Life is so unpredictable. We don't even realise when we come across a stranger who slowly and steadily becomes so important to us that we can't even imagine a life without them in it. They become so important that we smile even if we get reminded of something related to them.

People say online friends are not real. I also used to believe the same until I came to meet some of the most precious souls out there on this platform. I came to realise that friendship is a sacred relationship, no matter if it is real or virtual. It doesn't require to be close to your friends, it need two friends to be close by hearts.

Its not even a year since i started writing but i made a bunch of friends whom i love with my everything.....People I want to be with me forever....people for whom I would do anything.... Some souls too precious for this world and one of them is @deserteagle50M. Not even two months when we talked for the first time but today, it feel like life is incomplete without him.

All this started with that comment of him. Plot twist.

First of all, we were amazed to know that he is a 23 years old boy who loves to read Taekook ff. His introduction itself was so funny, Before introducing himself, he had introduced his dick to us......Pervert! And then, as if it became our motive to make that comment reach 1K replies.

Two months only, that's the time we got together but he became someone who will always be there in my heart and memories even after my death. I never felt like he was some stranger since the very start.

There was something about him that made everyone a fan of his pervy charm.I never came across a boy like him. So carefree, easy going, fun to be around and a big ass pervert.

Its so heartbreaking to know that he isn't among us anymore. He left this shitty world on Friday to live a peaceful life in heavens.....like an angel he was.

He had a cancer in stomach but he never cried about it. He fought till his last breathe, like a strong warrior and I am proud of him. I have no regrets regarding him....the time we spent together will always be close to my heart. Even when it feel like my heart is bleeding writing this, i will never regret becoming friend with him.

Around two weeks ago, he was admitted to hospital and i was dead scared. For the first time, he said- Princess, I am scared. I couldn't help getting worse.

That day, I felt like my knees gave up. I became too emotional that I didn't realise what I was doing. In my grief, I forgot what he was going through. I should have known how much he care for his friends.....when he saw us worrying too much for him, he started lying to us.

He said he was fine just to make us not worry about his health.

When we would have talked to him, tried to know him what was going in his mind, what he was feeling, if there was something he wanted to say......we lost our shit and started crying and what he did.....he forgot his own pain and again started making us happy with his lies.

Time was ticking and the sand was sliding from his fist slowly but he was still the same...careless and happy....maybe he was just showing us that he was happy so that we don't worry much...he lied he was fine. He didn't want us to talk about his health, he just wanted to talk about good things and enjoy what he had.

My boy was strong and I am proud of him. Like a worrier, he kept fighting without even letting his friends know about his miseries.

Now, when I am thinking of it, it feels like I should have tried to talk to him. He must be scared. So many things would have been running through his mind in his last time, there would have been things, emotions, fears and insecurities, he would have needed someone to listen to him. He was only twenty three...he must have his plans for future that would have been giving him tears.

His departure may have given me deep wounds, but his presence had made me laugh like crazy. Three days ago...I had asked him how he was......and he replied he was fine even when he wasn't. He tried his best to keep us away from pain by not telling us what he was actually feeling in his last moment. I know he must be scared.....I wish he could have talked to us about it.

I wish I had published that poetry book of ours that we wrote together in comments just to test our shitty skills....just as you wished.

He always said I leave him unable to breathe with my funny replies, I wish I had given him more reasons to smile.

He had asked me if I'll meet him if he comes to India next year....

I wish he could stay with us for this one year at least.

But he has gone and I still can't believe it. In fact, I don't want to believe it. It feels like he is still there and this is just his another prank.

I wish it is just a prank.

But we all know, not all wishes come true. I had to let him go even when i don't want to. I'll cry whole day, I know....but i want to make sure to only smile whenever i remember him in future...with no sad feelings in my heart because that's what he wanted...to see his friends smiling always....

Rest in peace, Gray.....You may have left this world, but you will always be alive in our hearts....

You will always be my daddy...and me, your little princess....

You will always be my favourite, like you always wished.....

Gosh!! I can't continue anymore. Its hurting like hell.....

I just wish you all the peace.

I am happy that I was able to tell you that I love you before time made me helpless.

Now, this song is coming to my mind-

Lag Ja Gale Ki Phir Ye Hasin Raat Ho Na Ho

Shaayad Phir Is Janam Men Mulaaqaat Ho Na Ho

Lag Jaa Gale ...

Ham Ko Mili Hain Aaj, Ye Ghadiyaan Nasib Se

Ji Bhar Ke Dekh Lijiye Ham Ko Karib Se

Phir Aap Ke Nasib Men Ye Baat Ho Na Ho

Shaayad Phir Is Janam Men Mulaaqaat Ho Na Ho

Lag Jaa Gale ...

Paas Aaiye Ki Ham Nahin Aaenge Baar-Baar

Baahen Gale Men Daal Ke Ham Ro Le Zaar-Zaar

Aankhon Se Phir Ye Pyaar Ki Barasaat Ho Na Ho

Shaayad Phir Is Janam Men Mulaaqaat Ho Na Ho

Lag Ja Gale Ki Phir Ye Hassin Raat Ho Na Ho

Shaayad Phir Is Janam Men Mulaaqaat Ho Na Ho

Lag Jaa Gale ...

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Guys......I will not be able to update for a while. I hope you will understand.