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The blonde stirred in his sleep, his eyes closing a little tightly before they opened. The boy became confused as he was feeling hot suddenly. He found his pillow to be harder than usual. He raised his head a little, eyes squinting a little but they widen as soon as he realised that It wasn't his pillow he had his head on.

He was sleeping in his husband's warm embrace, head on Jungkook's bicep while the ravenette's other hand was placed on his waist, sleeping face looking so contented with Taehyung in his arms that blonde forgot to breathe for a moment. He didn't remember falling asleep.

He was still looking at Jungkook's handsome face when a scowl formed on his face. The ravenette's hairs were sticking to his forehead, he was sweating profusely but he still slept as if he was sleeping after ages.

Taehyung touched his forehead. He immediately looked for his phone when he realised that his husband has fever and stood up when he realised that he had left his phone in the living room, slowly getting himself out of Jungkook's hold without waking him up.

He looked towards the clock on the night stand. His eyes widen in shock seeing it was already half past seven. His mind went to his son and he immediately walked out of the room after having a look at his sleeping husband.

He didn't know how he slept for so long.

Maybe because he was exhausted due to not been able to sleep last night.

Walking down the stairs worriedly, Taehyung found his son sitting in the living room and playing some video game. He sighed and walked over to Taegguk who smiled when his eyes fell on his mother.

''Gguk......You had your lunch?''

''Lunch? Mom, its time for dinner now....'' He chuckled making Taehyung pic up his phone from the centre table.

''I know Gguk....I just wanted to know that you didn't skip your lunch.'' He replied dialling a number.

''Oh...Don't worry, Mom.....I didn't skip it. I didn't want my ears to be pulled by you.'' He joked making the blonde smile as he ruffled his son's hairs lovingly making Taegguk give his bunny smile.

''How is Dad now?'' He asked again making Taehyung look at him nervously.

''He is fine....w-why?''

''Nothing..... Noona said that Dad had fever so he came back home even before lunch.'' He replied making the blonde breathe in relief. He made a mental note to thank his maid who hid Jungkook's drunken secret from his son.

''He still have fever.....I am calling doctor.''

''Oh....'' Taegguk replied and forgot his game to observe his mother closely as Taehyung talked to the family doctor. The worry in Taehyung's eyes as he told the doctor about his husband's condition made Taegguk think something for a moment.

He wasn't naïve to not know anything. He had already visited his father's room as soon as he came home from school. He didn't know that Jungkook was home. He had asked the maid about his mother who informed him that the blonde was in Jungkook's room.

When Taegguk reached there, he was shocked for a moment seeing his parents sleeping in that position. Both of them looked so comfortable that for a moment, Taegguk dreamt about a happy family but he shrugged the thoughts off.

He will always support his mother in whatever decision he make after these three months.

He had walked out of the room silently after covering both of them properly, closing the door after him. The brunette wanted both of them to talk because he could see the restlessness in their eyes whenever both of them were around each other but he decided not to say anything.

It was not his position to say anything. He could only wait for his parents to come up with whatever decision they make.

Sometimes, he think that both of them can't live without each other. The way Jungkook look at Taehyung. the way he behave around him, the way he get jealous of anyone who try to come close to Taehyung, it all used to make Taegguk feel like his father didn't actually planned all this to divorce the blue eyed boy.

And on the same time, whatever happened in the past between his parents, even Taegguk was unsure if his father could give happiness to his mother. he may have believed that his father love him but it was a bit hard for him to believe that Jungkook can love his mother enough to make him forget about the past.

He didn't know what to think anymore so he just let it on his parents to work out.

Three months have already passed and he was scared to think what will happen after six months will be over because in no way he can leave his mother's side but his attachment and love towards his father was also making the boy rethink his decision.

He shrugged his thoughts and looked at the phone in his hand.

He lost the game.

The boy sighed and locked it. Taehyung ended the call and saw some texts from Jimin but he ignored them and looked at Taegguk.

