His big brown eyes,

His sweet sweet lies.

Lies that only I know,

Only I know that they're not true.

His smiles are warm and big,

These smiles, they make me sick.

Sick with butterflies in my tummy,

With their lips that look like the sweetest honey.

His hair is bright, just like the sun,

And with them, I can always have fun.

They pushed down my inner walls,

And deep into the pit of love I fall.

His funny jokes,

His evil smirks.

Their hands when he holds me tight,

Their hands when we play fight

I'm stupid to fall for someone who doesn't know his feelings,

Someone who gives signs without meanings.

But still I let them in,

And gave into the sin.

The sin of betraying myself,

The sin of wanting him for myself.

They always make my heart ache,

And none of this is fake.

As real as it can be,

Real but he can't see.

Can't see the way they're more to me,

More than they could ever see.

When they told me that they "love me",

When they told me they want to kiss me.

I fell in love with the way he talks,

The way he looks, the way he walks.

They always made my days brighter,

They made me be a fighter.

I want to kiss him till we both can't breathe,

Maybe then he'll believe.

January 8th 2022