I smiled lightly as the warm sunlight hit my face waking me up. I was in Mustafa's room wrapped in between his arms keeping trapped against him not as I minded.

"Mustafa, my love you have to wake up"I mumbled against his ear. I smirked when I felt him shiver beside me knowing that I'm the only one who has such an effect on him and me alone.

"I don't want to" he muttered lazily making me laugh a little.

"We're traveling to the capital today or did you forget?" I asked teasingly. He huffed in annoyance and pushed the blanket off of us, squinting a little because of the light as he sat up.

"No, I didn't. I don't want Mihrimah to marry Rustom" he voiced his opinion loudly. Everyone knows that Mustafa hated Rustom especially because he was on Hürrem's side trying to kill him as soon as possible.

"Come on my prince, Mehmed is very excited to see his uncles and aunt again" I sat up and got out of bed pulling on my silk robes to cover my sleep dress.

Mustafa kissed my forehead before I left my room to get read. When I passed the Harem aghas they immediately turned around and bowed so their backs were to me so they won't see me in such a state.

When I walked in I saw Mehmed with Madam, when he saw me he got off of her lap and ran over to me, I kneeled down and picked the two years old up feeling my heart swell at the sight of him running.

I put him down and fixed my robe before looking at Malak who was standing beside the door.

"Get me my clothes so we can leave early" I ordered her. She bowed before leaving the room to get me a couple of my dresses so I can choose one.

I took a deep breath and turned around the face madam feeling fear build up inside of me at only the thought of going to that castle without worst enemy living in it.

When they came to our castle a while ago I almost punched Hürrem a couple of times. She didn't like anything here, 'why isn't my room bigger?' 'Didn't you teach your maids how to clean Mahidevran?' 'Your castle is too small' and many more insults that made me want her dead as fast as possible.

After changing my clothes I changed Mehmed's and the twins before we left to Mahidevran sultan's room to wait there for Mustafa.

"I see you're just as excited as me to go to that castle" Mahidevran jokes making me chuckle. I bounced Ibrahim on my knee to make him stop fussing around.

"Can't say I'm thrilled to go there" I said truthfully. A Harem agha walked in informing us that the prince was waiting for us beside the carriage.

We walked out and straight into the carriage. What will happen now? Will Hürrem try to kill Mustafa? Will my children be safe there? Of course not!! As long as Hürrem is alive no one is safe in that castle.

I got out of the carriage sighing in relief. We finally reached the castle where my anxiety will start. Whenever I'm near this place I feel dread in my stomach and I sometimes get this feeling that I should just take in a deep breath and run, run away from this hell hole. Whoever lives in this castle dies or whoever they love dies and I don't want anyone I love to die anytime soon.

"Your majesty" I bowed in front of the sultan taking his ring clad hand in between my smaller ones and placed a kiss at the back of it.

"Welcome Nasira," he said smiling at me before I moved.

"Sultanim" I bowed to Hürrem who smirked at me and surprisingly pulled me in for a hug making me freeze in confusion.

"You see Nasira it doesn't matter what your origins are from. What matters is who you are now. You're a prince's wife while I'm a sultan's wife so remember that I am with more power than you wherever you go" she whispered in my ear with so much venom I almost hit poisoned.

I pulled away and smiled sarcastically at her before moving to Mihrimah who I greeted normally.

"Will you continue teaching me, French?" Mehmed asked. I chuckled at his eagerness.

"Of course" I chuckled as Selim and Beyazid started fighting over who trained more French before my arrival.

"I'm sure you two trained alike" I patted their heads trying to make them stop fighting which worked and they both smile brightly at me almost like the melted.

I moved to Chihangir who looked at me for a second as I kneeled in front of him before pulling me in for a very tight hug.

"I missed you too my young prince" I kissed the side of his head making him giggle a little.

I walked into the Harem with Mahidevran sultan and Hürrem. Hatice sultan stood there waiting for us.

"Sultan," I said bowing respectfully before taking her hand in mine and kissing the back of it.

After a little chat, she left with Mahidevran sultan leaving me with Hürrem in the middle of the Harem.

"See this Nasira" Hürrem said out of nowhere pointing at the harem.

"This you will never even dream of ruling," she said smirking wickedly at me making me sick in my stomach at the power-hunger in her eyes.

"I never said I wanted it," I said back smartly making her scoff.

"Who doesn't? Don't lie to me and to yourself" she said back stalking over to me.

"I don't lie. Unlike you" I said back smirking before walking away to my room, surprisingly followed by Mihrimah sultan for some reason.

"I've never seen anyone stand up to my mother like this before. I mean I've seen my aunts stand up to her but never like you" Mihrimah said as walked into my room where my things were being placed by Harem aghas.

"Glad that amuses you," I said back teasingly sitting down on my bed. She followed suit and sat down beside me and talked for the rest of the day.