, "She is gone because of you".

"Beta (daughter),-". Her father said

"No, he should know. I don't even know how she stayed in the same house that man. I would have killed him". She yelled angrily, "Do you even know what he did?".

"She said that he was the one after her and harassed her-". Waali said

She snickers, "I wish it was that simple. He wasn't just someone who harassed her. He kidnapped us and then h-he raped us".

Waali and Muzamil eyes widen as they hears the news.

"W-What?". They said shocked

"Yes. Then he left us in that warehouse to die until she decided she wouldn't die like that and we made it somehow to the main road where people helped us". She explained as she cried, "No man was ever able to break her, baba (father). He broke her".

She moves away from her father hold to pushing him, "Get out. I don't want you in my home".

"Please, Safa-". He begged

"No, you deserve this. Now you know everything even the reason behind her anger issues". She said pushing him outside and closing the door as she cried

******

"I looked into her background when I suspected things". Muzamil said passing him the papers

He looks at the papers that show clear information of how much she had worked hard all her life and how she was taking care of the orphanage.

"Call my sister". He said clenching his fist

His sister enters inside the room as she shoves the paper towards her.

"Where did you get those pictures?. What investigation did you exactly do?". He said gritting his teeth

"I-I asked someone from my friends before and she suggested someone. He brought those pictures to me". His sister said crying, "I had no idea it was a lie. My friend was involved with him and they forged the documents".

"How can you do this?". He yelled angrily, "I trusted you, Appi (sister). Do you know what I did?. I-I am the worst I hurt her so much and she didn't even say a word back to us even before leaving. I-I so bad I never deserved her. What do I do now?. I-I lost her".

He cried as his pain increases every single second.

*****

With no signs of her and searching everywhere he possibly could he lost himself a little every single day. Everyone around him saw it happen without being able to help. He didn't realise that she became his habit. A reason for him to come home early walking directly into his room just to see her face first thing. Every night when he used to start meaningless fights which she participated equally to her walking out of the room stomping her feet.

From waking early but staying in bed just watching her open her beautiful with a smile on her face. Watching her every single move when she was in front of her. Smiling in her smile and being hurt when she used to be hurt.

But, he hurt her the most.

So much to not be able to stay with her when they are going to be parents.

His heartbreaks.

Tears fall down his cheeks like every night and day he begged his lord to send her back in his life once again so he could make things right.

He realised just too late.

*****

He walks into the orphanage looking around to everyone bright smile. He realised why she loved staying here more because these children are free from worries and they can make anyone feel what they feel.

"Khalo (uncle)". Amir said excitedly running towards him hugging him, "How are you?".

He hugged him tightly inhaling his scent, "I am good, beta (son). You?".

"I am good too". He said happily, "Did she came?".

Waali heart clench.

Every day he visits Amir in her place and made his own goal to take care of everything for her until she is here. And everyday Amir looks at him with the hope that he will bring or find her and every day he breaks his tiny heart.

"Not yet". He replied kissing his forehead, "Want to go home?".

Amir nodded excitedly because now he calls his home 'home' instead of the orphanage. He was the only bright light in that house and her last belonging beside all the things she left behind in their room. He always sleeps on the couch to feel her somehow or look at her things for hours just to feel at peace.

Nothing brings peace.

Muzamil is the only one who has been looking around and begging along with him to Safa to tell them where she went because apparently, Safa's father used his influence to hide all the details of her departure.

He sits in the lounge watching his sister play with Amir. He knows she treats Amir like her own child since she lost her own. After Almaas left and he came to know the truth their (his and his sister) relationship had broken. They never talked about it or anything for that matter. He placed Gulzar behind bars for life.

But, he wanted to find her to beg her for forgiveness.

*****

Muzamil waits outside her office for a few hours now. He knows she is workaholic but today she is extra late. Since Almaas went away Safa had locked herself away from the world to her work and home.

She refuses to talk to people because watching the person who saved her that night and made her strong breaking somehow broke her too. She never trusted men but she knew Almaas somehow still did. She wanted to build a family and what did it cost?.

Everything.

She walks downstairs with heavy eyes from all the crying she did alone in the bathroom. Just as she exits on the street (since she likes walking) she sees him again. It's been five months after she told everyone about her being raped and he seems to be after her since then even more. He comes to her every day not saying anything but just walking behind her.

Honestly, she feels safe that way because even when she loves walking she never did it because of the fear of someone coming at her again. Now, even if someone inches closer to her Muzamil block them away from her.

Something that makes her heart flutters after years.

*******

Waali heard the door ringing rapidly and he moves away from Amir to open the door. He sees the orphanage guard standing at the door huffing.

"Amir, you have a letter". The guard said

Amir eyes widen as he runs towards the guard, "Khala (aunt)".

Waali heart pounds as he heard him say those words. In the consistent darkness, this is the first time he came this near to her.

