The warm Miami breeze feels great against my sun kissed skin. Harry and I returned late last night so we can pack out of our hotel and get ready for he two month break of the tour. We haven't really discussed where we'll be going or what we'll be doing during this break before we go to the UK to wrap up the tour.

"Ahh home sweet home." Harry sarcastically says as we step into the familiar hotel room we were in together just last week. "I hate hotels." he scoffs pulling out his suitcase so we can start to pack.

"I've only stayed in them about 15 times in my lifetime and I'm already sick of them, I can't imagine how you must feel." I say wrapping my arms around his waist trying my best to comfort him.

"If I'm being completely honest they suck, but staying in them with you makes it 100 percent better." He leans down and kisses the top of my head wrapping his long arms around me. I love the feeling of his warm embrace. The way I can feel his warm chest rise up and down slowly with each breath melts my heart every time. I'm so in love with him, I just know I am. I'm so in love with the boy in front of me. I love his quirky humor he has all the time. I love every little detail of him, like his dimples that form when he smiles his sweet smile. Or his black inked arms and chest that are just so memorizing to look at. There over hundreds of things i could go on and on about loving him. But the one thing i hate about him is I cant admit it to him that i'm so in love.

"Ry?"

I'm immediately rushed out of my thoughts when Harry calls for my name. My arms still remain tightly around his waist and Harry has a concerned look starring down at me.

"What is it?'' he asks.

"nothing." I weakly smile. We both know thats a lie. There is something bothering me, something I'm not ready to tell. "Let's start packing, yeah?"

"Yeah, yeah sure." he timidly nods but continues to shove clothing into his red suitcase.

I make my way to the closet in the other room to retrieve my own suitcase when i hear an obnoxious buzzing noise coming from the sink next to me. It's Harry's phone. I look down at the number and the name reads Tess. Is this the girl Niall was talking about on the yacht? I know this is so wrong and none of my business but I don't think Harry will mind if I just answer. My curiosity gets the best of me..

"Hello?"

"Um, Hi. Who the hell is this?" A nagging voice responds on the other line.

"I'm Harry's gi- friend. I'm Harry's friend."

"Oh!" The girl, Tess, cheers on the other line."You must be Rion."

"Uh yeah, this is Ry." I annoyingly respond. I want to know who this Tess girl is and why she's contacting Harry.

"So, I'm assuming he didn't tell you since you're still there and all. But I don't know why he would even tell you. Heck I don't even know why hes still with a pathetic prude like you." My mouth drops open as she rambles on. How dare she talk about me like that. I am not a prude.

"Excuse me? And who the hell you think you are?" I look back into the man room and see Harry still obliviously packing.

"Ha!" she laughs into he phone. "I'm Harry's ex. Oh and the girl who was riding his dick when little ole Rion was home with your poor brother."

I can't even comprehend the words coming out of her mouth. Harry has told me Niall has tried to get with his girlfriends in the past and Niall did mention Tess.. Is she the girl that he and Niall have history with. If she is, Why is she still contacting him, are they really having sex behind my back. Or is she just a crazy ex trying ti make me jealous.

"He wouldn't do that to me." I whisper into the phone so Harry won't hear me.

"You sure about that?"

"Positive."

I think..

"Check Harry's right pocket of his white shorts, I left you a present."

The line goes dead and I'm standing in front of the sink debating on whether to look or not. I'm afraid of the truth, I'm afraid that Tess is right, that I'm really not good enough and Harry needs more than a blow or a hand job here in there.

"Ry, baby.. You alright?"

Harry's raspy low voice and the way he calls me baby catches my attention. I just smile like nothing happened and grab my suitcase from the close and carry on. "Just fine babe." I fake smile and plant a kiss on his cheek as I walk by him.

"Babe? I like the sound of that." He chuckles while he wraps his arms around my waist and lays his head down on my shoulders so his head full of curls rest above my right breast. I have mixed emotions at the moment so I push his arms gently off and step away a little. I turn and see Harry tilt his head to the side giving me an unsure look. I ignore the perfectly perfect human being standing in front of me and continue on to packing. I can see Harry glancing at me as he attempts to fold his clothing and shove it in his suitcase.

