《love to die for | mattia polibio》f i f t y f o u r
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i had two months left with mattia, so i didn't have time to go to any protests, but they stormed on nevertheless, just like they had before i had joined, and i hoped from within the deepest chambers of my dulled heart that progress would be made, and nobody would ever have to experience the ordeals that mattia and i endured.
these days every happy moment came with a pinch of salt, every small laugh was a sharp impale into my ribs, and everyday the ache in the back of my mind became more and more aggressive, constantly screaming to be acknowledged, but time was a luxury that had never been so invaluable, and i didn't have a grain to waste.
the fall of dusk was a daily battle, as the nightmares had always followed soon after, and i was forced to become accustomed to seeing mattia's limp corpse and oil-black blood pooling around him the minute i closed my eyes at night.
i'd spring up violently from sleep every morning, an icy wave of relief soothing my burning flesh upon the discovery that i had been dreaming, just for a pulse of fatigue to push me back down against my mattress, my body physically exhausted from the energy it would take to escape the terrors and shackles of my ruthless mind.
that morning, my mom helped me get eliza ready, i was finally going to introduce her to her dad.
the thought of her in his arms alone made my skin buzz with a happiness so pure that i could feel it flickering in my eyes, the only feeling that wouldn't be erased by my constant fear of the future, and the deep sadness that inhaled me every time a second passed by that i wasn't with mattia.
i sat in the backseat and held her close during the drive there, bathing in her naturally youthful scent, listening intently to the sounds of her innocence, and trying to understand what it'd be like to have such little understanding. i became more and more fond of her, and the blissful tranquility that accompanied her presence.
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eventually, we had arrived. we pulled in and i reassured my mom that eliza and i didn't need her to come in with us.
'thank you, though, mom, i'll see you back out here in a while.'
'i love you, honey.'
'love you too, mom.'
with that i closed the car door gently, unable to summon anymore strength than necessary, and hauled eliza's car seat towards the entrance, counting the steps and giggling at eliza's humming and gurgling as i followed the normal route that i would take.
soon enough, we were in the room.
nothing much had ever changed about the four foreboding walls since i had first visited mattia, it was always the same charcoal grey and the creaking of the lamp light still screeched endlessly, but the room felt smaller with our daughter in it, and i noticed a crack at the base of the wall across from me.
i was easily lost to the theories that had fabricated in my brain, for some reason i was deeply concerned as to how i had never noticed something so obvious in all the times i had been in the dreary room.
the realisation that eliza had fallen silent was the only thing that separated me loosely away from the spinning of my thoughts.
i turned slowly, matching the pace at which my earth was spinning at, and saw them together.
the stillness of their eye contact made me feel as if i was at an art gallery, staring at a painting, and i analysed the scene accordingly.
her head fell seamlessly into the crook of his arm, as if it had been carved out specifically to house her angelic crown, the way her eyes gleamed like newborn stars, and her cheeks were pools of pink syrup as the corners of her cherry mouth curled up into a playful smile.
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the admiration in his expression was clear, his face softened tenfold, beaming down at her through glossy eyes and caressing her subtle silk curls with his serene, careful fingertips.
i watched in awe as they completed each other, giving each other so much joy that both of their complexions glowed golden, so bright that it almost blinded me, but nothing in the world would have been able to cast my eyes away.
the silence was broken by a high pitched laugh so soft that it slipped off her tongue like cream.
i gasped, exhaling a wisp of air upon realising that i had been holding my breath, and so had mattia.
i blinked slowly, attempting anything i could to store that picture in my mind for as long as i lived, believing entirely that nothing so beautiful would ever cross my eyes again.
'she's gorgeous.' mattia whispered, as if a volume any louder would shatter her fragile bones.
'she's us.' i whispered back, truthfully.
he forcefully pulled his eyes away from her, absorbing as much of her golden as he could before turning to me.
'come here.' he said, extending out his arm, offering me a place in the tiny heaven that they'd constructed from their energy alone.
i moved closer gratefully, like metal drawn to a magnet.
immediately, a sensation of infinite euphoria engulfed me, filling up my chest and spilling through to my thighs and fingertips, i swayed slightly at the excitement, unable to stay still as a result of the lightning and electricity that was shooting through my bones.
i moved even closer until the three of us were so close that not even air would be able to come between us, and at that moment, i was satisfied, and finally everything was going to be okay.
my shoulders loosened as the weights lifted off of me, and the tears that soaked the tender skin on my face were those of relief.
i came to terms with the fact that we weren't going to get our happy ending, but this moment was worth it, and nothing else mattered.
