"Hey princess" I feel my shoulder being nudged lightly "Wake up, we fell asleep"

"Huh?" I say tiredly as I prop myself up on my hands. My room was bright.

I turn over and I'm met with Caleb's face, inches from mine. Neither of us make any notion to move, we just lay there staring at each other.

"Hey"

"Hey" he says back with a small smirk. God his morning voice. I could listen to it for hours.

What the fuck is wrong with me? No. This isn't real. I have a boyfriend. Even if said boyfriend was being a complete dick and blindsided me.

"What time is it?" I ask softly

"I think like ten a.m., it's bright"

"No shit Sherlock" I say making him roll his eyes.

"You know I could go without your sarcasm"

"Please, you wouldn't know what to do if I didn't give you a smartass remark every five minutes" I can't help but grin, trying my best to bury the memory of last night, or this morning I guess.

"You annoy the hell out me you know that?"

"Oh I know. It's one of my favorite hobbies" I grin at him

We just sat there staring at each other again. It wasn't weird though, it was comfortable. His eyes were still squinty due to the brightness, but that small smirk remained on his face.

"Are you feeling any better?"

"Nope. I'm just doing a really good job of ignoring though so that's always a plus" I say brightly making him laugh

"You can't ignore all your problems Belle"

"I can until I'm forced to face them." I state finally before sitting up his arm falls from my stomach to now resting across my thighs.

"No lay back down" He whines, tightening his hold around my waist to try and get my to lay back down, his eyes now closed again "You're warm"

I just roll my eyes with a small grin before laying back down. He readjusts his arm, wrapping it around my waist and pulling me closer to him

"Co I have to take a shower, I look like a mess and smell like alcohol"

"You look and smell just fine" he mumbles tiredly

"The sooner we get up, the sooner we can open the rest of our presents" I tease him. At this his eyes instantly pop open while the wide smile back on his face

"Let's go" he instantly hops out of my bed and pulls me out with him before we both race downstairs, punching each other in the process. In the end we both end up falling and crashing at the bottom of the stairs.

"Nice of you two to finally join us" Ace laughs as he walks passed us into the kitchen

As I get up, I push Co down and ultimately win our race into the kitchen. Everyone was here now, well besides Arrex who I assume was still sleeping.

"Hey Belle" Em smiles sadly at me as Amy and Lexi mirror her expression

"I'm fine guys" I tell them seriously the just nod before placing more plates on our giant dining room table. We had, I think, just about forty one people for breakfast this morning, thankfully Cheri went out earlier to the store and basically catered a whole bunch of breakfast food.

"Yeah just fine" Beck says snarkily as he brushes passed me.

I watch Ace send him a glare as they get into a silent argument. I want to know what's wrong with Beck but decide to leave it for another time.

"What's wrong with him?" Caleb mumbles as I hand him a tray of hash browns

"I have no clue, I'll talk to him later" I just shrug before walking over to the girls

"Is this normal?" Lexi asks as she watches everyone

"What? All the people?" I turn to her with a grin

"Yeah I've never seen so many people in one area just for a meal" she looks in amazement

"Eh yeah" Em, Amy And I all say at the same time "Typically there isn't as many people. Usually there's only like fifteen to twenty people but because we had a party, all the families stayed" I explain further

"Wow" She grins "At my house it's usually only my brother, sister and I"

"Even for holidays?"

"Well yeah, my parents are both only children so no cousins, and my grandparents on both sides are dead so it's really just us three" she shrugs simply

"Kids! Food!"

"I heard food!" Arrex yells as he comes literally tumbling down the stairs

We all take our seats-around the giant table. Obviously the adults at one end, then kids oldest to youngest.

The adults were talking amongst themselves and so were the little ones, but we remained quiet. None of us in the mood to talk due to last night.

We pass around all the trays of food. Each one of us loading our plates with the best breakfast food in town.

"Can I have the bacon?" Beck asks quietly

I just nod and pass the full tray but somehow, instead of going straight into becks hands, he fumbles with it and the back falls onto his lap and the floor. Within seconds tiny has every piece the reached the floor cleaned up as Beck started grabbing the pieces off his lap.

"I am so sorry" I look at my brother wide eyed scared for his reaction. He already seemed pissed at me this morning and this definitely wouldn't help.

Instead of getting pissed off at me though, he starts to laugh. The loudest uncontrollable belly laugh.

It's hard not to join in, as within seconds the rest of us are all laughing hysterically. After a few minutes though we eventually calm down with tears in our eyes as the adults look at us like we're insane.

