What is life actually, a blessing or a curse?

Sometimes I feel pleased and satisfied

While other times everything feels worse

For all positive feelings, access is denied

Some days are calm and peaceful

Everything goes alright and on track

Other days, almost everything is stressful

I guess it all just depends on fate and luck

One day I find myself giggling and smiling

Brightening and improving everyone's day

Other days I find myself weakly sobbing

Just want to leave everything and run away

Will my blessed time last longer than

My cursed times, when I feel so low

Since the day human life began

I guess this is what we all wanted to know

-Niki