How long must one carries them to be forgiven?. What if you are the only one in them and the person you are regretful to is not in front of your eyes or in reach.

How much does it hurt to know you have hurt an innocent soul because you choose to trust your own blood?.

No estimation. No value. No amount.

Just like Omar didn't have any idea where she was and when she was coming back.

Three years ago he saw her walking out of that door without a single word and a single glance to anyone there. Her eyes back then and that whole day haunts him to this day keeping him awake for nights.

He regrets that he didn't have the courage to stop her, to call her and to take a step towards her. As much as he tries to takes step towards her he always took five back.

Hira.

She was the one who came knocking to everyone door asking them to gather once again after she went somewhere no one could reach. Hira was her one true friend even he was glad for because once they gather Hira brought the voice recording of the day where Aliya and Amina had a one on one in the cafe where she cleared that she wouldn't ever do anything if Aliya got married or have anymore feelings.

That caused chaos.

Aliya was held accountable for her actions where she confessed that she was always jealous of Amina hence she just used her to have the house to herself but she never wanted her to be married to her brother. So, she played with his mind showing and telling him stories of where Amina had been in a relationship with few boys which she herself told were fake when asked.

That was when he felt betrayal.

That very moment he realised how she felt when she walked that day in and everyone turned on her. He wasn't even betrayed to the level Amina was because she was pushed out of the house by her family and so on. He had watched her suffer day in and out sometimes watching her crying holding their family photo.

His heart seems to now feel the same agonising pain that he had felt years back. His day now became gloomy where he tried to go by the day just to end the day as quick as possible because he couldn't bear the normal life anymore.

At night he stays awake watching her going around in the room. Like when she held the book upside down sitting crisscrossing on the small couch peeking at him time to time and the moment she gets caught she will shriek making the book fall down and a beautiful blush adorning her cheeks.

Or when she walks out of the washroom after wearing her favourite mickey mouse suit smiling like she owns the world record heading to the bed and her wet hair always staying around her sticky to her face which she always moves away irritated making a face.

He looks at the other side where she used to sleep peacefully. She usually has her back towards him but during the night she will scoop little by little and he will wait until she finally places her head over his chest and he wraps his arms around her feeling the warmth which became his routine for sleep.

Now, he just stays awake.

He heard the shouting from the outside like every day where Aliya will be screaming and cursing his wife for her bad luck not owing to her mistakes.

She was sent home.

After the overdue, no one wanted her at their home and so she was kicked out along with her husband but her husband just throw her out saying he doesn't want to live with her anymore.

She had been going insane cursing his wife all the time.

"Thinking about me?". He heard her soft whispers

He turns his head on the bed watching her looking at him from her side with a beautiful smile on her lips.

"Ittna kyun yaad karte ho?. Piyaar toh nhi ho gaya?". She said laughing (why do you miss me so much?. Are you in love with me?)

"Shayeed. Wapis a jao, please". He said remorse feeling his heart peirce looking at those eyes that were filled with life once

He moves his hand forward to feel her cheeks like he used to love doing all the time that always bring him some sense of joy but as soon as he touched her she vanished.

His heart breaks as a whimper leaves his lips as he cuddles to her pillow which used to have her scent years back and now it was just nothing. His tears fall down on her pillow making a patch.

The next day he stands in front of the dressing instead of finding himself in the mirror he finds her standing in front of it fumbling with her hair for a good three minutes finally tying them in a bun irritated.

He chuckles lightly because she always looks so cute and her cheeks used to turn red faintly because of her anger on her hair. She was very careless and clumsy with her looks which were something he used to secretly admire. Even in the simplest clothes, hair and face, she used to pull some string of his heart.

Just like how he used to find her casting glance at him he used to do the same just a little better than her because he was never caught- or at least that's his wishful thinking.

He went out of his room praying that the day went by smoothly.

"Why does she have everything even after she ran away?. She never deserved anything". He heard his sister raged voice when he enters the dining table

His eyes turn to her sharply, "Maybe because she is the one who actually deserves it all. You ruined her life and everything for her and here being shameless to still not admit a thing. She didn't run away instead she walked away from all the toxic people who don't deserve her one bit and that's the best thing she has done. You played with your own brother life so I do expect any kind of emotions from you but do not disrespect her".

"Oh! Now you are blaming me and talking back for her?. Give her divorce and end it. She ends your sister life". Aliya said angrily

His eyes harden at her words as he chuckles dryly, "I will never ever divorce her not until she asks for it but never ever on my own because if there is one per cent chance even by begging her to save our marriage I will do it in a heartbeat and don't ever dare to control my life. You have played your part well and I will not stand still anymore".

With that, he just went out of his house not wanting to start another argument because he had done that enough times in the past years which he should have done sooner. He walks like a robot to his office and when he looks in the mirror at himself he was a mess not how he used to be.

