*DISCLAIMER*

NONE OF WHAT IS WRITTEN WAS WRITTEN TO BE OFFENSIVE. THIS IS JUST A CONVERSATION I HAD WITH THE PERSON I BASED ADDILYN ON AFTER NEITHER OF US HAD SLEPT FOR NEARLY 2 DAYS. I'M SORRY IF YOU FIND IT OFFENSIVE, BUT IT'S NOT MEANT TO BE.

[REAL LIFE]

7/1/2017

It was the day after Brendon and I got home from Australia. He had to go home and do his own stuff, but Addi was spending the night at my house as promised. It was nearly midnight, so our conversations were getting weird.

"I want to name my child Puerto Rico," Addi said out of the blue.

"What? Why would you want to do that?"

"Because I feel like it!"

"But there is no reason to. Why not name your future child something normal?"

"Because I'm not normal, so why would my kid be?" She says, rolling over and looking at me. We were laying in my bed talking and avoiding going to sleep.

"Why not at least give them a chance to be normal?"

"Because that's no fun!"

"Whatever Addilyn. Just go to sleep," I tell her and grab my phone. I see that I have a text from Brendon, so I click on it and read it.

Not at all. I'm finding it hard too.

I thought Addilyn was with you

She is. That may be part of the reason now that I think of it.

Well get some sleep. I'll talk to you in the morning. Goodnight beautiful

Goodnight Bren

I turn my attention back to Addilyn's weirdness after I sent this. I put my phone back on the charger and listen to her.

"Don't you agree with me that Richard would be the best name for a food baby because then I could say that I get dick every night?"

"What the hell, Addilyn?!"

"Oh wait, nevermind. That made me sound like a hoe."

"I was gonna say something but decided not to," I tell her and she slapped me. "Anyways, how are you and Declan?"

"Oh you know, doing it every night. And by 'doing it' I mean getting three words in before I have to go back on set," she says, laughing. "How are you and Beebs now that we're on the subject?"

"Oh you know, he just witnessed me having three major freak outs while we were in Australia. It was a little awkward when we first got there because of my dad and the fact that we had to share my old bed, but it ended up being fine."

"Ooo, sharing a bed eh? Is sleeping all you did?" She asked, winking.

"Addi! My dad was right across the hall, no! Even if he wasn't, we've only been officially together for nearly a month."

"So? That wouldn't stop me!"

"Sadly, I know it wouldn't. It's just not the time for us. And plus, you know how I am with it. I don't want it to be meaningless. It has to be with a person who I know wants to be with me for me, and not sex."

"Oof, that hurt my heart."

"But it's true. And plus, I really like him, and I'm worried that if it happens, then we're not going to be the same."

"I get what you mean. That's actually how I'm kinda feeling," she confesses.

"With Declan? Already?"

"Not exactly, but I'm worried it might. You never know how guys around here are gonna be. Plus, no matter who you do it with, you and that person are never going to be the same around each other. You have seen parts of the other person that nobody else has. You have done the most personal thing you can do with someone, of course your not going to be the same around each other."

"Very true. Thanks Addi. Let's go attempt to find food in my apartment," I say, getting up.

"Hell yeah, let's go!"

Just 10 minutes later I am sitting in the doorway to my pantry and she's sitting at the bar, watching me with judging eyes.

"Why the fuck do I have not only one can of dried beef, but two?! What is this made for? What is it made of?" I wonder out loud.

"It's probably better not to question it. What else you got?"

"I have an onion, bran, and some kale. Wow, that's depressing."

"Damn, that's sad."

"Very."

"Can we do a midnight Taco Bell run?" She begged.

"I was waiting for you to say that. Let's go!" I yell and grab my keys.

"We can't go yet, I look like a hobo!"

"We're going to Taco Bell. Not The Noe. We look fine," I tell her and try to get her out the door.

"But what if we see somebody we know!"

"That's not going to happen. Let's just go already!"

"Can I at least put on jeans?"

"No."

"Please?"

"No."

"But why?" She whined.

"Because you look fine!"

"Ugh, whatever. I still look like a hobo. Let's just go," she says and puts her wallet into my purse. "You're driving though."

"Well no shit," I tell her and we leave. I lock my apartment and we go down to the car.

Driving there, she puts on her 'Throwback' playlist which contains songs like That's What Makes You Beautiful, Call Me Maybe, Dynamite, and California Girls. We sing loudly along with the songs, dancing along with the music. I only nearly killed us twice, but we survived.

Once at Taco Bell, we parked and got out of the car.

"Oh thank god, there's only three other cars here," Addi cheers and we walk into the building. "Ah fuck."

She ran to the bathroom and I looked around to see why she did that, and immediately see that Declan was here, talking to another person. I laugh and go up to order, already knowing what she wants. I get two 12 packs of tacos using her money to pay for it, because that's what she gets for leaving me here.

While I wait, I stand against a weirs half wall thing and look down at my phone. I'm scrolling through Twitter when I feel two arms wrap around me from behind. I drop my phone and turn around to slap whoever it is.

"What the fuck?! Get off me you perv!" I yell and pull my arm back to slap them, and don't stop when I see who it is. My hand connects with their face and they look shocked. "What the fuck Brendon?!"

"I'm sorry babe, but was slapping me really necessary?" He asks, holding his face.

"For all I knew, you were a rapist trying to kill me!"

