I'm tired of trying,

At every fucking point, after every few minutes, I feel like crying.

I'm tired to see myself try,

I see how I get up, I think let's give this another shot and after a moment I see myself cry.

Give it an hour, give it a day

and here we are after a week nothing has changed.

Don't ask me the progress of my work,

Don't ask me how many pages I learnt.

I have given it time and efforts,

It has fucked up my mental health and at points like this I wish I was a fuckin' nerd.