He heard his phone ringing in the middle of the day to find her grandfather calling him and they were the only people who contact each other to talk about her. He didn't wish to talk to anyone else either.

They haven't met after they kicked Aliya out.

As he picks the call he felt the world under him was taken away, "She is coming. She is coming back today".

He stumbles falling down on the ground with the gravity of words he wasn't sure if it was a good thing or is it not but he had been waiting for this day. He never prayed for anything but her safety, peace and happiness in the past years. He never wanted to pray to bring her back to the place that caused her so much pain.

He barely spoke to his secretary to cancel his meeting heading towards his car as he drives like a mad man not caring about anything but reaching her house. Every single memory returns back hitting him square on his heart as he presses his chest to lessen the pain which didn't only intensify.

Once he stops he find everyone already there even his family. All sitting waiting for her appearance. Her father had gone to mute not saying a word and never leaving his room crying all the time holding her picture in his room.

Then they heard the door opens with a loud thud not how she used to open softly with sounds following as he held his breath feeling his palm sweating.

The moment she walked in with a dazzling smile on her face his heart stopped.

Her face was different it used to be small and pale at most times however it was more full now. Her eyes were sparkling in joy- not the joy of meeting them instead a different joy of life perhaps. Her smile- that smile he had only imagined because he never saw it ever in his time with her was so precious that his heart skipped a beat. Her hair that used to be plain brown were now caramel and well made in softest curls bouncing around the bubbly her matching her excitement.

"Dada Jaan". She said running right into his arms ignoring all the eyes (Grandfather)

She pulls back looking at his old face having even more wrinkles now but his smile remains filled with regrets that she doesn't have any need to acknowledge now.

She stands looking around frowning shaking her head as she walks out of the room dragging with her a man.

"Meet Captain Ibrahim Qureshi". She said grinning at the well-built man

Everyone gasped looking at Ibrahim because he wasn't a simple man. He was an army general for the best force holding the number of awards for his bravery, sacrifices and honour on his chest and shirt he wore at the moment. He was one the best man in the army with his handsome features, built body and even more amazing character with few words.

"What is he your new lover?". She heard the person voice she now hates

She turns to look at Ibrahim whose eyes narrow at Aliya who shrink back under his hard gaze and his hand clenched but his face showed no emotions whatsoever. However, Ibrahim turns to look at her and as they look at each other they smirk.

She turns around looking at Aliya who was only showing herself to be brave but under Ibrahim gaze, not many have stayed strong. She walks in a few confident strides striking her hard on her face watching everyone eyes widen. She turns around grinning at Ibrahim.

"Now I know why you choose to be in the army. It sure feels good to hit people". She said walking back towards him

"Precisely". He said shaking his head at her action nevertheless looking at Aliya

"Oh come on. Say that you just love the thrill I have been trying for three years now". She said smiling

He shrugged.

"Beta". She heard her grandfather say softly

She turns from smiling at Ibrahim to look at Dada as he opens his hands for her which she walks in dragging Ibrahim to sit on the empty seat.

"How have you been?". Her grandfather asked

"How do I look?". She asked curiously

"Happy". Her grandfather replied brushing her hair away from her face

She grins flipping her hair away, "I have been".

"Who is he?". Her grandfather asked looking at Ibrahim

"I am Ibrahim, Sir. I worked with her for the past three years in special forces- one part of our country army". Ibrahim said authoritatively

She giggles at his words, "You have to say like that?. He was the one batch I had been working for the past years and it had been fun".

"If your definition of fun is laughing at the enemy face you need to have your head check". Ibrahim said rolling his eyes

She laughs watching her grandfather wide eyes, "It's nothing. They needed someone to lure the enemy and I happen to help in it. The moment that man came to know about me and they all surrounded him his face was just too funny that I started laughing".

Ibrahim shakes his head with a hint of a smile appearing on his lips.

"You are lucky Major didn't say anything". Ibrahim said

"He laughed along with me and at least call him Baba (father) now we are not on the base". She said whining

"That's because you were safe and he adores you like everyone else". Ibrahim replied

"Oh! This reminds me don't you have to go home because your mother will have your head when she gets to know that you came back alive from the mission and didn't even call her". She said teasing

"She won't". He replied standing to leave

"She will slap you before she hugs you. I know, Ammu (mother)". She said grinning walking to the door with him

Ibrahim opens the door only for a body came crashing into him. He held his hand out holding her from falling to the ground.

Hira stands back on her feet pushing his hand away glaring at him, "Are you blind?".

"I am sorry, Ma'am". He said narrowing his eyes not wanting to be disrespectful

Hira looks at him taken back because people always fight back but he was....polite?.