"Do you need us to call the police ma'am?" The cashier asks.

"No, but thank you. He's my boyfriend just trying to scare me," I explain.

"Ok, as long as you're sure. Your food is ready as well."

"Thank you,"I say and grab the two boxes and we go sit at a table.

"Are you going to eat all those yourself?" He asks, eyeing all the tacos.

"No, Addi is here too, just hiding out in the bathroom because she thinks she looks like a hobo and Declan is here," I explain and get my phone out to tell her that it's done, but am interrupted by her calling me.

"What do you want?"

"Is he gone yet?" She whispered.

"What? Why are you whispering?"

"Is he gone!" She yells. I clearly see that he's still here, but I say yes. I point Brendon to him an he goes and gets him. They come back to the table before she hangs up. Brendon sits beside me, leaving Declan to sit across from us.

"Hey, what's up?" He asks us.

"Addi is hiding out in the bathroom because she thinks she looks like a hobo. She saw you when we came in here," I explain to him. At this point, Addi has come out of the bathroom and was nearly back to our table. We were all eating our food, pretending that we don't notice her coming.

"What the hell Camari? You said he was gone!" She says when she gets to our table.

"I think you look fine," Declan says. She rolls her eyes and sits down before starting to eat.

"Wow, we're on a one am Taco Bell double date!" Brendon whispers loudly. I nearly start choking on my food because of the randomness of this statement.

"What the hell Brendon?" Addi asks, laughing too. All four of us are laughing, which results in me nearly choking on my food. Brendon lightly hits my back to prevent that, and our random conversation continues. Addi had to go buy another 12 pack of tacos because I ate most of them at one point, and both of the guys had to go get more as well.

"Who knew that at one in the morning I would be having a Taco Bell feast with three celebrities?"

"You might as well get used to it. I mean, you know, if you plan on staying friends with us. You don't have to. I would totally understand if you didn't. That's only if you want to be," Addi says, making it awkward between the four of us.

"Addi, shut up. As for you Declan, you're stuck with our disfunctional group!" Brendon says.

"Don't worry, I wasn't planning on leaving anyway,"he says, glancing at Addi really quickly. She didn't notice it though because she was too busy attacking a taco. Brendon and I looked over at her, and when she looked up she had cheese stuck in the corner of her mouth, which caused the rest of us to laugh.

"What?"

"Nothing," I say. Brendon points to the side of his mouth. She gets the cheese and glares at me.

"Don't worry Addilyn, I think you still looked beautiful," Declan says and kisses her cheek. Her face turns beet red, and I laugh at the a little bit.

"Ew gross guys, get a room," Brendon teases.

"Hey watch it Urie. You may have a pretty face, but I'm not afraid to break it!"

He looks at me confused. "Did she just call my pretty?"

"Sorry guy, I think she did," Declan says, covering a smile.

"No, she definitely did babe," I tell him.

"I am not pretty! I am strong and handsome and sexy!" Brendon yells.

"Keep telling yourself that Prettyboy," Addi says and bites her taco.

"Fuck off Harris," Brendon tells her.

"Place and time Urie, place and time," she says, winking afterward.

"Guess we're the third wheels here now,"I tell Declan.

"I'm not buying you any more food.'

"Not even a drink?"

"Nope."

"Goddammit, I guess I'm all alone now," I say, pretending to look sad.

"Aww, don't worry babe, I'll never leave you," Brendon says, putting his arm around my shoulders and pulling my into him. I rest my head on his chest, and he kisses the top of my head.

"Now look who needs to get a room," Addi sneers, looking down at her taco.

"Wait, are you related to Kennith Harris?" Brendon randomly asks Addi.

"Yeah, he's my cousin, why?"

"He plays the guitar, right?"

"Yes. What is this about?" She asks.

"No fucking way! He's the guitarist for my band!"

"Wait, you're in a band?" Declan says, clearly confused.

"Just a small one, you might not have heard of it," Brendon says, shrugging it off.

"I knew he was interested in guitar, but I didn't know he was that good," Addi says, grabbing her phone out of her pocket.

"What's the band called?" Declan asks, clearly still confused, and not dropping the subject.

"Panic! At The Disco," I tell him so Brendon and Addi can finish their conversation about Kennith.

"No way! I love your band! You got me through high school," Declan tells Brendon, clearly trying not to fanboy.

"Thanks man," Brendon tells him.

"We've been here for nearly an hour and a half guys. Don't you think it might be time to go?" Addi asks. I can tell that she's getting tired, so I agree with her. We all get up and throw away our trash before leaving.

Brendon walks Addi and I to my car. He opens the doors for both of us. I roll my window down when I have the car started, and he leans into it.

"We should do this again sometime," he says, and I agree with him. "Goodnight babe, sleep well."

"You too, Bren," I tell him. Before he leaves, he leans into the car further and kisses me quickly before leaving. I roll the window up and start to drive off.

"Awwwwwww, I ship it so much!" Addi squeals. I shush her, but of course she ignores me. "You guys are really cute together."

"So are you and Declan!"

"But we're nowhere near as cute as you and Brendon. Ugh, can you guys just like, get married and have lots of adorable babies already?!"

"Just shut up and turn on the music."

We get back to my apartment shortly after 3, and immediately fall asleep. Addi was actually asleep in the car, but I woke her up to get into my apartment. As soon as we lay down, we both fall fast asleep in our Taco Bell comas.