❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ LOVE❦

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My eyes snap open when I feel movement beside me and I sit up on the bed. The beeping from the machines have me almost shooting them down, but I can't since they are keeping her alive. I'm shocked and taken back when I look into the eyes that I have longed to look into for so long; Leanna's eyes. They're open and staring right back at me. Then I see the smile come to her lips which I've craved to touch for ages. "Why're looking at me like you've seen a ghost...?" She asks me.

Then she gasps and touches her cheeks. "I'm a ghost... no... I don't want to be a ghost. I want to be an angel and live on the sky and be free and fly everywhere... but can't a ghost fly. I want to be a ghost" She rants, but I don't care as I just want to hear her voice and it has been so long since I've heard her speak. I chuckle when she is feeling her face with her hands as if she wanted to know if she were alive or not or just being herself which is the more reasonable explanation.

"Leanna" I speak and that breaks her from her thoughts, and she turns to look at me with a look that I've missed. "What?" She asks me. She doesn't seem to aware that she's in a hospital bed or hooked up to some machines or even know what had happened. The way that she was almost taken from me for the second time but this time the changes that she would return to me were small, and it had taken everything out of me to get her to safety and even then I could not do it on my own.

I don't say anything but just pull her in for a hug. It shocks her that I'm doing this, but I just need to feel her close to me. "You're alive" I whisper to her after some time, and then I break the hug. "I am?" She says as she once again touches her face. I chuckle and take her hands. Her fingers wrap themselves around mine and for the first time in a long time I can feel her warmth. Leanna has been so cold for so long and I felt that she was like ice, but now she's the sun.

Then she freezes and looks at me with a shocked expression on her face. I can see in her eyes that she's remembering the things that had happened to her and when she does she looks at me even more shocked than before. I don't know how, but I don't care. Having her here with me is all that I need, and she can be shocked or whatever she is as long as she holds me. It's been so long since we were together and neither one of us dying since the last time she saw me she was bleeding out into oblivion.

Leanna smirks as she removes her hand from mine. It only takes her a second to lift her hand and that is when I feel it. She slaps me. The pain is slow to come but when it arrives it's painful, but it is worth it. I raise an eyebrow at her when she begins to blow on her hand which she had slapped me with. "Ow, ow, ow" She says, and I chuckle. Amused that she is feeling that after slapping me. It should be I who should be saying that since it was she that slapped me.

"Silas?" She asks me as she takes my hand and notices how they are bandaged. When she touches my hands I feel pain, but she takes it away as well and brings me that happiness that I've longed for for so long. "Yes, Leanna?" I ask her. Saying her name, and she responds to it makes the dream become reality. "Can you hug me" She says in this pleading tone. I waste no second to wrap my arms around her and pull her close to me. I'm gentle as I hug her, and she returns the hug.

"Why do I want to shoot you but kiss you?" She asks me and I chuckle. This woman. "You'll figure it out" I tell her. Deep down she knows what she feels for me but the confusion and everything that has happened to her, the trauma and the pain is blocking her feelings. I had been warned that she will lash out... that was until I shot the doctor since he could not even tell that she would lash out and be herself despite the things that she has been through. I'm not even surprised that she had slapped me.

Her eyes look around the room that she knows very well. "Silas?" She asks me. I give her a smile as her eyes return to me again. "Where is Adam?" She asks me so quietly as if she were afraid of what I would answer. I give her another chuckle, a darker one this time. "He's alive if that's what you mean. He will never touch you ever again" I tell her as I feel the anger for him rising. The things that he did, he will be punished for a long time for.

When her eyes run back to my chuckles I realize that she's putting the puzzles in the final puzzle. Every so often I find myself down in the basement and doing whatever I want with him and using all the methods of torture that I know. I did not lie when I said that I would punish him for hurting her and for nearly taking her away from me forever. "I'm hungry" She then says to me and I nod. There is something wrong about her, I can't seem to figure it out. But, I will. Soon I will and soon our lives will begin.

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Silas stands up and walks out of the room. Leaving me with shivers running down my spine because I'm so cold without him. I need his warmth to make me feel all right, and I need him to make me warm again. I have these strange feelings inside me and I have these strange thoughts. I don't want to tell him, but I think there are voices in my head, and it makes me confused. I feel strange almost and like I'm not myself, but I'm sure it will all fix itself in the end, it always does.

'I'm not a voice. I'm you' Someone says, a voice that I know belongs to me, but I did not think that. The voice laughs in my head and I wince. The laugh is so high-pitched and evil. 'I'm not evil. You truly are the naive one. I'm your guidance, I'm the part inside you that will help you with life. I'm here to stay' The voice says, and I find that there is this sense of comfort. Will you be there with me at all time? I ask in my head, it feels weird to ask in my such things.

Once again that laughter comes. 'I will be there for you when you need me. Make me angry, and I will be the very thing that takes your body over, and I will do whatever I want with you' The voice says, and I find myself afraid of this voice or person or me, I don't even know what this is. I wonder if all of my thoughts are going to be listened to by this voice, I also feel it, I don't know it if it is true, but I can feel this another presence in my mind, other than this voice.