''He is coming... You go and see if your dad is up and I'll make soup for him. I don't think I'll be able to make dinner today....''

''Its Okay, Mom....Noona can do that today. Don't worry.'' He replied standing up. Taehyung smiled and nodded.

''I brought strawberry milkshake for you. Its in fridge...go and drink it. You look tired. You will feel better.'' With that, Taegguk ran upstairs leaving the blonde smiling looking at his son's retreating back.

Taegguk was really very caring....

He clearly see what Taehyung didn't even want to show.

The brunette walked into Jungkook's room to see his father sitting with his back leaning onto the headrest holding his head.

''Dad...you need something?'' He asked getting concerned. The ravenette looked at his son and smiled sitting straight even when he felt like someone was hammering his head.

Hangover made him feel like shit and the fever wasn't helping at all.

''I am fine, Gguk.....Don't worry.''

''But you look so exhausted. Why are you sitting? you should lie down.'' The brunette reached to help his father lie on the bed but Jungkook stopped him in the middle.

'' Gguk..... You listened to what I said? I am fine, son...don't worry.'' The ravenette replied emphasising on his words making the brunette look at his father for a moment before nodding.

He walked and pulled the chair from study table close to the bed and plopped on it.

''Mumma is making soup for you and Doctor is on the way.'' He informed. Jungkook looked at his hands which were lying in his lap and smiled to himself.

''Dad?'' Taegguk called making the boy look at him baffled.

''huh?''

''Why are you smiling to yourself?'' He asked suspiciously making Jungkook chuckle.

''Nothing..... It felt good to know my son is worried for me.'' He replied teasingly. Taegguk rolled his eyes and leaned back onto the chair.

''Not me to be exact....I mean me too but Mom was the one who called doctor and is now preparing soup for you.'' The brunette replied observing his father closely. He wanted to see his father's reaction to it but he frowned when his father only nodded in response.

But Taegguk was so naïve.

How could he think that Jungkook already didn't know that?

''How was your school?'' The ravenette asked after a few moments of thinking about his beautiful inside out husband.

''It was good. We are preparing for an inter school basketball match.'' He replied excitedly.

''When is your match?''

''Two months.''

''Why preparing so early?''

''There are many options to choose the best team so we will be playing a match every Saturday to choose the best players who will finally play against the other school.'' Taegguk explained making his father nod.

''I wa- Ah Fuck!'' The ravenette cursed in the middle when he felt like his head will burst open due to the pain. Taegguk immediately stood up and walked over to his father in a hurry.

''What happened, Dad?'' He asked worriedly when he saw his father holding his head with both of his hands.

''Noth-''

''What happened?'' Jungkook was stopped in the middle of the sentence and Taegguk and Jungkook both looked towards the door where Taehyung was standing. The blonde immediately walked inside, placing the soup on the table, he went and sat on the edge of the bed.

''What happened, Jungkook? You need anything? Is it hurting somewhere? You a-''

''Calm down, Tae... I am fine. Its just a headache.'' The ravenette cut his husband who looked like he was about to cry any moment. His reply made the blonde look at his husband for a moment and suddenly he was very angry.

''Why are you sitting? Don't you know you have fever? You should take rest. Why can't you just listen to me for once, Jungkook? Why are you so stubborn?'' He asked irritated making Taegguk cover his mouth to stop himself from laughing while Jungkook looked at his husband like he was some alien.

''What d-''

''Don't try to defend yourself. You can't even take care of your health? Are you a kid? Do you need a lesson so that you can remember it next time? You are so careless..... I am tired of your carelessness...I am really fed up of your childish acts....I don't know what you are trying to prove now. You are not a teenager anymore, Jungkook...you are a father of a teenager boy. Understand your responsibilities....what if something had happened to you? Didn't you even once thought about our son? How can you just go and l-'' The blonde kept scolding his husband but stopped before he exposed why he actually was angry at the ravenette when he heard his son laughing like a madman.

