I slowly wake up as I suddenly had a bad feeling. Something was wrong but I shrugged it off. I rub my eyes to clear my vision until my begin to hear ambers voice, yelling.

"halmeoni, halmeoni!" ( grandma, grandma! ) I instantly rush out of bed before running towards ambers voice.

When I arrive to where amber was at, my heart instantly tightens, I felt as I couldn't breathe, I felt as I can barley hear ambers yellings, trying to wake up my grandmother is laying still on her bed with eyes closed.

My vision begins to blur as my knees instantly fall to the ground while my tears uncontrollable fall down from my amber eyes.

I move by ambers side and look at her face to see her with no tears yet as she was numb, like the same face she displayed every year. I watch her try to wake her up but nothing. I look behind me to see jungkook rushing in here. "Amber calm down." He tries to calm her down.

Amber shakes her head no while trying shaking our grandma, begging to wake up with an emotion face, only anger with broken eyes.

"I've called the ambulance and they are on their way, so please am." Jungkook pleads as he forces the tears to stay in his eyes.

I look at my grandma as more tears fall, tear after tear.

Everything happened so fast when the ambulance arrived minutes later. One minute, she's in front of me with my hands holding her cold ones then the next, she's being taken away from me, amber, us.

I feel arms instantly wrap around me, rubbing my back. "It's okay Johnny, she'll come back. She has too." Amber tries to reassure me but I shake my head, not wanting to explode as amber is trying to avoid the pain in her, only focusing on my pain.

But I don't tell her because she's doing it the only way she's able to handle this situation, forcing herself to be numb. I don't tell her because suddenly energy was taken out of me.

"Come on." Jungkook says before the three of us rush out to go in our cars, only able to use the energy I have in me to hurry up in the car.

You couldn't hear anything, only faded voices that were around you, due to the loud ringing that was in your ear. Only longing to hear your grandmothers voice.

You couldn't feel anything, only your heart aching, hoping your grandmother was okay, hoping nothing was wrong. You forbidden your tears to fall as you saw Jonathan crying in the car non-stop while you hold him in your arms.

You only felt angry. Angry at yourself because you blame it on you, yourself. Thinking if you didn't leave her, if only you listened to your gut feeling to stay with her, nun of this wouldn't happen.

You refused to let your emotions out as your focus was on Jonathan and your grandmother.

You feel hands rubbing your back, jungkook.

And now you feel guilty. Guilty that you were beginning to be happy and being selfish for once but you laugh at yourself as you even thought, for a second that you'll be able to be happy with no worries.

Of course something bad will always happen if I'm happy. You think to yourself while your right legs keeps moving up and down repeatedly, hoping to hear good news, instead of bad news.

Minutes pass before you instantly get up when you see the doctor that came out from the room your grandmother is in.

You quickly get up, before quickly walking towards the male doctor. He looks up at you before he looks down. You can tell this wasn't good but you refused to believe it.

"Tell me she's alright, tell me she's okay." You say quickly, pleading that he has helped her. "With her having cardiac arrest disease, we come to believe that she didn't make it since last night." Your breathing stops.

Since last night? Now you put the blame on you. You shouldn't have left her side, you should've stayed by her side.

Was it that's why she was saying all those words to you last night? Was it because she knew?

You shut your eyes tightly as you can hear your heart beating against your chest, faded voices around you with a ringing sound against your ear. Your head was beginning to hurt.

Feeling lightheaded, dizzy, weak, or nauseous wasn't helping you. But your only aware that noises are fading away.

It was too much. It hurt too much.

Everything was blurry and fuzzy.

Then suddenly you black out, letting the darkness take over your unconscious body, not feeling that hard impact of your body hitting against the hard floor.

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"My feet hurt amam." You look over at your brother that was shivering due to the coldness from the rain that hit his skin. "I'm sorry Johnny, I'll find us a place to stay for the night okay?" You gently say as he nods his small head.

You look out on the road as the rain falls from the grey and white sky, falling onto the dark concrete road, making small splashes and puddles on the ground.

You look over at your brother again to see he was trying to stay awake and continue walking with weak legs.

Despite your legs were hurting as well, you ignore the pain and bend down. "Get on my back John." Jonathan nods before climbing up on your back, wrapping his short legs around your small waist, wrapping his small arms around your neck.

You walk yourself and him for a few minutes until you stumble upon a hotel. You turn towards the direction and look both sides of the road to check if any cars were passing by, when you don't see any, you begin to walk across the road.

When you safely get on the other side, you walk towards the office of the hotel. You bend down for Jonathan to climb off, before you hesitantly knock on the door.

Both you and Jonathan wait until you hear the door knob turn. You see the door open and you look up to be met with an elderly women, giving you and Jonathan a warm smile.

"Grandma!" You pant as you inhale and exhale quick deep breaths, trying to calm down your breathing. You suddenly stiffen when you feel warm hands on top of yours. "It's okay amber, your okay." You look to your left to see both Jonathan and jungkook by your side, looking at you worriedly.

"Where is she? Is she okay? I have to see her." You say before looking around you to see you were in a hospital room. You quickly try to get out the hospital bed before jungkook gently places to right back down. You look at him confusedly while ignoring the dizziness that was going on in your head.

"Amber..." jungkook softly says. You noticed the sad tone in his voice as he looks down at your hands. He grabs your hands, placing his on top of yours warming up your cold hands.

You zone out. You suddenly block out everything and anyone around you. Imagining yourself in a dark place. Nothing but blackness, wrapping your arms around your legs, hugging yourself in the coldness.

"She's gone isn't she..." you mumble to yourself before burying your face into your body, alone in the darkness.

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*slowly backs away*

*nervously laughs* you guys aren't gonna kill me right.?👀

Ha.ha so I um...hope you guys enjoyed this update....👀

And I um...gonna slowly back away.

Um stay safe and healthy loves. *waves goodbye and runs away*