The door opens and Silas enters. 'Be normal' The voice tells me and I grow confused at that. I thought that I am normal. Silas is holding a tray. I'm happy to see him and I give him a bright smile which I want to have on every time that I see him. Something about Silas just makes me so happy. I know that I love him deeper than I have ever loved anyone. I never even loved Adam, I know that now, but I love Silas. Does he feel the same way about me?

'Yes, he does' The voice says. He sets the tray down on the bed and I notice that there are waffles and pancakes on the tray. My mouth waters as it has been so long since I've had a good breakfast. Adam had made me eat so many disgusting things and I did not like it. Though, Silas always makes me feel safe. 'Hey! I'm here too' The voice says, and I giggle. Sorry, all right Silas and this mysterious voice makes me feel safe. Happy? 'Very' She says, or I say, it's rather confusion that she has my voice.

"I think it's better to say thank you when you have been given food" Silas says, and I look up at him. For a moment I was so lost in the food that as I had begun eating it, that I did not even notice that he was still standing there and his eyes never leaving my body. "Sorry. Thank you" I say to him and give him a smile. With my mouth closed that is as I was still eating and my teeth probably look horrible right now, and I don't want him to see that.

I eat the food and I manage to eat it all, and then I'm finished. I lay back on the bed and stare at these strange things that are connected to my hands, I think I've had those before. These are medicine of some sort. I can remember how I was shot by Adam and then the unicorns and the warmth but then nothing. I don't know what happened after that I don't want to know. I look down at my stomach to see that I'm wearing pajamas, but I can feel something wrapped around my stomach and back.

I touch my stomach, but I don't feel anything, but I can feel that there is something there. 'They gave you drugs to keep the pain away' The voice says, and I mentally thank her. "Silas?" I ask him as I notice that he's still just standing there, after he had taken the tray away and put it aside. "What?" He asks me, his voice so low. It would be so much fun if I were able to read his mind, that way I would know what was going on in his head and I could tell if he cares about me or not.

"Can you sit down and hold me?" I ask him. I'm still freezing cold, and I need his warmth to take me and bring me to this safe place... and the voice will do too but mostly Silas. You don't do much other than talk to me, but I suppose I will have to thank you for being here. The voice giggles in my head but doesn't say anything. Silas nods and gets into the bed and under the covers and sits down beside me. When his arms are around me, I snuggle closer to him and lean my head down on his shoulders where I rest it.

"If the world was upside down, would we be too?" I ask out of the blue. I don't even know where this thought came from, but now I just want to know. Why did I even think about the world and being upside down? This is confusing. Somehow I feel that I should be standing on my hands so that I would be seeing the world in the right away. Still, would that not be weird? Silas looks down at me, I can feel his stare and then laughs. "You're so different, Leanna" He says, and I find that my heart melts by these words.

My lips tug themselves in a smile when he says that and my heart is racing inside my chest, but he did not answer my question. 'He doesn't know the answer' The voice in my head says to me. Well, that does make sense. "It's been so long since we've had a session. Can we have one today?" I ask him and he chuckles. "If you want we can have all the sessions in the world" He tells me and hugs me tighter. I love his arms around me.

'I do too' The voice speaks. Don't you mix yourselves into this. Silas is mine, and you can't have him. I tell her back. I don't want her to have Silas as well. He's mine. 'Haven't I already told you, I'm you' She says. "Can we have the session in the office? It's much better than a bedroom and besides I've been told that you're never supposed to mix business with pleasure. Whatever that means, but it's best to listen to that" I say. Silas can only laugh at that.

"I think we've gone way past that, love" He says, and I smile. Looking up at him to see that his eyes are on me and only on me. It makes me happy to know that he's only looking at me. "Really? How?" I ask him and he chuckles. I see his Adam's apple bop up and down then he clears his throat. "I don't think we should go into the details" He then says. I can hear the voice in my head groaning. I told you to stay out of this. It's me and Silas' time, not yours. You can have time later.

Once again the voice doesn't say anything but just laughs. The laugh is becoming something that I can live with, and it's not as evil as it was before, and I think that I can live with this and her in my head. I just have to look at the bright side and that side is telling me that it's going to be fun. "Is there much to think about? You're always getting lost in your mind" Silas asks me and I giggle. "Of course, my mind is everywhere. Did you know that the brain never stops working?" I ask him.

Silas kisses the top of my head and pulls me closer to him. "That are completely new information that you're giving me. I did not know that" He speaks in this playful tone. It's a tone that I love to hear, and it does suit him. "Oh, and I have something for you" He says to me as one of his hands. Taking something from his pocket he opens his palms to show m and I gasp when I see what he has on his palm. I look at him with tears in my eyes. "You kept them?" I ask him. In his palm are the two seashell necklaces that I made for him so long ago.