We keep fighting over perfection being something you can acquire. I tried so hard to get hold of it. No matter how far I went following it, it just seemed farther away from me. Like a silly childhood dream, to be an astronaut, to be the president, to be perfect, it just started seeming so surreal. So I cheated, I erased the meaning of being perfect; being flawless, and wrote down a new one, an updated one if I may. Perfection is contentment, perfection is to see your flaws as traits of you. And now I think my perfect seems closer than it used to be.

-♛𝕠𝕒𝕜𝕝𝕖𝕪 𝕔𝕠𝕧𝕖♛

-♛

"Olivia!" I scream as she runs past me. "Young lady stop running!" I say making her let out a string of giggles. Even with her short legs she was faster than me, only for the time being though.

"Daddy." I hear her squealing as she runs out of the room. Olivia was me and Rolands first born child.

We got married when I was 20, he proposed in the most perfect way. Then soon after I got pregnant with Olivia.

Now she is three, meaning she has learned how to walk and run. I used to be able to keep up but now i'm pregnant with our second born. It's a boy, Roland was so excited.

"Hi my little princess." I hear him whisper to her. With a sigh I make it out of the room. Roland stood there with our child, her looking so tiny in his arms. I loved getting to see this everyday. "You should be sitting down." He frowns looking at my belly. I was in the 2nd trimester, so you could definitely see the pregnant belly.

"I was watching her and just cleaning a bit." I say, "I'm pregnant, not dying." I walk over to him giving him a soft kiss.

"Why are you cleaning, we have maids who come twice a weeks." He questioned me.

"Of course you forgot." I sigh as I moved my eyes from him to our daughter, who was gripping Rolands hair tightly in her fists. He didn't flinch as he keep his hard gaze on me. "My brothers are coming. Spending a week here for the holidays.." It was almost christmas and the new year.

"You definitely told me that, i'm sorry angel. Probably slipped my mind." He said sending me a sad smile.

"Roland, it's fine. I'm pregnant and not working as much as I normally do. Which means you have double the problems and work." I give him a kiss on the cheek. "Don't apologize."

Most of Rolands brothers had moved out of the family's house and into their own homes. Of course they still visit but it still mainly just us. His parents moved into the guest house out back but always seem to be around, which I don't mind at all. His mother is always there for us and Olivia.

"I set up three rooms." I say with a smile making him groan. He didn't like me moving around.

"Mommy! I'm hungry." I hear Olivia cry out. She was getting fussy again. Roland was about to start walking to the kitchen but the doorbell rings, making him stop in his trail.

"I'll feed her ok?" I whisper to him. "You get the door." I pick Olivia up and out of his arms carefully. Kissing her cheeks, making her giggle as I walk to the kitchen. I placed her in her booster seat, grabbing some fresh fruit making sure the pieces are small so she doesn't choke.

"Sorella." I heard a voice say from behind me, turning my head I see the twins. I haven't seen them since the birth of Olivia. They have been extremely busy, something about the russians. "Mio dio, era diventata cosi grande!" Valentino says as he walks over to us. Vincenzo staying in the doorway, he keep glancing back at something or someone.

{t- my god, she has gotten so big!}

"Vince! Val!" I say with a smile standing up, hugging Valentino tightly. Olivia sat confused as she shoved fruit into her mouth. "Olivia say hi to your zio" I whisper to her as I push her wild hair out of her face.

"Daddy!" She says when Valentino reaches for her. I sigh, holding in a laugh as she sits in his arms now.

"No, Olivia. This is not daddy." She frowned but turns back to the man holding her. "Is Milo here?" I asks looking at the twins. "And what happened to Roland."

"He's on a call but don't worry he is here." Valentino says. "Roland mentioned something about his mom needing him."

I nod before I see a girl standing next to Vincenzo. She looked nervous and was hiding behind him. She seemed so familiar but I couldn't put my finger on it.

Placing a hand on my belly. I give the twins a look as they glance back and forth between each other. "And who is this?" I say nicely. Her blues eyes widen slightly as she tugs at her straight brown hair. I guess she was stressed.

Vincenzo looks behind him to stare at her, she faces away from him. Her cheeks turned a soft pink. Valentino on the other hand let out a huff of annoyance but I think only I heard. "Oakley this is Athena Winnie." She frowns turning to look at Valentino who just spoke.

"Enzo.." She whispers tugging at Vincenzos arm. His eyes harden as he leans over to her ear. He whispers something making her look to the floor.

Valentino passes me Olivia with a weird look on his face. "Is a room ready?" He says quietly.

Olivia starts being fussy grabbing onto Valentinos shirt. I pull her hand back, bouncing her up and down slightly. "Yea, same room as las-" I didn't get to finish before he left the room. Vincenzo didn't say anything as his brother left but I knew the girl wanted too.

"Oakley, Athena doesn't like when people call her by that name. Can you call her Daniella." He says making me gasp.

"I remember you, I knew you looked familiar!" I whisper looking at her. "You look so different.." I say in shock. "You were that girl from the first ball, Mr. Urvans step daughter." Vincenzo face is hard and looks pissed off at that name. This makes me frown once more.

"Vince what is going on?" I say softly looking at him confused. He looks at me then at the girl, Daniella.

"Can we go to our rooms first, I want to let her sleep some. Then i'll explain." He says making me smile.

"Of course, same room as last time. You remember which one right." I ask making him nod. "Do you need me to set up another room for Daniella?" I noticed the girl giving me a nod but Vincenzo steps in front of her, blocking my view.

"No she's staying with me in my room. Or with Valentino." He says making me give him a look. He doesn't think twice before turning to leave, his arm around the girls waist.

