❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ LOVE❦

|Blood and kisses|

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Silas wheels me out of the room but the wicked smile on my face remains. Wishing that I could do more damage to Adam that I did. Even now he still screams out in pure pain or at least makes some sorts of sounds that come from his throat which are pleasant to listen to. Something about his pain makes me feel happy. My body is covered in blood but now my own, his. I don't think that I can even begin to explain the joy that I felt when I tortured him and made him feel pain which he made me feel.

Of course, he did not hurt me in the same way but let's just pretend that he did, it's much more fun doing it that way. Silas had stopped me before I could do much though, I did shoot Adam and I did make him feel pain. That is the way that he made me feel. Everything else was not. However, I enjoyed it all the same. We are good together. 'Tell me about it' The voice says. She's amazing at this, and she moved in ways that I never thought possible, and she knew how to make him feel the most pain in what she did.

I giggle to myself ask I wheel past all the people that I know are watching me. This is what life feels like. I had seen how Silas watched me and I could see the lust in his eyes. 'He wanted to take you and do whatever he wanted with you' She says to me. I smile when I had seen his look. His kohl black eyes had not left me the whole time and I know that he enjoyed seeing me like this. If I could stand I would have kissed him and let him do the things that I know he wants to do to me.

I feel like I have been reborn, the past is in the past, and now I'm someone new. Someone much better than I was and the person that I was before is never coming back again. That is a promise that I have made myself, never again will I return to the one that I was. That Leanna was weak and innocent but now the world bows before me. 'It sure does' She says, and I laugh. I own the world now. Nothing can defeat me.

He doesn't say anything to me as he wheels me to the elevator and up we go. I like elevators. They go up, and they go down, and they are amazing. "It's best that you took a bath to get all that blood of you. As beautiful as you look coated in red, it's better to remove it or else I will do things that you are not ready for... yet" Silas says to me and I look up at him with a smile. 'He wants to fuck you' The voice says, which I ignore for I already knew that.

The look in his eyes is one that I find makes me warm all over, and I want him to do those things to me. I want him so badly that I find my hands can barely control themselves. "Can you join me in the bath?" I ask him and for a moment he freezes before this smirk appears. "Of course" He says, and I smile at him. This will be fun. I've never taken a bath with anyone before. My body is somehow more excited about it than my mind for a reason that I have no idea.

The elevator door opens and as he was about to wheel me into the hallway I'm met with a sight that shocks the core out of me and I doubt that I will be able to get it back again. Trina. My best friend stands there when the doors open, and she looks at me with a shocked look as well. "Lea" She says surprised as she stares at me and I stare at her. I have not seen her for a long time, it's been months I think since we last saw her.

My mouth opens to speak, but no words come out, and I find that my words are lost. 'You are lost' The voice says but this has nothing to do with her, and she should stay away. This moment is about my best friend and I. "Leanna will be taking a bath. After that you are free to talk to her, not sooner" Silas says in this dismissing tone. If I were not in this much shocked to see my best friend right in front of me, I would have laughed at his words, I would have, but I can't now. At least not when Trina is right there.

Once again my mouth open, but no words come out. Silas wheels me away, but my head is turned to look at her where she stands in the hallway. Until we turn a corner and I can't see her again. "What is she doing here?" I ask Silas who just chuckles. "She works for us. The best decision that she ever made. Here she is protected from those who wish her harm" He tells me. I look up at Silas and I notice that his look is hiding something from me.

It is something that I would want to find out, and I want to know what he's hiding. Then on the other hand I know that he deserves his privacy and that he should not have to tell me anything. 'You're the stupidest woman in the world' The voice says. You know that you just insulted yourself because you are me. I say and giggle to myself. It's honestly hilarious how much she offends and insults herself when she speaks. "That's good. You could have told me about it sooner" I say, and he scoffs.

"What good would that have been? Your life is better spent than chained to the past. She is after all one of those who were part of your imprisonment" He asks me and I have to think about the words that he spoke. "She's my best friend" I finally say. There is not much that I can say at the moment about this. 'You have a lot to say but chose not to say it' The voice speaks to me and as much as I don't like to admit it, but she is right. There are is a lot that I wish that I could say, but I don't.

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The water is lukewarm and comfortable. I've already washed my body of all blood, or I think that I've got it all. Silas had watched me bathe and sat there. At first, I felt kind of embarrassed that he was looking at my naked body, but then I realized that his kohl black eyes are the world to me and I want him to see me. All of me. I want him to see that I belong to him. His eyes never strayed from my body and I found that the heat inside me only grew under his touch.

Silas watched my every movement and even now I feel that all he sees is me and that is all that I want. However, by the time that I had looked upon my own naked body I saw that the wound that is slowly closing and healing from the gunshot wound. It's still there, and I can feel it, it's ugly and disgusting. I do everything that I can to not look at this disaster. I have not asked about it or how I survived, and I fear knowing the answers from him.