Taehyung looked at his son with furrowed brows while Jungkook gulped in horror. Angry Taehyung was totally a no no. He may have feeling so giddy hearing care in Taehyung's scolding but man, those beautiful blue eyes looked so scary right now.

''Why are you laughing now, Gguk?''

''What can I do, Mom?....You are making me laugh.'' The brunette replied in between his chuckles.

Taehyung looked at him sharply and Taegguk immediately zipped up his mouth but the laughter in his eyes made Taehyung more angry.

''GGUK! what is it?'' He asked annoyed.

''Mom...he only have fever. You are behaving like he has committed mistake by falling ill.'' He replied and its when Taehyung realised what he was doing. He immediately looked at Jungkook who was looking at him like a scaredy cat.

The blonde looked at his son again who was still chuckling and back to the ravenette.

''Sorry....'' Jungkook mumbled trying to act cute but it only angered the blonde.

''You should drink this soup....Doctor will be here soon.'' He said not even looking at his husband and extended the bowl towards Jungkook making the ravenette pout.

''Thank you.'' He mumbled and took the bowl of soup from the blonde. Taehyung sat on the bed looking at the ravenette trying to feed himself while their son kept giggling looking at his father.

''Dad...you want me to feed you?'' He asked chuckling.

''No, thanks....I can do it myself.'' He replied looking at Taehyung with a pout. The blue eyed male looked at his husband from the corner of his eyes. When he couldn't see Jungkook struggling with the spoon anymore, he took the bowl of soup from his hand making Jungkook surprised.

''Gimme the spoon.'' He order and who was the ravenette to not comply.

''Gguk.....Put some pillows behind his back.'' he instructed his son when he saw Jungkook straightening his back hesitantly. The brunette nodded and immediately got to work.

The ravenette smiled softly looking at his husband blowing air to the spoon to cool the soup before extending towards Jungkook opening his own mouth expecting Jungkook to do the same but he looked the ravenette in eyes when Jungkook kept smiling.

His heartbeat touched the sky and his breathe hitched looking into the brown orbs that shone brighter than any star right now as Jungkook looked at his husband with so much love. Taehyung was sure Jungkook was looking so lifeless before sleeping that he felt like doing anything to bring back the shine in them but now, his eyes held galaxies making the blonde confused.

Was it that easy to make Jungkook happy?

Was it that easy to give life to his husband's dead eyes?

Was it that easy to make him smile wholeheartedly again?

Taegguk looked at his parents blankly for a moment before looking away.

''Dad....Open your mouth!'' He broke the trance deliberately as he felt like he was invading their privacy. Jungkook looked at his son before nodding while Taehyung looked down for a moment. He scolded himself for getting lost in Jungkook's brown, wicked eyes because they very beautifully cast a spell on his heart and then, very cruelly betray him.

The ravenette opened his mouth letting the blonde feed him. The silence was broken when the doctor walked inside with the maid. Taehyung immediately stood up and let the doctor examine his husband.

Gguk left to see off the doctor while Taehyung helped the ravenette to lie down again after giving him medicines. He was about to stand up again after covering his husband when Jungkook held his hand making him look the ravenette in eyes blankly.

''Tae... Thank you.'' The blonde looked at Jungkook for a moment before nodding.

''I am sorry.....I didn't mean to make you worry.''

''You know what, Jungkook......'' He stopped making the ravenette nod unsurely.

''I hate this word now. Sorry is such a shallow word. This word make a person so helpless because he can't keep holding onto something that had hurted him in past just because the person who hurted him had said a sorry... This word make a victim a criminal because he become obliged to forgive his molester.'' The blonde replied sharply.

''I know sorry can't erase my mistakes b-''

''When you know sorry can't erase your mistake then why are you saying this word again and again?'' The blonde cut the ravenette in the middle making Jungkook look at his desperately.

''You are making it hard for both of us, Jungkook. Please stop behaving like you care when you clearly don't.'' He said annoyed. He wanted to know why the ravenette was suddenly so desperate to earn his forgiveness.