I sigh wondering where my other brother and my husband are. Milo walks in as soon as I was about to go looking for him.

"Milo!" I say walking over to him. He smiles giving me and Olivia a big hug. As he pulls away he watches Olivia and starts making baby noises at her.

"She is getting bigger everyday.." He says in awe making me smile. "How is the pregnancy going?" He asks eying my stomach.

"Cravings are just the worst." I frown making him laugh. "Roland hates me sometimes when I go and make him get food in the middle of the night. How is Sicily?" I ask making him sigh.

"Val and Vince are driving me insane." He groans. "And that girl, you met her right? Daniella. Both of them keep arguing about her. They rarely get along anymore, it's all that girls fault." I look at him questionable.

Makes since now why Valentino got so mad about how close her and Vincenzo were being.

"Why is she here?" I ask not caring that she's here but they never bring girls with them.

"She's not here willingly, she's not safe anymore without them by here sides. They kidnapped her to get back at Urvan or something. He was working with the russians, their causing lots of problems."

"Why the hell is she with them like that if they kidnapped her?!" I says not liking that.

"Love, hate, sex. I wouldn't know." He sighs. "It's really complicated."

"Is she a good person?" I ask gently.

"Sadly, she wouldn't hurt a thing in this world and is kind to everyone. It's so hard to hate her."

"Why do you want to hate her Milo?" I say.

"Because she's making Val and Vince hate each other. You should have seen what Vince did to Vals face this one time." He mumbled as he pokes Olivia's nose making her giggle.

"I don't think you should hate her, she can't help who she wants. Also it's not her fault she is here." I say scolding him. "And Val and Vince are brothers a girl won't break them apart." He nods knowing i'm right.

"What times dinner? We haven't eaten since yesterday." I gasp smacking his head.

"You should have told me that!" I scream at him. "Dinner was going to be at 8, i'll move it to 7. Tell Val and Vince please." He nods rubbing his head.

"I will, I will." He groans. Olivia leans her head into my shoulder making me realize she needs to sleep some.

"I'm going to put her down for a nap." I whisper turning to go upstairs. "See you at dinner."

-♛

I stood in the kitchen, walking around getting things ready for dinner. Roland was watching Olivia for me in her room and everyone else was in the living room.

Vincenzo explained what's going on and it was pretty much what Milo said. He didn't mention fighting with his brother or Daniella at all so that part was still confusing for me.

I could hear Valentino and Vincenzo fighting from my spot in the kitchen making me sigh. It was the holidays and I wasn't enjoying them acting like this.

Walking into the living room I see the twins sitting on one couch, Daniella on a single person chair, and Milo on the other couch.

The twins had stopped fighting as soon as I walked into the room, Milo looked so done but wasn't saying anything.

"Daniella can you come help me in the kitchen?" I ask her.

"Oakley, I don't thin-"

"Valentino, i'm asking Daniella." I say giving him a hard glance making him glare back at me.

"Oakley. Valentino is right, she should b-" Vincenzo starts saying but I cut him off as well.

"Vincenzo." I warn him making his face harden just like his brothers. "Daniella would you?"

"Yes." She whispers standing up following me out of the room. We walk into the kitchen her staying slightly behind me.

"You don't have to do anything, I just figured you wouldn't want to be in a room with them arguing so much." I send her a sympathetic glance making her look to the floor.

"They do it so often and it's all my fault." She whispers.

"I wouldn't blame yourself." I say walking over to her, keeping some distance.

"I just don't want to lose them both." She says softly.

"Do you have any clue who you want to be with?" I ask her.

"Not a clue, I care for them both so much and they are always there for me. Even if they don't show it."

"I think when the time is right you'll know who you want." I offer her that answer, not know how else to say it. "I would try talking to both of them, explaining to them that them acting like that is stressful and not helping you figure out what you want."

"Your probably right, thank you." She whispers making me send her a smile. "Roland is your husband right? He opened the door for us. To be honest he scared me, he looks very intimidating." She says softly making me chuckle.

"Yes, Roland is my husband. He's actually a sweet guy. He's upstairs with our daughter right now but will be down for dinner." I say softly.

"Number two then i'm guessing," She says looking at my stomach.

"It's a boy." I say looking at my belly.

"Your husband must have been extremely happy when he heard that." She says making me let out a laugh as I nod my head.

"Yes, yes he's definitely was." I say with a smirk before turning to the oven. Around 20 minutes later, I was all done with the food. Me and Daniella were talking and bonding the whole time.

"Here let me help." She says taking some of the plates of food, taking them to the dinning room. She returned to the kitchen shortly after.

"How about you go tell the boys that the food is ready. Since this is the last thing I need to bring out, I can handle it." She nods disappearing out the door. I take the food into the dining room, placing it on the table before I send my husband a text telling him to come down.

I few seconds later Daniella returns with Milo, Vincenzo, and Valentino behind her. Then Roland comes downstairs with Olivia in his arms. I smile to myself, sitting down.

There had been no arguments during dinner. I was happy and smiling the whole time. That's how i've felt for the last five years, happy.

I turned to see my husband feeding our daughter some small bits of food. He feels my eyes of course turning to look at me. He flashes me a smile making me reach for his hand, that wasn't occupied by Olivia.

"I love you." I mouth to him making him smirk.

"I love you angel."

-♛

hope you enjoy part 35!

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so there are like so

many plot holes I feel

and I just hate it

but here's the epilogue

i hope it gives some closure

but the epilogue was kinda of a

look of how life is now and

where the timeline meets

in the next book,

i hope that makes a bit of since

i brought back someone

important, daniella (athena)

is the main character of the

sequel. more to come on that book

ANYWAY

THANK YOU FOR READING

this means the world to me.

so thank you

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