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I was informed that I was going to have a psychotherapist to treat my depression. I knew they were concerned about me and wanted me at my best condition but I didn't like a single bit of it.

I told them that there was nothing wrong with me but they kept insisting and it was annoying. Why can't people just mind their own business and leave me alone?!

I was resting with Namjoon after my dance practice in the hallway. I sipped on my coffee to stay awake. I glanced out of the window and saw our car entering the company. I knew there was no schedule for any of our members so it must have been the doctor. Just thinking of it pissed me off.

I clicked my tongue and headed towards Bang PD's office. Namjoon was shocked by my sudden actions and called out my name. I did not pause or reply to him. I just continued walking and I knew that he worriedly chased after me.

I entered the room and saw a lady seated in front of Bang PD. She must be the one responsible for my treatment. Great. I stood beside her and took a quick glimpse at her. My heart skipped a beat the moment she was in my sight. Beautiful was all I could think of.

I was expecting someone in their 40s but she seems to be around my age or even younger. However that was not important. I turned to Bang PD and I could feel anger boiling inside me.

In the end, I ended up exploring. I hated how I could not control my anger. How I could not express my feelings well and how I get pissed off easily. My blood pressure was increasing and my breathing pace became shorter.

I needed to vent my anger out on something but I had to control it. I should before I lose control again. So, I decided to leave the scene before things get messier.

But then I was stopped. By her. She was calm despite what was happening. "Breathe," she told me in English. Her voice was sweet and soothing. I felt calm upon hearing her voice. I breathed in deeply like she asked and slowly I became less tensed. Soon I was back to normal again.

We settled down and were given an in-ear device to help us translate what we had to say. I knew a bit of English which was enough to make conversations but I was never confident to speak up. This device would definitely be useful.

She looked at me and said something in English. I just stared at her blankly. All of a sudden, a voice popped in my ear, making me jump.

"" the device translated.

Kat? That's a pretty name. I smiled at the thought of it and looked back at her. I introduced myself and apologised her for just now. Still, I wasn't really happy with the entire situation.

Bang PD wanted to start the first session immediately and I didn't like the sound of it. I felt like he was getting too involved in my personal life. I went to the studio first, leaving them behind.

I knew she was following me. So, I slowed down my pace in order for her to be able to catch up with me and that she would not get lost along the way.

We settled inside the studio and I just played with the control keys. I was not satisfied with the current song that I was producing. Something was missing and I couldn't figure out what it was. It was not perfect and it made me feel frustrated.

I glanced at her over my shoulder a couple of times and she just smiled back at me patiently. I felt guilty. After all, she came all the way to Seoul for me. But I did not want to talk about it. It was the topic I would never bring up to anyone because it made me looked weak. But to be honest, I still wanted to get cured but didn't have the courage to say so.

She broke the silence by saying that we should do something. I turned around to face her and our eyes met. My heart started to beat faster. She really have beautiful eyes.

I opened my mouth to speak but my voice did not come out. She assured me that it was okay and that I could just tell her when it started again.

I glanced up and nodded. I tried again but the words did not come out as I expected. My lips trembled and I clenched my fist. I was mad at myself for not being able to speak as I wished. I could feel that tears could roll down my cheeks anytime. I felt pathetic.

"Yoongi. It's fine." She was calm. She was doing her best but I was the problem. I started to tense up and I ended up exploding again.

Why? Why couldn't I do anything right? I wanted someone to help me. To be beside me. To be able to take in everything and understand me. To love me.

"I won't. No matter what you say, I won't leave."

I was shocked when I heard that. She was so determined. I kind of felt happy. But what I did not understand was that she ended our session and left after that. I knew she was going to be angry, I was no good at all. Why for at least once?

I wanted to apologise to her so I went to get the address of the place she was staying from Bang PD. Without any judgement, he gave it to me.

I told Namjoon to help me tell Hoseok that I was going to skip the dance practice. He of course listened and asked if I needed accompany. I shook my head and tapped on the pocket of my pants where my in-ear piece was. ""

I decided to walk to her place so that it would not bring any unnecessary attention. Plus it was not very far from our company. Along the way, I saw a familiar figure walking to and fro in front of the lamb skewer shop. "Kat?"

I guessed she felt too awkward to go inside and eat alone so I decided to accompany her. Our meal felt and she finished the entire thing in just a few minutes. She must have been really hungry.

Her face turned red when she finally grasped hold of what had happened. I couldn't help but laugh. She looked so cute.

I asked her if she liked it and obviously her reply was yes. So, I ordered another serving and made sure it was cooked fast.

While we were waiting, she asked me why I was alone. I didn't know how to respond. I thought it would be creepy if I told her that I actually skipped my practice to meet her. After all we just met but she just draws me in. Anyways I just lied that I was craving to eat kebab.

But then something felt off. How did she know about the boys? She had only met Namjoon. Turns out she was an army. I wondered who her bias was. I really hoped it was me.

I paid for the meal although she rejected the offer. I couldn't help it. I just wanted to treat her.

It was late and dark so I sent her back home. She told me it was fine and blah blah but I did not care.

Soon we arrived at her block and she thanked me for accompanying her. I shook my head and thanked her as well as apologised for what had happened earlier.

Again, she held my hand. I felt butterflies rampaging in my stomach but also warm and calming at the same time. Although it was strange, I loved the feeling.

She looked into my eyes and I noticed her face turned slightly bitter. I wondered why. She told me that what she was doing was her job after all but I felt that there was more to it.

But then there was something else bugging me all this while. I looked around but it was only the two of us. Strange.

I diverted my attention to her again. She seemed down and I did not like that expression on her. I smiled and her and held her hands that was holding mine tightly.

"Okay. I'll try my best as well."

She blinked and her face immediately brightened up. A smile spread across her face and she nodded. It was beautiful. Smile definitely suited her more.

I waited for her to walk into the building before leaving the venue. Something definitely felt weird. I looked around one last time but there was nothing.

Strange. I definitely felt like someone was there.

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Author's Note:

And yup that ends the chapter. Hehe hope you enjoyed it and if you did, please do vote and comment. Thank you. 💕