ALEXANDER

I am beginning to think that perhaps I want happiness, but I also desire to keep the pain close; close enough to remind me of my mistakes. Jake's logic and Chris's confession should be enough to motivate me to take a leap, but the 'what if' at the back of my mind feels louder the more I think about it.

Still, I am unable to sit back and watch him be with someone else. He has been going out a lot of late, and it's disconcerting. I fear, with his beauty, it won't be long before another male species notices him. Maybe someone with more honorable intentions. The fact that I can't forbid him is bothering me, hence my rush for this Uganda trip with him. Perhaps, having him away from everyone else will help me decipher what I want with him.

I don't want him to get over me, that's for sure. But I also don't want him to love me either, if that makes sense. I just want our simple arrangement back where we f*cked our brains out with no thoughts whatsoever. That I could commit to.

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Chris looks extremely nervous as this is his first time flying, but I intend to be with him throughout the flight. To take care of him.

“ You own this, ?” He asked awed when we got in my private jet. I smiled, gesturing for him to take a seat opposite to me as we got ready for take-off. Once the movement was allowed, I unclasped my safety belt and moved next to him. He nervously glanced at me, trying to determine my next move. Ironic, for I didn't know what that was myself.

“Chris, can we just forget about our differences? Just this once, this trip. " I whispered anxiously. He took time studying my face, not saying a thing. “ I miss you…” I confessed. Christian just stared saying nothing and when I was about to stand when he placed his palm in mine.

“ Just this trip…” it was more of a question.

I leaned closer, locking our lips. I couldn't fight my hunger for him much longer. We both sighed in relief as our tongues glided over each other with familiar ease.

I had this violent urge to dominate him as I took over the kiss and devoured him feverishly. I basked under the sensations of what I had been deprived of for a while now. I could feel anger shimmering at how miserable I have been of late. I poured all my frustrations into the kiss, showing him exactly what his confession had done to me. It was a give and take moment, and none had any qualms about it. I let my hands slide to his butt, which I pinched and squeezed lightly, drawing a moan from him.

“ Baby…” I groaned when he tore his lips for mine. “ I want you," he whispered, his eyes clouded with lust. “ Now," he added when I did not attempt to move.

Just in time, the hostess wheeled a cart ready to serve our choice of refreshments. I felt bad turning her down, but when I glanced back at Chris and saw the hunger in his beautiful eyes, I couldn't care less who I disappoint as long as I give my boy what we both want.

I scooped him up in my arms and stalked to my suite. I threw him on the soft mattress, and without prior prompting, I started stripping him, roaming my eyes greedily on his soft skin. Goosebumps sprouted every place my fingers trailed. “ I need you now, Alex.”

Chris demanded, reaching for my shirt, which he discarded easily, and I proceeded to strip the rest of my clothing. I spread his thighs and lubed him up, put on a condom, and sank in his heavenly ass with a breathless groan. “ F*ck, baby… you feel amazing. " I whispered, kissing his lips.

Chris whined, pushing back on my c*ck, willing me to move. I thrust slowly in and out, stretching his channel, as sweat broke on my skin. He lifted his legs and wrapped them around my waist, making it easier to sink deeper into him. I aimed precisely for his spot, rendering him incoherent as I pounded his hand.

“ Mmh…” He moaned, pulling me closer to devour my lips.

“ I love f*cking you… I don't want to ever stop. " I murmured, detaching our lips and shifted my stance. I f*cked him the way I have been craving to, hard, fast, deep, only slowing down for a kiss or two.

“ Alex…" he moaned, thrashing harder, “ohh god! I can't hold It…” He didn't get to finish as he erupted between our bodies, his ass clenching so tight on my dick. I groaned hard, thrusting faster as my own orgasm tore through my body. “Chris…” I didn't stop my movement until we both stilled from our high.

“ I missed you so much.” I blurted without a thought as I laid next to him after discarding the rubber and pulled him in my arms. Chris didn't offer a response, but his hands were roaming on my chest.

“Just this trip,” he reminded after a short while. I leaned down and claimed his puffy lips. I sucked on them expertly, making Chris's breath increase once again as my hand clasped his semi-erect c*ck. "Then let's make good use of it.”

Not wasting a second, Chris pushed me on my back and grabbed my c*ck. He grabbed the lube and after pouring some on his fingers, he went ahead and slicked my length, stroking it firmly. I closed my eyes and relished the moment, but when I felt him pushing against my bare c*ck I resisted.

“ Baby…” I started, but he cut me off,

“ I want to feel you.” He announced, sinking slowly on my shaft. My eyes widened as pleasure assaulted my senses with the feel of his tender skin against mine. "No wrappers,” he grunted, sinking to the hilt. “ Just this once. "

I nodded as I watched him lean in for a kiss. I grabbed his neck and sucked on his lips pulling him closer, but he pulled off my hold and sat straight, my c*ck buried deep in his ass. “ I will ride you now," my boy announced with resolve.

“ Ride me, baby.” I was encouraged. And ride, he did! I couldn't feel my legs after he was done milking my c*ck dry.

Chris fetched a towel and cleaned us both before he climbed and took his place snuggled close to me.