Even when I am with my closest

Friends I feel so left out

Do they really care about me or

Want me around I really doubt

I hate that I let my voices

Control me, they tell me

It was always them to begin

With there was no 'we'

By nature I am quite clingy

But I am not like that around them

Scared they might find it cringy

I hide who I really truly am

Sometimes they show they do care

But my mind screams they don't

Times when i feel like trusting is rare

I hope none of them read this poem

I think it's partly my fault

I shouldn't be so insecure

To get rid of these feelings

Is there any kind of cure?

I certainly don't need hundred friends

It's enough just one true best friend

With whom I feel secure and happy

And I will care for them till the end

-Niki