"Sultana you can't possibly lock yourself here forever," madam said sitting beside me on the couch.

"I don't plan to, I just need some time" I mumbled sadly looking down at my fingers.

"I'm pretty sure he has an explanation to why he did this" madam said trying to find a logical answer to what happened, just then the doors opened and Mahidevran sultan walked in, I stood up and bowed to her.

"Nasira you can sit down," she said sitting down as madam left us alone in the room.

"I came here to talk to you about Mustafa," she said making me scoff and look out of the window not being able to look at her anymore.

"He doesn't care for me as much as I thought he did, he held another girl while I was caring for our son there's no explanation to that," I said angrily glaring at the birds outside that were tweeting happily.

"He's a prince he has to have more than one woman" she tried to justify what he did.

"The sultan had only Hürrem," I said without even thinking.

"I'm sorry sultana that was over the line" I apologized but still refused to look at her because every time I look at her I see him.

"You have to understand Nasira he will never be only yours," she said getting up angrily and leaving.

I stood up angry at everything and everyone, I looked beside me and saw my vanity table and without even thinking I pushed it to the ground making everything on it fall to the ground and shatter, I turned around still angry and I saw my mirror so I pushed it to the ground too making the glass on it go flying everywhere.

I ran to the door and locked it not wanting anyone near me at the moment, I didn't want anyone to see me so vulnerable as the hot tears started running down my face. I slid down the door with my back against it not caring that the wood was scratching against my back or how it dug into my back when I leaned against it.

I looked in front of me and saw a piece of glass right in front of me laying there like it had a mission and I knew what it was, I need a way out, a way out of this pain, I want this pain to finally end, I can't endure it anymore.

I took the glass between my fingers not caring that it cut my finger and blood started oozing out of the small wound. It was like I was hypnotized I pulled the glass to my wrist slowly and shakily.

I got up as I heard footsteps run over to my room, I without thinking twice pulled the glass over my wrist letting out a small cry of pain as it ripped my skin and blood started spilling out like a river.

The door was broke open to show Mustafa with a worried face, the next thing I know was black as I fell unconscious.

"NASIRA" was the last thing I heard as I lost all of my senses from hearing to feeling and seeing.

I opened my eyes slightly to see darkness and the only thing lighting my room were a couple of candles

"Nasira you're finally awake" I looked beside me to see Mustafa and Mahidevran sultan.

"Unfortunately" I mumbled trying to sit up and pulled the covers to my chest when I noticed I was in my sleepwear.

"You scared us," Mustafa said throwing me a small smile.

"No need to be scared, you can now go back to your maid," I said harshly moving my gaze to Malak as she walked over with Mehmed, I took him from her and placed him in my lap kissing his forehead.

"Nasira it's been two months why can't you just let this go," Mustafa asked angrily.

"Because it's something I can't forgive Mustafa, I've always been a strong woman who would never let anyone hurt her yet here we are and I'm with a shattered heart Mustafa, I can't forgive you for breaking me" I yelled back angrily. Mahidevran Sultan took Mehmed from me and left the room with the maids.

"It was one mistake and I didn't mean it," he said slamming his hands down at the side of the bed.

"If you didn't mean it you wouldn't have done it in the first place," I said back angrily throwing the covers off of me and standing up.

"I love you I truly do but after all, I'm a prince and I need more than one heir" he yelled back making me clench my fists

"And you couldn't wait until I recovered so I can give you another one, or was I just another toy to you so you could play with me when you feel bored?" I asked angrily and anxiously at the same time as I stalked over to him.

"Of course not. I wouldn't lose the throne for a toy; I love you with all my heart but I need to fulfil my duties as a prince too" he said trying to explain himself.

"And your duties is to sleep around with random girls as your wife lays in pain in her bed as she also takes care of your NEWBORN son?" I asked sarcastically glaring harder at him and stopping right in front of him.

"Watch what you're saying Nasira I am a prince and I will not tolerate such behaviour here," he said angrily as if he was trying to control himself.

"And I am a princess and I will not tolerate anyone who treats me wrong, so in the following week expect to hear the news, she's gone," I said pushing at his chest trying to get him out of my room.

"You won't leave this castle as long as I'm alive," he said angrily holding my wrists to stop me from pushing him.

"I want to be as far away from you as possible because you're a horrible husband who doesn't know how to treat his wife" I hissed angrily pushing his hands away.

"I already acknowledged that what I did was wrong and apologized why do you insist on hurting me this way?" He asked calming down a little.

"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND CAN'T LIVE WITH THE FACT THAT YOU TOUCHED ANOTHER WOMAN AFTER ME" I screamed losing all of my control and fresh tears started falling from my eyes.

"I promise you Nasira this won't happen again and I will love you and only you besides she means nothing to me," he said pulling me closer to his chest.

"Get away from me," I said and tried to push him away but he held on and in no time I gave up and relaxed in his hold and finally forgave him but that doesn't mean I will ever forget and the next time he does something like this I will destroy this castle on his head and that's a promise.