.

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Jimin knocked on the door for the nth time.

"Hyung."

"Please open the door."

"Hyung ?"

"We are worried."

Taehyung who was standing beside him stepped forward with a frown on his face.

"Atleast eat something, hyung."

"You haven't come out of the room for a full day now. "

"You'll get sick."

"Namjoon hyung ?" Jimin tried again.

"Say something,please."

Taehyung was holding a bowl of soup in his hands.

"What about we leave the soup here on your doorstep ?"

And when the younger didn't hear any reply.

He looked down with dejection set in his eyes.

Jimin rubbed his back in a way comfort him.

"Just so you know we are not leaving until you open the door."He called loudly.

Soon after they heard the footsteps and turned around to look only to see a raved Yoongi and Jungkook making their way towards them.

"Hyung ?" Said Jimin confused.

But the elder just looked at him and blinked his eyes at him with a gesture that the latter heard him and moved to open his brother's room.

"It's locked--"

Taehyung tried to say but stopped when he saw the key in elder's hand.

And without any hesitation Yoongi threw the door open and walked in with Jungkook in his tow.

But the younger stopped for a moment and turned to the other two.

He smiled and took the bowl of soup from his husband.

"We will handle it from here. Thankyou."

And with that he was gone,too.

They were startled with the sudden action.

"What just happened ?" Asked Taehyung.

And Jimin just sighed closing the door of the room to give them the privacy and shook his head.

"Only the Jeon brothers know."

"Only them."

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The first thing Yoongi noticed after entering the room was that how dark it was.

But before he could even blink. Jungkook was already pushing curtains away for some much needed sunlight.

The second one being his brother who was laying down on the bed,facing the other way.

It was gloomy all around him. And Yoongi had to hold back himself to let out a shiver.

He sighed as he saw the state of Namjoon.

And before anyone could stop him. He was yanking down the soft blanket that was covering his brother.

He expected Namjoon to move.

To yell at him but he stayed still. Didn't show any reaction and it annoyed Yoongi.

He was worried about him and after he locked himself in his room.

Yoongi's concern was up the roof.

Namjoon had been silent ever since Jin left.

At first he just thought that the other needed some personal space and let it go.

But now it was getting out of hands.

He had to intervene and he knew it.

And a simple locked door was not going to stop him.

"How long are you going to be like that Namjoon ?"

He finally spoke.

Yoongi felt a pang in his chest when he didn't reply.

He can't see him like this.

They are brothers and it's tough for him.

"Everyone is worried about you."He said again.

And he didn't really expect a reply this time either.

But his eyes shot up when he heard a scoff.

Namjoon was suddenly sitting up as he glared at him.

But that wasn't shocking.

What shocked him was how red his brother's eyes were.

Big dark circles present under his orbs.

Namjoon's face showed all of the despair,anger,hurt and sadness.

He heard Jungkook gasp in the background probably feeling like how he was at the moment.

For the first time Yoongi saw his brother holding the same expression as Jin's.

"Are you ?"

"Are you really worried about me ?"

"Please stop lying."

"You don't have to lie for my sake."

"Don't say the lie."

"Please."

The eldest brother spoke with tears in his eyes.

Yoongi looked at him confused.

"What do you mean ?"

"Why would I lie ?"

"I am not lying."

"What has gotten into you ?"

"Oh really ?"

"I am sorry but I find it hard to believe."

"How can my attitude and behaviour not drive everyone away."

"It drove him away."

"It took a long time but it happened."

"He finally left me for good."

"He left me."

Namjoon cried.

"Hyung ?" Said Jungkook and tried to step closer to him but the lad shook his head.

"You know he did the good."

"Hell I wanted him to leave me and live his life."

"I didn't want him to be suffocated."

"I can live like this."

"I can live under the burden but I didn't want him to live like me."

"I am so used to living under the rules that I have even forgotten who I was once."

"I don't even know myself anymore."

"I don't know who the real me is--"

"I have been trying to live like mother and father wanted for so long that I lost myself."

"I finally did."

"Namjoon--"

"No."

"You don't understand."

"Nobody understands me."

"But I know I am at a fault at that."

"I was always closed."

"But you don't how it feels."

"How it feels to see your parents look at you with so much disappointment after all the attention I got in the past."

"Their praises and proud look for me just disappeared into thin air after I married someone I once truly loved."

"I thought they would complain but accept it later in the future."

