I could feel the muscles in my body burning as they tried to heal me as fast as possible and I yearned to wake up as soon as possible.

Mustafa...

Mehmed...

Beyazid...

Ibrahim...

Yenisah...

Oh my small Yenisah, I miss all of them so much. How long have I been gone? Am I dead? Or am I alive?

I could feel my eyes so I tried to open them. After many failed attempts I was finally successful and got them to open. I could see Mustafa sitting beside me looking me with hopeful eyes.

"My darling," he said closing his eyes in relief before yelling for a doctor. It was a female doctor which I knew bought here specifically for me because I was the only woman here so the male doctor probably tried to stop the bleeding with a blindfold on until she arrived from the nearest palace to hear.

"Sultana, can you please drink this?" She asked pulling out a spoon and filled it with a green medicine. I nodded and sat up with Mustafa's help before she made me drink the disgusting drink.

"What happened?" I asked Mustafa turning to face him.

"You lost your consciousness after you got stabbed and I almost killed the guard as the doctors tried to treat you," he said kissing my forehead.

"As long as you're alive my Mustafa," I said placing my hand in his cheek and pulled him in for a kiss.

"You're important too my Nasira," he said leaning his forehead on mine. I smiled lightly loving him so near me and safe.

"Come on," he said and helped me up with much difficulty to not rip open my wound again. He helped me change into cleaner clothes and put on a headscarf. I leaned against Mustafa who walked me out of the tent, I could see the entire janissary army standing in front of me and it seemed like an endless crowd.

"HASEKI NASIRA SULTAN" the leader yelled banging his fist against his chest before all of the janissaries followed suit.

"I'm not a sultan's wife, I can't be a Haseki" I stated confused turning my attention to Mustafa who grinned at me.

"The janissary want you to be a Haseki so you are a Haseki" he answered with a small chuckle.

"There's one more thing Nasira" I turned from the crowd that was still chanting my name making me feel pride in my heart but I knew that what I did was not to earn power but to save my lover.

"You're pregnant" my eyes widened at the words that left his mother. Yenisah isn't even a year old and I'm already pregnant again.

"I am?" I asked. Mustafa nodded his head eagerly. I couldn't help but jump on him and hug him tightly forgetting my wound which probably was a bad idea.

After a week of rest, Mustafa decided that it was time we leave for our castle to prepare to leave back to Manesa which was the sultan's way of apologizing to Mustafa by making him rule the most important city other than the capital and in a way he made him his first heir again.

I got out of the carriage with the help of two harem aghas. Mustafa insisted on helping me walk into the castle and towards the harem where Mahidevran sultan was waiting for us. I let go of him and leaned against a maid knowing that Mahidevran sultan would probably want to hug him.

And I was right; the second we walked in he kissed her hand and she immediately pulled him in for a hug. I could see the tears in her eyes spilling out but Mustafa was there to wipe them off and kiss her forehead.

"Mustafa," she said with a quivering voice as she looked him over. Her eyes stopped at the bruises around his neck which made her tear up again.

"My angel," she said kissing his hands affectionately.

"Daddy!" Mehmed yelled running over. Mustafa bent down and hugged the boy before he was tackled by two more bodies and he barely was able to stop himself from falling back.

"I don't know what I can do to you that will repay my debt to you. You saved my soul Nasira" Mahidevran sultan said walking over to me who was still leaning against a maid who seemed too happy to help.

"I don't want anything more than for Mustafa to be safe and sound" I answered back taking her hand in mine and kissing the back of it as she patted my cheek.

"Be careful with your mother boys, she's a little hurt" Mustafa warned the boys who were about to tackle me too.

"Come here" with the helped of the maid I sat down on a couch and pulled the boys in for a hug.

"Yenisah?" I asked the same maid who helped me sit down just now.

"She will be bought right away sultan" she bowed before taking her place at the door. Seconds later madam ran in with Yenisah in her arms.

"My baby" I took her from madam and held her close to me wanting to feel her warmth against me.

"Dispatch gold in the harem and make the pregnancy juice and lukmat" Mahidevran order the maids. One of them bowed and left to the kitchens to tell them to start preparing.

I watched as Mustafa hugged our sons close to him before walking over and taking my daughter from me and kissed her cheek smile as she cooed at him before handing her back to me. I watched as he fawned over his daughter, Nargessah, just as much.

This was the sultan the Ottoman dynasty needed, a just sultan. A merciful sultan. A loving sultan who cares about his people and I will be by his side as he rises to the throne I swear that.