❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ LOVE❦

|The past is not what it seems|

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That bastard has been hiding from us the entire time. I knew he had something to do with it but he disappeared, and his record was clean so he has no reason to take her. Except for the fact that he was in a relationship with her or rather a fake one. I grip the steering wheel even tighter to the point where my hands hands are getting white but that is the least of my problems. Finding him is finding her and he's nowhere to be found. But once I find him I'm going to kill him.

"Remind me again why we're looking for a mentally unstable woman?" The annoying person beside me asks. My second in command and my best friend; Ace. I glare at him when we're stopping at a red light. "I will shoot you!" I hiss at him but he only laughs. "No, you won't" He says. He's right though never will I be caught dead saying those words out loud. "She's... she's my everything" I admit to him but that only fuels my anger. I need her, I need her more than I've ever needed anyone.

"Dude, you're whipped and don't even try to deny it" He says and I won't try. There is nothing that can tell me that I've not fallen for that woman and nothing to convince me to not do everything that I can to find her and bring her back to me. "But, isn't she like... you know insane?" He asks me and once again I find myself glaring at him. He's really testing my patience and soon I will actually shoot him if he doesn't shut his mouth or I could just knock him out with something so he stops bothering me.

I sigh. "Don't ever call her that again. She's different. That's what she is" I tell him. Leanna isn't like all the others which is why my love for her shines even brighter (though I don't let it shine anyone but her). She is different and her personality is what makes her who I she is. Sometimes it's hard to not laugh at her and her ridiculousness but at the end of the day she's just too adorable for her own good. I drive the car through the streets until I park in front of house and we both get out of the car.

Neither one of us speak as we draw our guns out. The house is abandoned but this has been found to be one of his properties. That bastard is loaded but that doesn't mean that I don't have more money because I do and if I'm short on something there's almost bank available to be robbed or broken into, not that I haven't done that often. My eyes scan the house. It's large but silent as it's a bit far from civilization which is why it's perfect to have a woman captive, especially Leanna.

I've already kidnapped her in the past and she did not mind that at all but then again she was on a ton of drugs at the time. I walk to the front door and kick it down, not even caring about the fact that it breaks in half. He might be loaded but his security is the worst. He doesn't even have a decent looking door and it's easy to just kick it open and break into the house which is begging to be broken into. Through the darkness I see that there are a lot of broken items, furniture scattered everywhere on the floor.

This place is as abandoned as abandoned it can become. There are no sounds that come from the house beside the ones that we create ourselves but that doesn't mean that they're not here at all. Hidden passageways are something that I've all too well familiar with and a house as old as this and belonging to a man who has money to spare always has something hidden underneath the paint. It's only a matter of time before we find something that leads to that she was or is somewhere around here. We split off as we are walking through the house.

I keep my gun loaded and point in front of me but I also make sure that I have a knife in my other hand in case someone comes behind me for I'm not going to get shot in the back of the head because I let down my guard. I'm not known for being that careless either way. My eyes scan the house and despite the darkness I am able to see something, often just shadows of broken furniture or other object but nothing out of the ordinary, for an abandoned house that is.

"Silas! I think you should see this!" A voice calls out and I groan. Ace has never been one of intelligent which makes me often question how he's still alive today and he's not the one that is stealthy. I walk back and go down the hallway that he went to until I find him looking at me with a strange look. "You said that you thought they were here and I think you're right" He tells me and opens a door for me to enter into a room and I go in there first with him following behind me.

Inside the room is a light switch has been turned on and this is the only room that has light but there is more than that which is turned on in here. "I think you're right" I speak as I stare at what is right in front of me with the anger inside me only getting worse and worse. The thoughts of tearing that bastard apart are starting to surface and I will have his blood scattered everywhere when I find him before I end his life once and for all, and then I will claim back the woman that I love.

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Adam had made me sit down with nothing around me. Just on the floor with my hands chained to the floor and my back hurting from not able to move. I stare at him as he's sitting on a chair in front of me. I frown when I can't reach him. He's so mean to me right now. He doesn't want to be around me. Even Bill and Bill have left the room and are gone. "Lea, you have to understand that this is all for your own good" He speaks but my smile is still upside down.

I don't like that feeling of not smiling but he's being mean to me. "Why don't you want to play with me anymore? Your game is so mean" I say. He told me that I never worked at a prison, I don't understand it. I worked there and I had many patients and I met people and had fun. He sighs as he looks at me. "You're going to have to listen to me and when I've finished I will get you some cake. Does that sound like a deal?" He asks me. I pretend to think about it for a moment before I nod my head.