Amir opens the letter as he reads loudly,

Beta (son), I hope you are doing good. I am sorry for not coming and instead of writing to you like this. I hope you understand that I just need some time. You don't have to worry about me at all. I am doing good and living nicely. I am writing this letter just to remind you that even if I am far I always miss you and love you. I am still watching over you even if I am not there. I hope you are doing as you promised me.

Wait for me.

Your Khala (aunt).

"It should have an address". Muzamil said entering inside the house

Waali quickly takes the letter cover reading the address on it.

"I think we found her". Waali whispers

*******

Almaas walks outside of her condo looking at the beautiful sea view in front of her as she comprehends her thoughts again.

For the past five months, it's been hard. She cries and thinks. Those two things are the only constant besides her visit to the doctor for her baby.

Her baby is healthy and she is thankful for it. The baby is the only one who is keeping her company as she heals herself. She wasn't easy to break but she did. She guessed that she wasn't actually guarding her heart.

She lost.

She wraps her hands around herself sitting on the cold sand as she finds another sun going down in front of her.

"Almaas". She heard the voice she craves for

Her heart stopped.

She turns around standing looking at him standing just a little away from her with tears in his eyes. She steps back as he takes a step forward.

"Almaas". He pleaded

"What are you doing here?. Who told you I am here?". She said angrily

"I am here for you. Your letter to Amir had the address on it". He replied taking a step forward making her take two back

She stumbles on a big stone making her lose balance. His eyes widen as fear grips him and he immediately runs to her holding her waist steadying her.

"Are you ok?". He asked worriedly

She opens her eyes looking at him then pushes him away walking away, "With you, never".

She enters inside her condo shutting the door behind her locking it so he doesn't enter inside. He stops just outside looking at her for a moment and she looks at him before closing the curtains.

She sits on the couch taking a deep breath.

She cannot believe she was stupid enough to send a letter to Amir. She could have sent something else so she couldn't be found. Now that he knows she is here what is she going to do. All she knows is he looks determined.

"What should I do?. Should I change my place?". She asked Safa on call

Safa took a deep breath, "Forgive him".

"What?". She asked confused

"Forgive him, Almaas. I saw him going crazy, begging every single person to find you. He stayed all night waiting for you and prayed that somehow he reached you. Maybe the mistake you did of writing a letter was lord way of bringing him back to you so you can be back together. You wanted to build a family right?. Find the new him, forgive him and then start your family. You have 4 months to do so". Safa said cancelling the call

She looks in spaces even after the call ended hours ago. The night falls making it even colder and since she is living near the sea the place is absolutely freezing.

She moves to her room bringing her sweater wrapping it around her as she walks to the kitchen to cook for herself.

She eats peacefully watching some old movie playing in front of her as sleep engulfs her.

He knows he can move away from the door which she closed on him. It still hurt to see that pain he had given her in her beautiful eyes. Though, he had to agree that after five months she glows even more.

He sighs.

It is freezing by now and he sits down with his back to the door not wanting to be away from being this close to her. He hadn't booked a hotel or did any preparation because as soon as he found the address he was rushing towards her.

The only thing he did think through was that no matter what he is not going back without her and their baby.

Baby.

He wasn't able to feel much of it but when he held her back then with the fear he still manages to feel a bit of the baby. The thought scares him that what if something happens to her, baby or if she doesn't forgive him.

With these thoughts, cold and his loneliness he slept.

*****

The next morning she opens her eyes a little disoriented since she slept in a bad position and now she feels her back hurt.

But then she remembers that she closed the door on him.

She chuckles at herself because there is no way he will stay outside in that cold weather. She takes her bath and then eats her breakfast with her mind constantly on him.

She breathes out opening the curtain only to have her eyes widen when she sees him laying outside. She opens the door walking outside immediately shaking him but he didn't wake up causing her to panic even more.

She decides to call the neighbours for help but just when she takes a step away from him he holds her hand.

"Don't go, please". He begged

She turns around looking at him shaking in the cold.

"You need to go inside. Do you think you can walk?". She asked

He nodded.

*****

She asked the people around for a doctor and after good hour she was able to find one who advised that his body temperature is extremely low which needed to be back at human temperature soon so he doesn't get sicker. Besides that he handsome medicine that will help.

He opens his tired eyes when he heard the doctor explaining his condition when he heard him asking, "How long are you?".

"Five months, why?". She asked worriedly making him anxious too

"I think you seem weak. Are you eating well and vitamins?". The doctor asked

"I don't have any vitamins. Food?. I can't eat most of the food but I try". She said not sure

He frowns at her words but feels his guilt rising since he wasn't there for months to take care of her.

"I suggest you take these vitamins and eat forcefully if you have to but you need to eat well". The doctor insisted

Just as the doctors left she looks down at her hands where her medicine is.

She sighs.

She walks outside bringing a glass of water for him taking his medicine out. She has him take his medicine but before he can lose conscious again. He starts to sit up as she turns to place the medicine away. He holds her before she can put them away sitting with her support taking the medicine out of her hands.

