3 years later..

I guess everyone thought I was gonna have this improved lifestyle by now right? Wrong. After Jalonni's friend raped me I couldn't take it anymore. I ran away from home, and went over my aunts house. I begged her to not call my dad or Jalonni but she did it anyways. I was over her house for a week in peace then Jalonni showed up, and brought me back home and beat me again. He never had any reason for putting his hands on me, he just did it. I dealt with the abuse on a daily basis, often times hoping that Feizon and La'rey wouldn't see. After a year dad finally came home. I had finally mustered up the courage to tell him what happened.

I got the worst reaction possible. He called me a liar, and said I was disgusting for telling him MY fantasies of my own brother. I was shattered, and I refuse to take it anymore. I packed up my things once more, and I left never to return. I felt bad for leaving Theo, My brothers, Synthia, and everyone but I had to.

All the bad I allowed in my life has affected me today. I'm now 19, and I'm spending it alone. When I ran away from home I managed to get to South Carolina on a couple of bucks and a train ticket. Leaving Detroit had to be the only option. I did things, things that I'm not proud of to get by for 2 years. I was demeaned, violated, and used. By now you can say I was pretty used to it.

Over time after sleeping from hotels to bus benches, I met a man. He was nice, he took me in, and put me up in a hotel. He cleaned me up, and bought me new clothes, and gave me food. He was supposed to be the good guy. Over time I grew fond of him

He kept asking about my home life, and honestly by this time I had forgotten about everyone back home. I didn't have anything to tell him other than I was an orphan. Last I heard or saw anything about my family back home was that I was a missing child. I'm pretty sure by now, I've been pronounced dead.

The guy that took me in, whose name is Lamont, had a addiction. He was a sex addict and he was a drug addict. I didn't realize because he took such good care of himself. One day he came to the hotel room to see me. He pulled out the baggie, and asked me had I ever tried cocaine. I shook my head no because I knew it was bad.

"You're gonna try it today." He says catching me off guard.

"That's not a good idea." I said standing up from the sofa.

He pulls me back on the sofa forcefully. "You're hurting me." I wince out.

"Shut up and sniff " he says pushing my head down, and handing me a rolled up dollar bill.

I sniffed down the line of cocaine, and a feeling of Paranoia and Euphoria cane over me. It's like I was seeing crazy patterns, and colors, and everything looked loopy.

He sniffed two lines of coke, and started fidgeting with his nose as he sat back. "That's some good shit." He sniffles.

I just stay zoned out in space. I had even noticed that he pulled his penis out, and began stroking himself.

He grabs my neck, and pulls my head down to his lap. "Suck it." He demands and I follow orders. He guides my head up and down occasionally gagging me but he didn't care. The point in my where I was always being abused came back to me. Why is it always me? He starts to jump, and I try to pull my head up. He holds my neck down. "Swallow all of that nut bitch" He says aggressively as he starts to cum. I try to swallow, but he released so much at one time. It was so disgusting and sticky, and I felt like it was sticking to my throat.

He pushes my head off of him, and he stood up to pull up his pants. He fixes himself, and started to dig in his pants. Pulling out his wallet, he throws 320 dollars on the table and leave like I was a cheap slut to him. I trust him for all these months, and he just hurt me. I stood up, and ran to the bathroom. I leaned over the toilet, and made myself throw up.

After I was done, I got up and brushed my teeth. I went back into the room, and packet up my things once again, and I left. Walking down the streets of South Carolina, I was lost. I had 320 dollars to my name, and had no where to go that would suffice. It was nearing nighttime, and I needed shelter. I walked down this alley, and noticed a building that I thought was empty. I walked in and saw various prostitues and addicts.

"Hey honey. What you looking for?" One lady walked up to me, and started examining me. She was cute, kinda tall, but cute.

"Please I have 300 dollars. All I need is rest." I beg her and she stops me.

"You look a little young to be out here alone. Are you okay?" She asks.

"No I'm not. I was just raped and forced to do drugs. I'm tired. I have no family, and--"

"It's okay sugar. Come with me." She takes my hand and we walk up some stairs past several other rooms. We get into what I guess was her room, and she tells me to sit down.

I sit down, and she begins taking off her clothes to change. "How will I make money to live?" I ask her.

She starts to scratch her head. "I don't want you to get wrapped up in what I do because I'll take you some places, but if you need money I can talk to my boss tomorrow, and see can you get down."

Boss? Is that what she calls it? I know what she's referring to and I've already been through enough with guys but since I'm already worthless, why not get paid for my body.