"None of this is easy to say... Leanna, when you were just a baby, you were in a fire. You were able to make it out a life, no one knows how and no one stepped up claiming to have saved you but that day you suffered a blow to the head and the smoke in your lungs prevented oxygen to enter your brain. Because of this it became immature when growing up. Your mind reminded that of a child, even when an adult. Even now" He begins.

I don't understand it. "But you also started to have violent outbursts as a child. Your parents were terrified to hurt you but they had to do something. Leanna, you didn't know you were doing anything bad, you were just trying to live with this illness that you have. When you were only four years old they took you to a facility that is capable of taking care of you and getting you the help that you needed but they were met with horrifying news. The illness that you have can't be cured and you would remain like this all your life but you would never be aware of it" He tells me.

"That facility was not your home, no, you lived in your house with your parents with each day they would drop you off there and it was your school and your life. They helped you and educated you and did everything they can to assist you whenever you needed it. You acted as a toddler sometimes. You didn't know better. But as you grew up and became a teenager your life started to change. You became so violent that no one could come near you, not even me" He says.

"I met you when we were both sixteen years old. I was there too and I saw you. I saw how you did not want anyone near you and if you had the chance you would strike at them. I don't think I could ever forget the things that you said. You said you wanted to make them hurt. Because of that they had to prescribe you medicine to keep you under control and it worked and your life started to feel normal again and we became friends. I fell for you the moment that I saw you and I needed to make sure you were safe" He speaks.

"I still need you safe. My father owns the facility that you were in and I had told the doctors to give you more medicine to make you better, to make you better so you could be with me. But then you were unable to be out in the real world without guidance so the facility then became your home. And then you started to tell me strange things. How we lived together in the apartment that you were in. That I was your boyfriend, and that you had applied for a job as a waitress" He says.

Adam is continuing to speak but I don't understand what he's going on about this time, but then again I've never really understood him. "Everything that happened to you in the facility you thought of it differently. In the cafeteria you thought you were a waitress because you were around food. I played along with you because I found it adorable but it became worse one day when you came from a therapy session claiming that you were a therapist" He tells me. I shake my head.

I am a psychologist and I work at the prison. "Why do you lie so much, don't you know it's mean. You're just a mean unicorn. No... anti-unicorn because they're not even unicorns at all" I tell him and he rolls his eyes at me. "Leanna, remember the cake" He says and I frown. "I don't want cake anymore. Can I go somewhere else. My back hurts and I'm tired" I tell him still with a frown on my face which Adam should know always means that I don't want to do something and I don't want to be here and I don't want to be with him.

I want to be with Silas and have him around me. I would love to have his kohl black eyes stare at me and I want to ask him about his tattoos. I want so much but I can't have that but soon I will get out of here and be with him again. It will be amazing. "All right, we'll finish this later. But for now, you're going to have to be here. I'll get you something to help you back" Adam says as he stands up from the chair. Why do I want to throw the chair at him?

He goes out of the room and then comes back with a mattress. "Lie on this and when you've calmed down, we can continue our chat" He only says because he walks back out of the room and closes the door. Well, that wasn't very nice of him. Adam is starting to become not nice anymore, was he always like this? I don't know. There is so much to think. I don't understand his story and it is just far too confusing for me. A facility? I was in a fire? How odd.

I think Adam should write a book about this, would I read it? No but he certainly could write a book. I lie down on the mattress which I find really comfortable but I want to be in the bed that I had with Silas. That was more comfortable than I've ever been on in my life. Everything makes me think of Silas. I want him to be here. I don't know how many times I have to say it to make it true but I want him and I need him more than I've ever needed anyone in my life.

Even the ceiling that I stare up at reminds me of Silas and I keep thinking of our time together and how much I want to eat ice cream with him again or swim in the ocean with him again. I start to hum to myself as I stare up at the ceiling. My hands are in a really uncomfortable position because of the handcuffs and the chain that is connected to the floor but other than that this is actually not that bad and I can see things on the ceiling. I can paint a lovely picture of Silas and me.

When I do find him I will make sure that he will not leave me again and I will be in his arms again, even if it is the last thing I do. I laugh to myself as I think of those words. They sound so silly and weird but they are the truth. How funny can I be? I smile to myself. I can't hear anything from outside but I feel like Adam is close by me but I don't want him to be near me. I want Silas and I will stop at nothing until I'm back with him.

My laughter rings through the room as I think about all the fun that we're going to have once we're together. I'm going to smile all the time and he's going to be... well Silas but still he will laugh and smile. I know he can be happy. Sometimes at least. Despite him wanting to be sour and mean but he's actually a big teddy bear that I want to hug and sleep next to and kiss all the time. I miss Silas so much. I even have water forming in my eyes but I won't let it fall as I will see him. Soon. I know it.