She blushes embarrassed, "No. I am sorry I should have watched where I was going. Sorry".

Ibrahim smiled, "It's fine".

"Yeah yeah. You two can continue this and just ignore me". Amina said teasing watching them both turning red as smirks

"Hira, my best friend and this is Ibrahim my other best friend". Amina introduced

"I have heard a lot about you, Captain". Hira said softly

"Please call me Ibrahim and I hope good things". He said smiling lightly

"Brave things instead. I am really amazed and thank you for taking such good care of my friend". Hira said smiling

"Should I leave?". Amina said biting her lips as a plan form in her head

Ibrahim scratch the back of his head nervous something he never been, "N-No. I am leaving. See you around".

Once he was out of sight Amina laughed freely, "You made a shielded Ibrahim to a nervous stuttering man that is progressing".

Hira immediately enveloped her in a tight hug, "I missed you so much".

She smiles as they walk back inside to find everyone waiting for them again.

"I have a surprise for you". She said looking at curious Hira

"Guard". She yelled loudly

The door opens and soon in walks a man who no one can ever recognise easily now. He salutes standing in his position.

"Yes, Ma'am. Arshad at your service". Arshad said

Hira gasped looking at him who had turned into a strong man wearing the army uniform with pride in his eyes. Arshad looks at Hira with a beautiful smile. His once broken eyes now twinkle.

"Missed me?". He asked softly watching tears in Hira's eyes

"Look what he becomes in three years". Amina said grinning looking at him with pride

He had changed his dream after the injury he suffered. Now he turned himself to serve in the army after meeting Ibrahim who made him see a different path. He explained that not everything was meant to go as one wanted and there still remains many paths to take.

"You look so amazing, Arshad. I am so happy". Hira said smiling

"So am I". Arshad said, "I have to go now I have a duty to protect her and Ibrahim Sir wouldn't like this".

"Arshad just leave and go see your wife and daughter. I will handle Ibrahim". Amina said smiling

"But-". Arshad started

"No. Leave". She said strictly

He salutes walking away immediately excited to meet his family.

"What are your plans?. Let's go to my place". Hira suggested

She nodded turning to her grandfather, "I came here to meet you so I will leave now".

"W-Will you come back?"? Her grandfather asked as everyone held their breath

"No". She replied coldly

"What do you think you are?. How dare you come here after destroying everything?. You never deserved anything and you destroyed everything that you-". Aliya started

"Enough, Aliya". Omar said stern glaring at her

Aliya chuckles dryly, "You want me to stop?. She destroyed my life. She came here after three years just to look at how miserable everyone was with her new lover who knows what-".

Then Aliya received another slap on her face before she can hit back Amina held her hand behind her back restricting her movements.

"Let me be clear about something. I am not the stupid innocent girl that you would accuse of things and she wouldn't even voice out the truth. These past three years taught me how to fight and think on my own without being clouded with everyone else decision. I never had any feelings beside brotherly for Huzaifa when I to discuss them with you. You were the one who interpreted them in some stupid shitty fantasy of yours that I believed in because you were my friend". She leans closer to her, "I don't backstab people I play head-on. This is my last fair warning don't come near my people, talk shit about them and especially about me because the more you dig in the deeper I will push you into your own hole. Every step you take to bring anyone of us down I will throw you a thousand steps back. So behave yourself before I make you do it".

With that she holds her hospital coat walking to Hira who looks at her with pride.

"What's this?". Hira asked stopping her as she nears her looking at the badge on her coat

"This is what Ibrahim gave me. He said no one can ever give someone more than their honour, respect and protection". She said smiling fondly at the badge

"He said that?". Hira asked curiously

She shakes her head, "No. His mother told me that he is a man with few words".

"So?". Hira asked

"He showed me". She said shortly

"I will never leave you". Aliya screamed madly

She turns to look at her ignoring her but then she remembers that Ibrahim's mother told her to confront everyone once and for all.

She turns to her so-called family, "I want to clear few things. I never had any feeling maybe at that time I took them as such and it was my fault too that I never spoke believing that my family was enough to stand for me like they used to which you clearly failed in. I never did anything to bring shame to your name".

"We know, beta. I am sorr-". Her father started

"Don't. That word means nothing now. I am not here saying this for you to say sorry. It was a burden on my soul that I let someone shame me for something I never did". She said blankly

Aliya chuckles, "They don't believe you, honey. It's because Hira showed them the audio that they are like this".

The venom on her words feels right on her.

"W-What audio?". She asked Hira

Hira hesitated but then forward her phone for her to hear the words. Then her heart that she thought she has made strongly clenched yet again.

She laughed humourless looking around to the same people who have hurt her years back and still managed to do it again.

"I am sorry, Hira". She said throwing the phone at the glass made shelf breaking it down as the glass shattered making everyone gasp