"But I never saw that day and it pained me."

"It hurt me, Yoongi."

"It hurt."

"I just wanted to see the familiar look in their faces. So, I acted like they wanted me to--"

"I am not proud of it."

"I am not."

"But I did."

"And in all this I neglected the most important person to me,who by the way hates me now."

"Before I hurt him unknowingly but after realising it I still didn't stop because I didn't know how to--"

"I didn't know how to approach him."

"And it was way easier to act like who I had become instead of addressing the situation."

"He is right,you know."

"I am a coward."

"A big coward."

"But I was never taught how to handle relationships just like you and Jungkook."

"No one spoke to me about it."

"Before I had Jin but after I had no one."

"You could have talked to me or hyung ?" Jungkook tried to say.

"Oh really ?"

"Would you have talked to me if you were in the same situation as I was ?"

"Hyung--"

"No,Jungkook."

"You wouldn't have."

"Even if we are brothers we have always been distanced."

"There is a gap in between us that was never filled."

And the younger gulped speechless because he knew Namjoon was right.

He was also in the same situation before--

Didn't know how to act and always ended up ruining it.

And he definitely didn't talk about it with his brothers.

He would not.

"I am not trying to pass on the blame because trust me no one knows it better than me that it's all on me."

"Only I am to be blame for it."

Yoongi took a deep breathe and composed himself for a moment.

He slowly walked up and sat down on the bed beside his elder brother.

"What happened had to happen. We all know it."

"It's because of all the mistakes that were committed by not only you but us also."

"But it's in the past now."

"No need to sit here and dwindle on them."

"I'd like to think what happened was for the better."

"All this taught us a lesson."

"A lesson we really needed."

"Now,what you can do is sit here and cry about it."

"Drown in your own misery."

"Or you can learn a valuable lesson from all the pain in the past."

"We realised that we are not a strong family."

"We even hesitate to share our problems and true feelings with each other."

"No one shares their pain."

"And we have to work on it."

"Because I know that no one wants to continue being like this."

"We have to improve our relationship for betterment of us."

"And you--"

"Namjoon has to get better to--"

"Not only for you and us but for him,too."

"Trust me on this."

"He wouldn't like you to continue being like this."

"He wouldn't want it."

Tears fells from his eyes as he sobbed.

"He wouldn't."

"He is nice like that."The eldest agreed.

And Yoongi nodded in agreement.

"He is."

"Isn't he ?"

Yoongi took his brother's hand in his.

"I know it's tough right now."

"It seems impossible for you to change yourself."

"But it is not."

"It is not impossible infact it is incredibly easy."

"Jungkook and I did it."

"We changed for the better and so can you."

"And in the process you can find yourself again."

"It is not late."

"And you are not alone in it."

"We all are here for you."

"Your family is here for you."

"You have not driven us away."

"You didn't."

"And even if we are not that close."

"It's going to take a lot for you to actually drive us away."

"All these years we didn't even think about leaving you here alone once."

"So, trust me it's going to be something really--really serious for us to even think about it."

"We are brothers, Namjoon."

"And we will definitely not leave one alone on his own."

"Am I right, Jungkook ?"

The younger immediately nodded with his doe eyes wide open.

"I am sorry."

"I am sorry for my past behaviour."

"I am so sorry."

"Please forgive me."He cried.

But Yoongi just shook his head with a smile and pulled him in a hug.

"I already did, brother."

And his smile widened when he felt Jungkook arms wrap around them as well.

"We already did."

"We forgive you, Namjoon."

"And we are sorry as well for never acting like a true brother to you."

"We are sorry."

But this time the eldest shook his head.

"No need to apologise."

"I deserved it."

"I was an asshole."

And Yoongi chuckled.

"Well I'm glad you are self aware now."

Namjoon laughed at his words despite his eyes stinging from all the crying.

And a smile slipped on Jungkook's face as well.

"We will get better together."

"We will become one true family one day."

"I know it."

"We just have to keep fighting."

"Jungkook ?"

"Yoongi ?" Spoke Namjoon.

They pulled back from the hug and looked at the elder expectedly.

"I never say it you guys---"

"Never show it."

"But I really love you,both."

"I am grateful to the fact that you are in my life."

"Thankyou."

"Seriously thankyou. "

"We love you too,hyung."

"We really do."

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A lot is still left for each of the couple. Their stories are not finished.

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