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Harmless Sweetie (Rewritten)
*UPDATES EVERY MONDAY AND FRIDAY, SOMETIMES MORE IF I DON'T HAVE SCHOOLWORK. **This is tagged as comedy but I have a really stupid and peculiar sense of humor so yeah. "That's an eldritch horror." "No it's not, it's a frog." "Why does it have ten eyes and eight rows of teeth, not just that but why does it just perpetually scream with the voices of the ones whose mind it has eaten." "I'm just not that good at anatomy." *** Clailip Diancia, the tiny boy who dances along the threads of fate woven by a wicked witch. Not knowing of the plans of the witch that once scorched the lands, and unknowing of the abyss that beckons him forth. This harmless sweetie watches the stories of those around him. Ever unconscious of the turning loom of fate, always oblivious of the stories, legends, and tapestries of heroes that revolve around him as he goes, as he dances, and as he prances, leaving myths and rumours wherever he might set foot in. But as he is unaware of those whose fates have intertwined with his, he is also blind to the soul-piercing stares of the Abyss, ever calling to him.
8 267Tales and Legends of Tamriel : Twin moons
The continent of Tamriel is a unique place where many races live together. Humans, elves, orcs, lizardmen... they are many to populate this mythical continent. But of all the peoples, the khajiits are undoubtedly the strangest and the most curious of all. This race of cat-people lives in the warm and exotic province of Elsweyr. Under the benevolent gaze of the moons, the Khajiits live as they have for millennia. To our human eyes, their culture would be strange and bizarre, but they don't care. Princess Shazira, daughter of the khan Razirr'Ri, has lived locked up and cut off from the world since she was a child. She is said to be fragile and sickly by nature, but she knows perfectly well that it is all a lie. Curious and adventurous by nature, the princess does not hesitate to run away at the slightest opportunity to discover a little more of this vast world that fascinates her so much and from which she is kept away. It is during one of her many escapades that she crosses by chance a young human mercenary freshly arrived in Elsweyr, Alberic, who pays the price of this meeting. Unbeknownst to Shazira, forces are at work in the shadows as the young khajiit is the object of an ancient prophecy made to her father before she was even born. Strange events soon strike the family of Lord Razirr'Ri and he decides to take his daughter away to hide her and put her in a safe place. For the first time in her life, Princess Shazira leaves the capital. At first euphoric at the idea of traveling, she soon discovers that the evil that has awakened in the shadows is now after her...
8 103Moonlight Sword Sect
One of the three great sects, the Moonlight Sword Sect is a powerful sect that rules over a overwhelming amount of deity-like cultivators, like a dragon that rules over powerful treasures. The Moonlight Sword Sect, also called as the ?Moonlight Illusions Sect,?is the most feared sect among the three great sects for its profound and mysterious technique that can destroy realities and even the time itself. Indeed. This is the sect that no one must or even most, "can" fight as this sect is strong by any means, be it offensive or defensive as they can bend the reality to illusions, giving the attacker or defensive side a dim light of hope of surviving from the wrath of the Moonlight Sword Sect. However... "Are you really that serious, sect master?" "Yes, I am indeed serious." "You're giving away the sect master role to someone so that you can go away from your sect-master duties and court that female cultivator from other sect?! Are you serious sect master?!" "Yes." "Sigh... I can't believe this is happening..." ??? "Xiare! I challenge you!" "Hehehe.... Even though you're an OP character, you're still a weakling, my little Eumi. Fine then. I'll accept your challenge. Let's duel! Show me your best cards!" Indeed. Instead of a more serious tone of what the Moonlight Sword Sect cultivators imagined and portrayed by the other cultivators to be, they were instead opposite of that. Instead, they were casual, free from worries and most importanty— carefree with no sign of ending. It was as if they were like a joke, despite being one of the most feared sect across the cultivation and mortal world. Follow the cultivators of the Moonlight Sword Sect as they experience the changing world with their carefree lifestyle.
8 221BOUNDARY: LOW ORBITAL WARFARE
Civilization has tamed the final frontier. It is the year 2075, and the world is at the cusp of a new era. United, the once warring superpowers of Earth now work together to herald an unforeseen age of peace and prosperity, securing the future of humankind in the stars. The deadly orbital wars of yesteryear, fought by now defunct private military companies over the flow of priceless resources from the void, are nothing more than inconvenient memories of another era. Until now. A coalition of political terrorists, nations left behind by the expansion of humanity, and the final remnants of private military forces have begun their last stand against an uncaring universe. Against them: the newly formed Task Force 31 of the United Nation’s Solar System Defense Force. A band of misfits and irregulars brought together by an ailing Admiral on a legal technicality, the men and women of Task Force 31’s Marauder Team will sink neck deep into an orbital conspiracy that will threaten the very future of the human race. Now, the Boundary is a battlefield. Season One: Completed Season Two: In production...
8 198CRESTFALLEN
My bio, Face reveal & handcrafted poetry by yours truly. #5 in Poetry for 6 days 1# in Biography for 2 weeks
8 166When you give Kageyama coffee
Karasuno is having a school festival, and Yachi is in a maid costume. When someone steals her from a certain Raven haired crow(( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)), more coffee will be served.
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