Marcus' POV (again)

July 14th, Thursday

Brianna is currently in the psych ward.

I'm still mad at her but she's been in there for a while and is supposedly getting out today. Noah texts me all the time but I don't answer. That's how I know things.

I don't want to go through what I went through before. I don't want to self harm again. If I keep hanging out with Brianna, it spreads. Noah also hangs out with her still, so if I hang out with him, it will still spread.

That's my excuse, at least.

Truth is, when she tried to kill herself she broke my heart. I don't want to swallow my pride and admit that I was in love. I also don't want to be hurt by her again.

So I can't let myself fall into the trap of love again.

Not with her.

Not with anyone.

I only want her, but I can't even give myself her because she'll ruin me.

But not seeing her is ruining me. I just have to see which one will ruin me faster.

NOAH's POV

I sit inside the room Brianna is in. Watching her drink coffee and look out the window.

"How are you?" I ask.

"I'm actually really good." She says.

"Really?"

"I mean, no. But considering the circumstances, I'm great. They told me I was going to get out today but I think it's tomorrow. I've been making progress in here. I'm isolated."

"Do you still want to die?" I ask quietly.

She frowns.

"I never wanted to die, Noah. I just didn't want to feel the pain anymore. I wanted to forget."

"Forget what?"

"Everything." She says.

"When you get back out into the world, are you going to be okay?"

"I think so. I'm just- so scared to be alone." She mumbles.

I frown. She doesn't know that Marcus doesn't want to see her. She hasn't asked, but I can tell it's on her mind.

"Did Marcus get into the school he wanted?" She asks.

"Yeah he got into UNLV. So did I."

She smiles a smile that I will never forget.

She holds up a piece of paper.

"I did too!" She says.

"What the hell? How did you do that? You weren't even in school!"

"Little bit of summer school here at the ward, little bit of online classes."

She pauses, then adds

"And by little bit I mean shit ton."

I laugh and she does too.

Her laugh fades and she has a serious look on her face again.

"How's Marcus?" She asks quietly.

I sigh and decide to answer honestly.

"He's mad. He's pissed. But mainly, he's hurt."

She nods.

"That isn't what I needed to hear, but I expected it. I knew there was a reason he hadn't come to see me."

"He'll get over it, Brianna. It doesn't seem like he will now, but he will eventually."

"Eventually could be a long time." She says, resting her head on her hand.

"Well until eventually arrives, you have me." I say, giving her a hug.

"Thanks."

BRIANNA's POV

July 15th, Friday

I sort of wished I would've died still. I'm sorry, it's selfish. I know. It's just, doing this has added more burden to my shoulders. More baggage to my trunk. More weight to carry.

I don't think I'll ever do it again. But I still don't think I'll ever be the same.

I don't think I'll ever be normal.

I talked to my dad. I talked to him my first day in the ward.

He was respectful, and no bitterness in his voice. But I don't want to move back in with him. He didn't suggest it, but I don't want to speak with him ever again.

I was now sitting here with Noah.

Kayla walks in.

"Brianna!" She shrieks.

She comes up to me and hugs me.

"I knew you'd make it out alive!"

I laugh to ignore the awkward statement.

We talk for a long time, then I get ready to leave. Noah drives us to his house. He tells me that Marcus had gotten my stuff from the hotel, and moved it into Noah's garage.

We get to his house and his mom is not there. We all go in his room and hang out.

"So, me and Noah worked together to get you something." Kayla Says.

"Oh no." I joke, smiling.

"Okay but you have to promise to accept it."

"No promises." I say.

"Just tell her." Noah says.

"We kinda sorta put our money together and rented a three bedroom apartment in Los Vegas so we all have somewhere to stay during college." She says fast.

"Are you serious?" I shout.

"Yes!" Kayla says.

"If you're okay with it, we can leave tomorrow." Noah Says.

"Hell yeah I'm okay with that! Thank you guys!" I say, hugging them both at the same time.

"No problem!" Kayla Says.

"Wanna see pics?" Noah asks.

"Sure!" I respond, still smiling.

And so he shows me pics. I love it.

a/n: hey I know it's short but I need to put out something ya know? Sorry 😐

I usually try to make my chapters at least 1000 words. That obviously didn't work out this time :(

Btw Marcus part in this chapter reminds me of the song "Stitches" by Shawn Mendes...

HEY GOT A FEELIN THAT IM GOIN UNDER BUT I KNOW THAT ILL MAKE IT OUT ALIVE IF I QUIT CALLIN YOU MY LOVER AND MOVE ONNN

okay sorry I'll leave now.

Oh hey wait, what if I make an authors note long enough to complete my goal of 1000 words? After all I'm at 949.

Okay I'm just gonna do that. Make sure you follow my Instagram

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ok I'm at 1,007 words so I'll leave u alone now.

Now it's 1,017

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