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What happens when a guardian angel dies before their human?

That's a question most angels tend to avoid. Just imagining what would happen makes them sick to the bone.

An angel's human is like a mother's child. A responsibility and a creature they need to protect at all costs, help get through the hard times, make sure is safe and sound every ticking second, and follow them from the day they take their first step, to the day they take their last breath.

But what if the angel dies before the human? What happens then?

Try visiting the shady part of a big city, you'll find the answer. Drug addicts, junkies, alcoholics, abusers.

Try surfing the dark web, and you'll find the answer. Suicides, murders, homicides, rape.

Jaehyun couldn't let something like that happen to Taeyong, not after how well Ten had taken care of him. Ten had been the best a guardian angel could be to their human, and that's why Jaehyun refused to let such a wonderful boy like Taeyong break into pieces, becoming Taeyong's guardian angel after Ten killed himself.

Now Jaehyun sat at the edge of Taeyong's bed, staring at the boy who had been asleep since a long time ago. He understood why Ten had fallen in love with him.

Taeyong's such a beautiful and ethereal human being, and each moment that passed with Jaehyun staring at the boy, he wondered how many times Ten must've been absolutely heartbroken that he couldn't speak or at least touch the one he loves. Jaehyun's heart broke just by the thought and he wondered if he soon had to sit at the edge of Mark's bed, thinking about how heartbroken Donghyuck must've been back when he was alive...

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Jeno eventually ended up on the balcony. He wanted to clear out his thoughts and maybe get a private place to let his tears flow, but someone had already chosen the balcony as their place to cry.

Haechan's tiny body was slumped down into a ball by the railing, small sniffles and hiccups escaping his plump and quivering lips. Jeno observed how dark the younger looked. He always shone with so much energy, but right now, his light was only a hazy flicker that seems to disappear every time a new wave of tears rushed upon him.

Jeno made his way over to the boy hesitantly, stopping next to the younger while keeping his gaze straight ahead of him.

"Having a bad day too?" His voice came out shakier than he had intended, the heartbreak finally getting to him emotionally. Haechan lifted his gaze and looked up at Jeno, not even bothering to hide his tear stains as he saw how the older was crying as well. He couldn't help but feel sympathy despite how much he didn't like Jeno.

The older sat down next to Haechan, making sure to keep some space in between them.

"Yeah," the younger sniffled. "Does your heart hurt?" he questioned and moved closer to Jeno. He had honestly forgotten all his hate for the latter at the moment. Right now, he just wanted comfort from someone who isn't Mark.

Jeno looked at him. "S-So much, it hurts so much," he stuttered through a cry.

Haechan took Jeno's hand into his. "Mine hurts too," he paused and smiled sadly. "Your eyes are taking baths like mine as well."

Jeno chuckled. "You're really cute, you know that?" he said and wiped away his tears. "I understand why Mark likes you so much."

Haechan's little smile immediately vanished at what Jeno said. "Mark doesn't like me," he whispered, gaze adverting to his lab again. "He likes you."

Jeno laughed. "You're not only cute but extremely dumb," he told and gave Haechan's hand a little squeeze. "Mark doesn't like me as anything other than a best friend."

Haechan teared up and met Jeno's warm eyes, feeling his emotions boil inside him. "But you two kissed and Mark said kisses are given out of love."

"Sometimes," Jeno paused. "Sometimes people do really stupid things," he sighed. "Things that they just want to forget. Mark and I aren't an exception," he assured. "Whatever Mark has told you, you can be sure that we feel nothing more towards each other than a friendly feeling, okay?"

The younger wiped away his tears and couldn't help but smile a little. "So you don't like Mark?"

"No," Jeno said. "I like two other people."

The tanned boy raised his brow. "Two?"

"Yeah..."

"Is it Renjun and Jaemin?" he questioned, realizing all the secret glances Jeno had given them throughout the day. Haechan felt a little dumb now, that he didn't realize the glances might have meant something different before now.

"Yes," Jeno mumbled. "But they like each other, so it's hopeless."

"Can't they have room for you too?" Haechan asked.

"That's sadly not how the world works." Jeno stood up and heaved a shaky sigh. He leaned himself against the railing and stared at the ocean that was lit up by the stars a few blocks away.

Haechan looked up at him with a pout. "I don't understand."

"Some things are just too complicated to understand," Jeno smiled. "You should go back to Mark. I'm sure he's missing you."

"He's sleeping," the younger mumbled.

"You can miss people in your sleep too, you know. It's getting late anyway, so you should go back and sleep."

Haechan stood up. "What about you?"

"I'll go to sleep too," Jeno promised. "I just need some time alone first," he added.

And as Haechan left the balcony after hugging Jeno and apologized for the way he had acted, Jeno let his tears flow to the point his chest physically hurt and he almost couldn't breathe.

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"Where were you?" Mark asked with closed eyes, half asleep when Haechan entered the room.

"Jeno and I just talked a little."

Mark let out a tired groan. "Come here," he mumbled and stretched out his arms, making grabbing hands while his eyes were closed and face squished into his pillow.

Haechan was already wearing his pajamas so he walked straight over and sat on the edge of the bed.

"Haechannie," Mark whined and reached for him. Mark's cuteness only made the other smile as he moved over to Mark who immediately pulled him closer.

"Don't leave again," the older mumbled and snuggled into Haechan's arm. "I can't fall asleep if you aren't here."

And that was the last thing that left his mouth before he fell asleep again, leaving Haechan wide awake with a heart beating in sync with Mark's snores.

"Was Jeno telling the truth?" Haechan whispered and stroked the latter's black locks to the side. "Do you really like someone as unexplainable as me?"

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my second yearly grading is coming up soon.

i'll be focusing a lot on school so i might change my updating schedule from 2-4 days to 4-7.

hope it's okay :)