Rion has been gone for two days.

Niall and Zayn are searching.

Liam and Louis try to keep me sane but the last 48 hours have been a living hell.

The girl I love is somewhere probably scared and alone and I'm sitting here on Liam's couch not doing a thing. I feel sick to my stomach, haven't slept nor ate..

Louis contacted the police but refused I speak to them because apparently I'm not in the right state of mind.

Ok I guess I could agree with him on that.

"Harry would you like some water."

"No." I simply reply to Liam.

That's when I got the letter.

Day eight is what took every piece of me and smashed it to bits. Day eight is what made me lose hope.

When Louis and Niall handed me the letter I wouldn't believe it. I couldn't believe it!

The letter:

Harry,

Although our time together may have been the best of my life it was all a little to much.

I don't want you to blame Liam, Louis, Zayn, or Niall. And please don't blame yourself.

I loved you. But things get hard and people fall out of love.

There were people out to get me and that's what I was afraid of. I didn't want to run or hide. So to make it easier I left. This was the only way I could be free, you could be free.

Everyone helped me get away. This was all my idea they only helped. I need this Harry. So please carry on with life, the tour, find love. Just promise me one thing.

Don't look for me.

Love always

Rion

"No Louis I need to stay here." I sigh out of anger.

"But Harry we can't just keep canceling shows. And this place is in the middle of nowhere, you don't really wanna stay here?" Louis complains leaning on the island.

"I can do whatever the fuck I want! I need peace and quiet!" I'm sick and tired of people telling me what to do.

"She will be fine"

"Get some sleep"

"We will find her stay here"

Those phrases all were repeated to me and I'm sick of being bossed around.

I pick up the glass of water and smash it hard against the floor.

"Harry.." Louis barely whispers.

"Just leave." I cry as he steps closer. "Leave Louis!" I yell louder as he flinches back

I take a seat on the floor leaning my back against the wall and let the tears stain my cheeks. I'm literally going insane.

How could Rion leave me like this? She left me without a warning. I could have protected her. I could have saved her from people like Tessa. Instead she ran away. All because of me.

I stopped calling her phone to listen to her voicemail 3 days ago. But I need to hear her voice.

Picking up my phone I dial her number and the familiar sound of her voicemail rings through my ear.

"Hi you've reached Rion I'm either busy, sleeping,-"

"Or with Harry!" My voice cuts hers off.

"Harry!" She laughs. "Leave a message."

I have to stop this. She doesn't want me. She made that clear in the letter. She said she loved me. She said she fell out of love.

I still love her and I need to stop. I need to forget about her.

If I have to stay in this cabin, alone until she's out of my head so be it.

Reaching behind me under the cabinet sink I pull out a bottle of liquor Louis and I kept there for special occasions.

I guess this is special enough, right?

I take three swigs and enjoy the burn of the liquor down my throat.

Three more gulps.

Nine more and I'm on my feet stumbling around laughing at how stupid and pathetic I am.

He'srightabove me. He's so close and he doesn't even know it.

"Harry." I sob.

My left foot is chained to the pipe on the wall and my head lays on the thin mattress that is laid out on this cold ground.

"Fuck her!" I hear a shout startling me.

"Bitch!" Harry's voice is slow and clouded. I can smell the liquor of his breath from here.

"She thinks she can leave me?"

What? He can't possibly be talking about me.

"Well fuck. I got played by a fucking 18 year old prude virgin Marry."

A pain of hurt courses through my body at the harsh words. But I look past that and concentrate on what he's really saying.

"Poor Rion couldn't take the flashing lights. Cry me a river!"

What is he babbling about?

"You need to get him out of that house."

"You don't think I know that?"

"Before we know it he'll find the girl and the whole plan will come crashing to you." Jenn reminds me.

"Fuck. Just give him time." I pinch the bridge of my nose. "And tell Niall if he doesn't keep his mouth shut I have no problem reading the headlines "One D star tragic death by drugs.'" I tell Jenn.

"That won't be that hard to fake."

In a matter of no time Harry will come back to me and forget about Rion. It's not fair that we had something that was taking away from us.

After years of trying to be together he eventually fell out of love and I just couldn't. He will realize that soon enough.

He won't love Rion.

He'll love me.

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