I wonder why Silas has not joined me in the bath but like everything else I'm a bit afraid to ask. Without even knowing why I feel this fear inside me to speak to the man that I love more than I can even say in words. I don't think that I will ever be able to explain to him how deep my love runs, as I don't even understand it myself. A soft sigh escapes past my lips when I sit there in the water. This is the second batch of water and my second bath since the other one had become crimson red because of the blood.

"Silas, join me" I say without thinking about it. Breaking the silence between the two of us. I notice that he's hesitant which is so unlike him. In the back of my mind I can hear that all the voices are so eager to get him into the bath with me and I have to say that I do agree with them. I wish that he were in the water with me. Where I can feel his touch on my skin and I would feel that heat that only he can give me. "Please" I beg to him.

Clearing his throat he stands up. His Adam's apple is bopping up and down, and I smirk to myself as I use the bathtub to stand up. Well, sort of. My knees are sitting on the tub itself and carry most of the weight and even then I find that it does hurt, but the pain is worth it. I look into his eyes as I put my hands on his chest. The fabric being the only thing that keeps me away from his skin and away from touching in the ways that I want to touch him.

His eyes show so much beauty that I can't even imagine what my life would be without him. I realize when looking into his eyes that he's nervous. Never have I seen Silas nervous before. I stand there before him. Naked. And he's nervous. I think it should be the other way around. His hands wrap themselves around my body and are extra support for me to lean on. "Your body is the very thing that I bow down before" He speaks, his voice barely a whisper, but I heard him, I will always hear him.

The heart within my chest is beating faster than it should as I gulp. Our faces are so close that I can feel his hot breath on my skin and my heart is going faster. There are these butterflies that I would rather be set free, inside my stomach, and they flutter around and make me almost feel nauseous but at the same time I have these good feelings as well. "It would be hard for me to hold you if you bow" I say to him, not knowing what else to say, and I felt that I needed to speak something, anything.

He laughs as he starts to lean in, and before I even know what had happened his lips touch mine and I find that his lips bring me more peace than anything else in my life. They are smooth and his kiss is slow and gentle, and yet I feel that there is this rough aspect to it, and he's trying to gain control over me. The kiss makes me almost come undone, and I find that it's harder to hold myself up, and it is not because my body is weak but for the feelings that he makes me feel.

Like I can't even stand on my own two legs anymore. He makes me feel differently than I have ever felt before, and I have no idea how he does this. My eyes close and while I may not be looking into his eyes and getting lost in the kohl black, I do see them in my mind. I see him fully inside my mind. Never will I be able to forget his face. I've memorized every inch of it, and it can only bring me happiness and joy in ways that nothing else can. Only him.

The kiss is sweeter than anything, and he tastes wonderful, never have I ever tasted anything more sweeter than him and never do I want to ever stop tasting him. When we break the kiss I lick my lips and give him a bright smile. I think that my eyes can show all that I feel inside. The love between us is so strong that I wonder why it has not broken through the world. I had been so lost in him and the kiss that I did not notice that my body is pressed against him.

Silas is careful around my wound, but I find myself smirking when I realize that there is a bulge in his pants and I lean close to it. He bites his lips, the swollen lips that I have tasted. "You make me insane, you know that, don't you?" He asks me and I grin. I let out a giggle. "As much as you make me" I say to him, and he gives hi9m his famous smirk. But this one is softer and gentler than the other ones for I know that he loves me, and it shows through his smirk.

He chuckles as he holds me tightly. His hands are lowering on my body and the heat rises to my cheeks as it has done for so long. Neither one of us seem to care about the fact that now his clothes are soaked from the water that has come from my body as I sat in the bath. I barely notice how the water on my body has cooled down, and I'm almost in shivers and yet at the same time I find that my body is so warm that I need to breathe. Even when air is traveling through my body I find that it's barely even there.

He takes my breath away in every way. He leans down to my neck and starts to kiss my skin. I lean my had to the other side and allow him to make me feel warmer all over my body in ways that only he can make me. A mean escapes past my lips when his tongue runs along my neck and his kisses make my heart almost jump out of my chest but in the best way possible for he makes me feel loved, and he makes me feel like the world does not matter. Only he matters to me. This. Us.

"So beautiful" He whispers as he kisses my neck and I continue to moan. Never realizing how good this would, yet only it would feel good when he does it. "I love you" He whispers to me. Once again I find myself closing my eyes and enjoying the moment. His kisses make me feel like the world is gone, and I'm in this trance. So lost in him that everything else does not even matter and that is the truth. "I love so you much" He says to me and as I open my eyes they meet his and the world is perfect. Our little world is perfect.