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When I came into the bedroom I noticed Vikram was taking shower. I sat in the bed and took his phone it's been a while since I saw his phone, I turned it on and I saw my picture as lock screen saver, I unlocked the phone and the wallpaper is also my photo.

I thought is he loving me that much, am I a stupid to avoid his feelings,

Sorry, Vikram I did a mistake for making you wait, for pushing you away and for everything I thought. I waited for Vikram to come.

Each second I got nervous and I want to see him, I think I am totally going crazy about him and I can't live in this world without him even for a second. Vikram from now on I will never push you away...

When I was in my thoughts Vikram came out, only a towel was wrapped around his waist he was all wet, water droplets were all over his muscles god really he's having a good physique and I started drooling seeing him.

I constantly looking at him and I can't shift my eyes when the moment I fell in love with him everything was out of my control.

"Do you want to see me changing the dress," he asked by opening the wardrobe.

"Yeah... " I said without thinking.

"God oh... no no no," I said and bit my lip. I stood up immediately and went out. I slapped my head out of embarrassment I am an idiot I thought.

I started to prepare dinner I thought how to say the wishes and also about my confession and the main thing is that I have to be awake until 12.00pm.

Why don't I text a message and confess my feelings for him it would be nice and also it's less difficult for me I thought.

After preparing dinner Vikram and I had our food, he didn't talk much and not even showed a single thing that his birthday is tomorrow and I also didn't ask about anything because it's a surprise after all.

I went into the bedroom and covered myself fully in the duvet and started typing the message.

Dear Vikram,

Many more happy returns of the day, you have celebrated almost 31 birthdays but this time I am with you and I going to say the things that I actually feel about you...

When I first met you in the elevator I don't know that you're the one that God has given me to spend the rest of my life, I married you for my family, I left everything behind and came out of my boundaries my own small world with my family, for you... I don't know anything about you what you like or what you hate and you're also not tried to open up with me. It's difficult for me to understand you at first I never got a chance to get close to you at first. I thought maybe because of our age difference we were like this.

But you know what you're making something to me Vikram I started to like you. At sometimes I hate you and at many times you made me to like you more and more.

You confused me a lot, you made me think only about you, I myself questioned why I am like this, at that time I realized that I am in love with you truly madly and deeply.

I never fell in love with anyone it's new to me, you're my first love Vikram you're the first and last love in my life if God gives me a wish I ask that I want you to be my eternal love and I don't want to leave you.

I don't know whether you loving me or not but I want you...... I am sorry Vikram for not giving what you wanted I even pushed you away. But don't hate me I just wishing only for your love than anything in this world. I don't want your money or luxury I want only you.

If I can give an ability, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes only then you can understand how much I love you and crazy about you.

After typing this I felt somewhat relieved and happy. I saved the message in the draft and I am going to send this at sharply 12.00 pm.

I noticed it was just eleven thirty and I thought how he will react, but my subconscious said that he will accept me.

As the time moves, I felt really nervous I never felt this kind of feeling even in exam days. Vikram was in the living room and drawing something and working I don't know what he's doing. Most of the times he's a mystery to me.

At 11.55 pm I was wondering whether to send this or not, god why I am like this. I really scared and embarrassed.

At 11.58pm I pulled all my courage, Rithu you can do it I assured myself and clicked the send button and I looked Vikram he was sitting in the couch once he heard the message tone he took his phone, I turned immediately and laid in the bed buried myself inside the duvet. God, what he's gonna do.

I counted till five hundred but there's no response from him I slowly opened the duvet only for my eyes and looked at him he was looking at the phone intently and turned towards the bedroom.

Omg, I closed my duvet and prayed God that he should not scold me.

God why he's shouting but how I am going to face him, it's really embarrassing but no other way after all he's my husband why I have to be embarrassed.

Taking the duvet from me I stood up and walked towards him without meeting his eyes.

When I came close to him, I looked at him he was wearing his glasses and with a serious expression, he stared blankly.

But what that caught my eyes were the drawing book that's in his lap. I was surprised to look at the picture it was me that he is drawing at this time but, I looked at him questioningly, what's All this?

He grabbed my hand and made me sit beside him.

"Are you really in love with me Rithu?" he asked me and I know it's the most expected question from him.

"Yes I am really in love with you," I said looking at his eyes.

He was silent, but I hate this silence so I started to speak.

"I am serious, I am really in love with you. I don't know whether you're having the same kind of feeling but I can't even live without you even for a second," I said without thinking and I don't know where I get this much courage but I thought this is the right time to say this. I closed my eyes for a second because I lost my control and tears welled in my eyes.

I opened my eyes he was still silent and looking me intently, my eyes again welled with tears because he's still silent and not considering my feelings.

I felt rejected and I don't want to see him, it's making me cry so I stood up and took a step.

But Vikram's strong hand pulled me I lost my control and I have fallen into his lap. I looked at him but without a second delay, he crashed my lips with his.

I was jerked at first but I eventually gave up I touched his hair with one hand neck on another hand. He pulled my waist closer and intensified our kiss, I felt goosebumps all over my body when he bites my lower lip. He didn't stop the kiss it's continued for more than three minutes, But I can't I want oxygen I pulled him off and breathed heavily.

I looked at him but he again started to kiss me, this time he was little aggressive and intensified the kiss. I clenched his shirt tighter. This was the first kiss in my life and with my first love.

After kissing for some time I pulled him off again for the oxygen it's a lengthy kiss than the first time, my head was spinning I am not in the right mind. This is how it feels when we kiss I thought.

Vikram hugged me tightly, and I hugged him back.

We were silent I can hear only our heartbeats.

"Do you know how much I love you Rithu," He said.

I looked at him these are the words that I wanted to hear desperately, It is enough for me, even if I die at this moment I don't mind.

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