"We needed that" Jordan says, wiping his eyes

"We really did" Wes agreed, taking a piece of bacon from Becks plate

"Dude that was like the one piece that tiny didn't get"

"Bacon is bacon" is all Wes says before popping the whole piece in his mouth

"Touché"

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After everyone helped clean up, everyone started to gradually filter out. Eventually the only ones left were my parents, Jordan, Emma, Lance and my brothers, excluding Zach.

"God this weekends been an event" I sigh as I sit next to Em on my bed. Beck and Jordan were sprawled out on my beanbags.

"Fuck it has" Beck mumbles. His eyes were closed "How have you been?"

Jordan and Em just sat there quietly, waiting for my response.

"I honestly don't know. The whole thing with mom fucked me up. I couldn't stop crying last night but I guess I'm okay now" I say quietly "What about you?"

"The shit she said to you pissed me the fuck off" he sneers, not at anyone in particular "I think I'm okay now too though."

"Belle your phone has been blowing up" Jordan says before grabbing my phone off the charger and tossing it onto the bed by my feet. I just leave it there though, already knowing who it's is.

"It's just Dallas. He won't stop texting me until I respond" I sigh before quickly turning Do not disturb on my phone

"Just tell him you can't talk right now" Jordan mumbles "What happened between you two anyway?"

"Just stuff" I say vaguely, I can't tell him what happened with Beck in the vacuity. He heard the word slut and will be gone. He'd without a doubt kick Dallas' ass.

"Well now I wanna know" Beck says propping his head up to look at me

"Me too" Em grins mischievously

"It was nothing guys, he was just being a possessive asshole and it pissed me off. Then All the shit with mommy dearest happened and I just really don't wanna talk to him right now. He'll make me talk about her and then eventually about us and I just really don't wanna do that right now" I explain to all of them

"Me fucking too" Beck agrees with me. He was just like me in the sense that we basically hated talking about ourselves and our feelings. It much easier to just really conceal things.

"I still can't believe she just fucking showed up? Who the hell does she think she is?" Emma scoffs

"Exactly. It was out of nowhere" Jordan says "I'm still confused as to what in her mind made it okay to do that"

"Her hatred for us" Beck and I say at the same time

"Are you okay by the way?" Beck turns to me and questions "I'm really sorry about just disappearing" I didn't really care that he disappeared. All of the boys did, I was usually the one to stick around and check in on them.

"It's fine, I'm okay" I say quietly

"How's Co?" He questions

"He's okay why do you ask?" I don't know what he was trying to do but I couldn't help but feel like there was an underlying meaning to what he was asking

"I'm just glad he was there for you last night" he says quietly with a small smile. I couldn't tell if he was genuine or not, I'd like to believe he was but there was just something telling me he was mad.

"Me too" I nod before looking back at my t.v. We were all quiet as we continued to watch friends. It was weird but I couldn't exactly tell why.

"I started watching a new show yesterday morning" I grin at them. I just wanted to get off the topic of anything and everything that pertained to yesterday.

"Which one?"

"Criminal minds. I'm obsessed with it" I smile as I turn friends off and switch it to Criminal minds. I restarted it from the first episode so they could start from the begining. "I'll show you the one I'm like in love with"

After a few minutes of watching the episode, Reid makes his appearance. "Him!"

"The nerdy one?" Beck looks over at me. Granted he wasn't the typical guy I'd like. The fighters were usually the ones I'd go for but Spencer reid was definitely an exception.

"Don't diss Reid! He's a genius and look at his face! He's adorable!" I reason with a grin. Reid was by far my favorite, but Morgan wasn't bad either. My top three had to be Reid, Morgan and Garcia.

"Nah I like him" Em point to Morgan. Of course she liked Morgan

"Oh yeah," I grew with her "without a doubt"

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"Still haven't talked to him?" Em questions as she joins me and Jordan at the bar at Kane's. He was working but it was dead at this time so almost no one was here.

I was just staring at my phone contemplating if I should answer. He asked if we could talk, and as much as I wanted to say no, I knew I had to talk to him sometime. It was really now or not for at least another week, Sage and Ashley were coming in the twenty sixth and are staying until January second. Plus Christmas is almsot here and I still have a lot of shit to do.

"Nope. He wants to talk and I know I should but I really don't want to" I huff still staring at my phone "I am a horrible girlfriend. I should just go and get this over with" I knew we were probably going to break up. I just had this feeling that it wasn't going to well and even if in the end it is for the best, it doesn't make it any easier.

I can't even type a reply back before my phone is snatched out of my hand. I watch dumbfounded as Jordan quickly typed something in my phone for me before handing it back with a devious grin.

"I decided for you, now go home, get in your truck and go talk to him cause right now because neither of you are benefiting from this situation. Neither of you will get what you want if you keep avoiding each other, and now he's trying to make an effort and you're over here being stupid. Get your shit together and talk to him" Jordan orders sternly. See this was why he was my best friend, he always called me out on my shit and told me flat out if I was being an idiot.