"Get some rest. Tomorrow when you're ready I'll see about you getting in." She smiles and I nod. "Oh and by the way my name is Isis."

The light cuts off so I believe she is gone. I turn to my side, and fall asleep.

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The next morning I'm awoken by rustling in the room. I open my eyes slowly, so I could adjust to the light, and then I sit up.

"Sorry for waking you. I brought you breakfast." She says handing me a Chic-Fil-A bag.

"Thanks." I mumble as I stare down at the food.

"You okay?" She asks me and I nod.

"Yes ma'am"

"Don't call me ma'am sounds old. Call me Isis." She says and I smile.

"Okay."

"Now eat up then we'll get you cleaned up and ready to meet big daddy." She say standing up.

I pull out my biscuit, and spread the jelly on it. I put the top half back on and bite into it. "Who is big daddy?" I ask curiously.

"He runs this joint here. He can also get you into the game." She says combing her hair in the mirror.

"Oh okay." I shrug and continue eating my breakfast.

"You out of school honey?" She asks randomly.

"I dropped out after I ran away." I said honestly.

"Let me guess daddy issues." She says bluntly.

"No...." I said kinda angry.

She looks at me in the mirror then turns around. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be... I was taken advantage of." I admit.

"I'll be honest with you sugar. In this lifestyle you're gonna be taken advantage of. You just have to capitalize off of it. Hell, I get paid $750-$1000 just to show a little skin." She laughs

"Wow that's good." I nod finishing the last of my biscuit.

"You damn right." She says turning back around to finish her hair.

"I'm ready to take my shower now." I say to her and she stands up.

"You need to take a bath, and scrub the filth you felt off of you. This new filth you feel will be paid filth." She says as I gather some clothes.

We walk out of the room, and head to the bathroom. We past some of the other whores on the way, and they didn't pay me any attention. We get into the bathroom, and it was really big. It had several showers, and toilets. Each whore was assigned a stall. Isis walked me over to here, and she had her own section that was blocked off from the others.

"If you couldn't tell I'm the bottom bitch around here. I get everything I want but that still doesn't stop me from making my money. Think of yourself as my apprentice."

I smile at her comment, and lean down to run my water. "Thanks for everything." I say to her.

"Don't thank me yet. After you get out of this tub, we really handle business" she smiles and walks out of the restroom.

I wait until she leaves to take off my clothes. I examine the healed marks, and bruises I have on my body from Jalonni, and I start to have flashbacks.

"What you doing baby?" Jalonni whispers to me while at the table for dinner.

"Can you please just leave me alone..." I whisper back not looking at him.

"Mahyden...." He places his hand under the table and squeezes my thigh tightly causing me to shiver.

"I'm sorry.." I say placing my hand on top of his to soothe him. I look back up towards my 2 younger brothers who sit and stare quietly in fear.

"That's more like it.." he moves his hand, and places it back on the table.

My dad comes out and sets the table... "Alright boys.. Bow your head..."

We all bow our heads, and say grace. After we finish, everyone starts to dig into the Curry chicken that was prepared.

"I'm not hungry.." I say while standing up.

"Are you sure? You never turn down a meal.." Dad says.

"I'm positive. I really just want to go lay down." I shrug looking over at Jalonni who looks pissed.

"Go ahead then.. It'll be left overs in the fridge." Dad says motioning for me to leave.

I quickly exit towards the stairs up towards my room. Once I reach my room I make sure to turn and lock the door. I take off my jeans I had on, so I could slide into my sweats. I straighten out my jeans, and I lie down on my bed. I close my eyes for a brief second when I heard a *Click* on my door knob.

I quickly sit up, and get under the covers. I don't want him to see an ounce of my body.

Jalonni walks into my room, and I am terrified. He looks at me, and turns to lock the door. "So...." He says after locking the door. "You not eating now? Are you trying to starve yourself so you can leave me? Huh?" He says lowly but with anger in his voice.

"I didn't want to eat. I just wasn't hungry that's all" I explain.

He walks over to my bed and caresses my face before grabbing me by my neck and lifting me up off of the bed.

"Are you trying to fucking leave me?" He repeats.

"No baby.. I promise.." I scarcely say.

Calling him baby was the only way to calm him down when he's on attack mode. I didn't mean it nor did I like it but it was the only way to stay safe to make sure my brothers were okay...

I immediately come to, when I realize the water was about run over. I fully strip, and step into the nice hot water. I lean back and sigh at the stinging sensation on my body. I guess this is my new life now. All because no one would listen....