''Because I do care, Tae..... I really do care for you.'' He replied pulling the boy to himself making Taehyung gasp.

''Look into my eyes.... Do you really think I am lying right now?'' The ravenette asked desperately. Taehyung tried to get out of his hold but Jungkook didn't let him.

''You will have to hear me, Tae..... I won't let you go just like that this time. Look into my eyes....See if you find even an ounce of lie in them. You believe eyes never lie....right? Then see, my eyes will give you proof of how much I care for you, how much I loathe myself for doing everything that made you go through the worst. I am so desperate to prove that I am not what I was.....I have changed, Tae...trust me. This Jungkook is not the Jungkook from seventeen years ago......This Jungkook care for you, he want you to be happy....in fact, he will do anything to make you happy.''

The desperateness in Jungkook's words and helplessness and restlessness in those eyes along with something very strong that shone the brightest among all the emotions made Taehyung's heart thud inside his ribcage.

The tears that formed in Jungkook's eyes forced the blonde to just listen to him once. He couldn't do anything....he was under the control of his heart who wanted to hear Jungkook.

Who wanted to hear what Jungkook's eyes were trying to convey.

Even when his mind wasn't ready to take the chance, his heart had already jumped into the well of fire.

''Why, Jungkook? Why you want to earn my forgiveness so desperately?'' He asked to his husband holding his breathe, his heart running marathon and strange muscles tightening in his belly in anticipation as he waited for Jungkook's reply.

The ravenette stared in those blue eyes before confessing.

''I want to earn your forgiveness because I can't live with this guilt anymore, Tae.....'' And there, all of Taehyung's hopes shattered. Tears formed in his eyes when Jungkook once again very cruelly broke his heart into millions pieces.

Because he didn't want to hear that.

Because he may be expecting something else deep inside.

Because he didn't want to be pitied.

''This guilt is killing me inside everyday, Tae... This guilt, regrets, repentance is making me feel so suffocated. I want to breathe but it feel like someone has a tight hold on my throat and is squeezing it slowly draining life out of me..... I want to get free from this feeling, Tae....and only you can help me with that.'' Jungkook teared up himself.

He was struggling like a bird in cage. He wanted to be free from his guilt so that he can live peacefully but how can he dream of living a peaceful life after giving a miserable life to Taehyung?

The blonde controlled himself. He tsked at his own desperate self. How can he think that Jungkook can give him something that can make him happy? How can he dream that maybe there can be a happy future for him too? He was so naïve of expecting anything else from his husband other than selfishness.

He chuckled sarcastically and stood up abruptly pulling himself out of Jungkook's hold. The ravenette looked at him with sheer hurt in his eyes but that did nothing to make the blonde pity on him.

''Tae....I w-''

''I don't want your guilt, Jungkook... I don't want your sorry. They will do nothing to make my pain lessen by any means. This guilt can never make me feel at piece so stop doing whatever you are doing. Just because you want to live peacefully, you want me to forgive you? even when you know what you made me go through? You are selfish, Jeon Jungkook....You are the most selfish person on this planet.....I hate you.'' He said trying hardest to not sob in front of the cruel person he was still in love with.

He turned to leave but Jungkook held his wrist again which made the blonde stop but he didn't look at his husband. He kept standing with his back to Jungkook while tears rolled down his cheeks.

''I want to get rid of this guilt because this isn't letting me crave for your love, Tae......'' The ravenette said weakly. Taehyung's eyes widen as soon as his mind registered those words.

''I want to get free from this guilt so that I can tell myself that I am deserving enough to love you.'' Jungkook spoke again. More tears came running out of Taehyung's oceanic eyes and he cried silently standing in his place.

''Whenever I dare to dream about a happy future with you, this guilt comes in the way and tell me that I don't deserve to be happy...that I deserve to be left alone to suffer alone, that I deserve only a miserable life where I should cry every night cursing myself for what I did seventeen years ago......'' Jungkook stopped again and looked at the back of his husband, his hand still holding Taehyung's wrist gently.