"Fuck okay" I huff before hopping off the stool

"Good luck B" Em supports

I just sigh before starting my walk back home. I'm going to have to face things I really didn't want to. It would change things, and I really didn't want that to happen.

"Hey Belle" Arrex greets as I walk in "I was just running to the store, you want anything"

"I'm good, thanks though" I say absentmindedly before walking up to Becks room. He was out with Amy but said I could take his truck.

"Woah slow down Princess, you okay?" Caleb says as I come flying back down the stairs

"Yeah I'm good, gotta go" I mumbles before walking out. I've been acting weird around him and I have no idea why. When I'm around him, I could feel my heart rate increase, and I'd just get weirdly nervous. Right now though, I just wanted to get this done and over with. I already got a text from Dallas telling me he was at Janie's.

I quickly send a reply before basically speeding through the backroads to get there. I tried to focus on anything but my loudly beating heart but it was hard. I hated getting anxious like this but there were very few things that actually calmed me down.

Within minutes I was pulling into the ice cream shops parking lot.

"Hey" Dallas greets as I slowly approach our usual booth. He'd already ordered our ice cream, my cup of Superman was sitting in front of my seat.

"Hey" I say tensely "Okay, I-I have no idea what to say"

"I know, I just wanted to apologize for everything I did on Saturday. I shouldn't have said any of those things about you, it was really fucked up and really shitty and I was a complete dick. I got unreasonably jealous and it wasn't fair to you at all." He rambles rapidly "I thought I meant it when I said I love you. I've been so jealous of Caleb and possessive because of that."

"Dallas that's not- that's not how it should be" I say quietly "You can't be jealous of the people in my life"

"I know. The more I thought about it the more I realized that it really wasn't love" he states simply making me let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding

"Okay I'm going to be honest, that is a relief to hear you say that" I tell him honestly

"I know right" He joked making me laugh lightly. This was going a lot better than I thought it would

"And it wasn't people I was jealous of, just him. I was jealous of him specifically cause I saw the way you two were with each other and knew I'd never have that with you." He tells me

"I'm so sorry Dallas" I feel like I was about to cry again, but I held it together. He was right. Granted he was an asshole sometimes, but he actually was a good person, he just didn't know any better.

"You can't help who you like Belle, don't be sorry" he says with a sad smile "He makes you unbelievably happy, he makes you laugh, and knows you. He's your safe place"

I just nod quietly. He was right, right about everything.

"I never did anything. With him I mean, I swear to you, I would never do anything like that to you. We don't even see each other that way"I say quickly, I didn't want him to ever assume I'd cheat on him. "I'm so sorry. You are unbelievably nice and charismatic and really really sweet."

"I know you didn't Belle" he grins "You're too nice for that" he says easing the tension "It's okay. We just weren't meant to be together"

"I'm so sorry"

"Nothing to apoligize for" He smiles, "You love him in a way you'll never feel with anyone else."

"I don't love him like that Dallas" I state firmly even though I knew it wasn't true. I did, I think have for a while now.

"Belle he's the only person I've seen who can make your face light up the way it does when you're around him." He deadpans

"Okay? He's one of my best friends of course I'd get happy when I'm with him."

"It doesn't happen when you're around just Em or Jordan. It was just only Caleb." He says cockily with a smirk "You can't deny it Belle"

"How are you so laid back about this?"

"I honestly don't know. I just know I care about you, and I want you to be happy even if it's not with me" he says with an innocent grin

"You too Dallas. Maybe we weren't just meant to work out like that" I shrug "So that being said, friends?" I offer quietly

"Oh definitely, I wasn't planning on leaving you alone that easy" he playfully grins "friends"

"Holy fuck is that a relief. I thought this was going to be a lot worse, if you couldn't notice, I was practically shitting myself as I walked in here."

"Oh yeah" he laughs "Your hand was shaking as you tried to take a bite of your ice cream" he starts to laugh "Why were you so scared?"

"I don't know, I knew we were gonna break up, I mean that was expected but I just though it was gonna be a lot worse" I shrug "plus I was nervous about the whole Caleb thing. I've kinda been denying it for a while, and just ignoring the feeling and I knew talking to you would force me to face that fact" I huff

"Well did it?"

"Yeah it did." I say as I start to tear up "You're right"

"Aw why do you look like you're about to cry?"

"Cause I'm just overwhelmed with everything that's happened." I say laughing lightly a si feel a single tear fall down my face "I just need to take a nap"

"Okay Belle" He smiles softly at me as we both slid out of the booth "Thanks for talking to me"

"Thanks for not being an asshole" I grin as he hugs me

"Bye Belle"

"Bye Dallas"