"What." I finally snap at him.

"Nothing." He says shaking his head picking up the white shorts Tess had mentioned and shoving them into his bag without a care.

"Well stop looking at me." I can't help but come of as a little sassy because of this stupid bitch, I have the right to call her a bitch right? Damn right I can call her a bitch. I've never even met the girl how does she know I'm a prude? For all she could know Harry and I could be fucking twice a day. But I know that's far from the truth. The thought of Harry in bed with another girl makes my stomach tighten in fear. The fear that he really is cheating on me. The fear that I'm not good enough. The fear that he in fact slept with his ex.

"Harry?" My voice comes off small and a little groggy

"Hmm?" His attention immediately caught his eye as soon as I spoke. Since the last time I said something to him he could tell I was annoyed so he just gave up on the conversation.

"Do you think uhh- do you think you could get me a Pepsi from down stairs?" My conscious was telling me to just ask him about the white shorts but my mouth spoke for me.

"Uh- yeah sure, sure. I'll be right back." Harry looks a little confused. He probably was hoping that something other than that would come out of my mouth.

As soon as he exists out of the room I dart across the bed ripping through his bag until I reach his white Nike Shorts. "yes." I whisper to myself as I pull them out of his bag. I hesitantly reach into his pocket. Nothing. I slip my hand in the next pocket and Immediately feel a lacey material. My heart beats faster and faster at the few possibilities this item can be. When I pull it out my assumptions are now put to rest as I see a red laced thong in my hands.

"Oh my God." I can feel my cheeks burn while I try to hold my tears back. Okay so that picture I found of him kissing a girl and the picture of them at a coffee shop with the same girl pissed me off but I just brushed it off like it was nothing. This time I don't think I can just let something like this go. This is another girls underwear in his pocket. He's gonna have a tough time explaining this one. I'm not even sure if I want to be around to hear it.

"Hey babe, they didn't have Pepsi but I got you-" I turn to face Harry with the red laced panties in my hand. He stopped mid sentence when realizing my blood shot teary eyes and tear stained cheeks.

"Babe?"

"How could you!" I shout lunging of the bed towards him.

"What, Rion what's going on?" He knits his eyebrows together like he has no clue what on Earth he has done to me. He has put me on this emotional roller-coaster that I just can't wait to get off. I think it's my time to go.

"You douche!" I yell in his face. I shove my arms a him making him stumble back slightly.

"wha-"

"You slept with her! you slept with Tessa! How could you!"

"What? Tessa? How do you know about her?"

"Does that really matter?" I yell in anger. "Harry, don't you understand that I'm trying. I'm really trying."

"Ry-"

"No." I put my finger up to silence him. "I'm trying so hard to adjust to this sort of lifestyle. I'm trying so hard for you to like me for who I am and not just someone in magazines."

"Ry I love you for you." The L word left his lips for he first time since he told me on the beach. But I can't let that fool me. I swat his hand off my cheek and move for the door.

"I can't forgive you." I say reaching for the door handle. "She called your phone."

"Wait Tessa called? But why?"

I can't believe him. He's wondering why his ex called after he spent a night with her doing God knows what in that bed we've slept next to each other in. He's unbelievably.

I roll my eyes and push the door open taking one step out until I feel Harry's hand grip my arm.

"Wait Ry,that wasn't suppose to sound like that. I swear I have no clue what you're talking about."

"You're pathetic you know that?" I sarcastically laugh.

"I can't believe I actually let myself fall in love with you."

"Wait, love?'

"Rion! wait!" I hear Harry shout behind the slammed door. I quickly run down the hallway not wanting to see his reaction. I can't just get a flight out now it's nearly three in the morning. I have no choice but to call Niall.

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IM SO SORRY FOR MAKING YOU WAIT SO LONG. I USUALLY UPDATE ON MY PHONE BUT IT BROKE AND I WONT BE GETTING ONE FOR ANOTHER WEEK. SO I WILL UPDATE ON MY LAPTOP AS FREQUENT AS I CAN.

I HOPE YOU ALL STILL LOVE ME.