"Take them". He insisted weakly

She shakes her head, "I will take them later".

"No, now". He said holding her hand tighter loving the feeling of it

She pushes his hand away taking the medicine, "Happy?".

He leaves the feeling of hurt he felt by her pushing him away then nodded weakly as he feels the sleep coming, "Very".

She sees him sleeping peacefully. She finds as many blankets she possibly can placing them all on him. She walks outside towards the kitchen to make him soup.

After done, she walks back into the room checking his temperature which still wasn't normal. She sits there looking at his pale face lost in her thoughts.

She never truly loved a man. She thought what she had for Noman was her one and only chance at the love which didn't come true. She felt rejected then and she felt even worse this time. She realised what she felt back then was not this strong because she didn't dwell on it this much.

She never ran away.

She realised as she saw him in front of her and how her heart reacted to him.

She loves him.

******

He opens his eyes at some time not sure of anything. All he remembers he was worried about his wife health before going to sleep. He wondered if she ate anything.

The thought immediately brings power in him to sit in his position even when his body protested against it. He watches her sleeping on the couch far away from him.

His heart clench.

No matter how much he tries she is always hurt because of him. He moves the blanket off him. He can feel his body falling with each step he takes towards her he feels the dizziness coming back.

He gently wraps his hands around her holding her to him making him feel peace almost immediately at the mere contact of her skin. He places her on the bed when he feels the blackness in front of his eyes making him fall on the bed but he manages to cover her before he fully passes out.

"I am sorry". He whispers passing out

She wakes after a comfortable sleep she had in these months. Her nightmare made it hard for her to sleep peacefully making her unable to function properly or eat.

She feels the warmth around her which is odd so she turns her head looking at him sleeping beside her. She wishes they were in a normal relationship for her to enjoy this but she couldn't be.

She cries.

Her heart breaks into pieces because she cannot decide anything. She loves him and he hurts her. What is she supposed to do?. She wants him, her family and everything but can she risk her heart again.

He heard.

He heard her crying beside him making his heartbreak along with her. It feels like someone stabs his heart hearing her whimper. He knows she cannot look at him without the pain he had provided her with.

Tears espace his eyes as well at the thought of how much he made her suffer for no reasons.

They both cried knowing the other is crying too but too hurt to comfort.

******

After she falls back into sleep he stays in bed for a while looking at her face still holding tears. He uses his thumb placing it on her cheeks as he wipes her tears away. He kisses her forehead lovingly, "I am so sorry. If you want me to say this all our life I will. I cannot find a single word to say to you that can ease the pain I gave you. Please, just give me one chance".

He walks towards the door after covering her properly. His head still hurts as he walks into the kitchen he finds the soup she made. He smiles lightly at how she can care even after everything he did.

He chooses to not drink the soup just yet because he wants to cook something for her first. The doctor words keep playing in his head making him more worried every second.

He cooks as much as his skills allow learning online what the healthiest food he can provide her with at the moment.

He sees her rubbing her eyes finding it cute when he sees her frowning more.

"Almaas". He called softly

She blinks her eyes looking at him blankly waiting for him to speak. He holds her hand after hesitating for a complete minute but when she didn't protest he brings her to the table giving her food.

"Eat". He said smiling

She looks at the food making a face at how healthy it is.

"This isn't for me, is it?". She asked

"It is". He said

"No, no, no, I am not eating this". She whines, "Maybe I can eat something-".

Before she can leave her place he holds her hand making her sit back.

"Eat". He said firm

"No". She said shaking her head

"Eat it, Almaas". He insisted

"No". She said angrily

"Fine. I will call Safa and tell her". He said taking his phone

Her eyes widen, "No, don't do that".

He hides his smile waiting for her to start eating.

She huffs muttering under her breath about how he sure knows to blackmail people which hurt him a little but he didn't say anything because as much as she curses him at least she is eating.

She finishes her food and she likes it but she is not going to say that to him. She stands from her seat to place the dish away when she sees him looking at her. He watched her all through her eating.

He feels her placing her hands on his forehead feeling his temperature. He resists the urge to pull her into a hug to feel her near him but he restrains not wanting to break the moment.

Her heart flutters.

It had been long her heartbeats increases just by a single touch. She moves her hand bringing him food this time forcing him to eat.

They both take their medicine sitting in the lounge in pure silence.

"What are you here for?". She asked

He tries his best to think of a response but all he can speak is, "You".

"Why?. You already did what you wanted. Why?". She said frustrated

His heart clench looking at the pure pain on her face, "I am sorry. I know those words mean nothing at the moment but those words are all I have. I-".

"I don't want your sorry I want a reason for you to stay out the whole night in cold like an idiot. Reasons for the things you are doing, the reasons for you to look this miserable. Reasons, Waali". She said angrily

"I love you". He said bluntly