*other for this chapter: I hate everything about you by Three Days Grace

I couldn't breathe.

It's like her presence just sucks up every ounce of oxygen in the area. She can't possibly be here right now. She lives in Chicago why would she possibly come all this way?

"Belle are you okay?" Dallas says quickly coming to my side

"Get my brothers" I say quietly not taking my eyes off of my mother. "And Caleb"

"Well aren't you a cutie!" She says to him "I'm Mia Harris, Bailey's mom" the fake smile evident on her face as she looked at my boyfriend

"Cheri is my mom." I say quietly earning an eye roll from her

Dallas knew very little about my mother, but what he did know was enough. He very cautiously offers his hand to her.

"Dallas, Belles boyfriend" He says cautiously, his voice strong but at the same time timid.

"Wow you..." He looks at me "could get that?" She points to Dallas

"Did you come here to insult me or do you actually have a-" I start to say coldly before stopping "never mind it's been very well known that you have no purpose in life" my heart was about to beat out of my chest. I physically felt like I couldn't move or I would fall, I was frozen where I was.

"Well I was in town for an event, thought I should stop by and pay a visit" she says baring her teeth in an obvious fake smile

"Dallas please get them" I say quietly. I needed the boys right now. I feel his presence leave behind me. I can't take my eyes off of her.

"Wow you guys have really let this place go" she says as she lightly pushes me out of the way to enter. My hands start to sweat more than normal at her entrance

"Please Mia come in" I say bitterly sarcastic

"Bails whats wro-" Arrex seems to have the same reaction I did. He along with the rest of the guys, were frozen. Zach, Austin, Ryan, Lance, Arrex, Ace, Beck, Tyler, Jordan, Wes Colton and Caleb all stood there, staring at the bitch herself. I see Em, Lexi, and Amy all come up behind the boys. As soon as Em spots Mia though, her eyes go wide and she leads the other two away.

I knew I must've looked bad, Caleb immediately snapped out of it to come to my side. He knew EVERYTHING that happened with my mom and I, the only other person who did was Ryan. My other brothers still don't even know she punched me

The look of fear stuck on my face. I couldn't move. She scared every inch of me.

"Hey. Hey princess" he says quietly as he takes my hand "Look at me" he gently tilts my chin up to look at him "You're okay". He was always there.

I nod as I feel my eyes fill with tears. As I hear Ryan grunt a harsh "get out"

"Well look at you two? You've always needed your little fucking Kazer boy with you" she rolls her eyes at us completely ignoring Ryan. "Not so little anymore though. You still protecting her like you did when you were kids?"

"She's never needed me to protect her Mia. She is perfectly independent and capable of that herself" Caleb states boredly as he literally looks down at my mother. She was about the same height as Em, maybe a little taller, but Caleb was just that much of a giant. I normally would've chuckled at the height difference if it weren't for the fact that it was her.

"It's funny that he's been there for me more than my own biological mother has. 'Kazer boy' also has a name, so fucking use it." I snap back without hesitation "Why are you here Mia?"

"Why are all of you up at four in the morning anyway? Does your father and that woman know you are having a party?" She questions us, a bitter sharpness to her tone.

"Who? Mom and dad? Yeah they both know" Arrex says, a vindictive smirk void of any amusement is painted on his face as he refers to Cheri as our mom. She's the one who really raised us, she is and always will be our mom. Mia will never.

"That woman is not your mom, I am" she glares at us

"Says fucking who?" My twin snaps at her

"No I'm pretty sure the one who raised us is our mother, and that sure as fuck isn't you" I growl at her. I was suprised at my own tone, I'm never like this. I hated being like this honestly. I went through my life trying my best not to take too many things seriously, this anger and aggression wasn't who I was.

"Do not insult me, Bailey. What would your friends think of you talking to your mother like that?" Why the hell is she still concerned with appearances? That's all she's ever cared about, how we all look to the public and those around us.

"Personally I think she's brave" Tyler states simply. "I mean we all know you...and we all know Belle... and I would act the same if I had to deal with you"

"It takes a lot to stand up to the person who had ridiculed and mocked you your whole life" Jordan agrees with him

"She's protecting herself and her family more than what could be said for you" Wes states

"Agreed. She's brave and confident, somethings you're obviously lacking" Caleb starts boredly while everyone else nods in agreement

"No one asked Kazer boy"

"His name is Caleb" I snapped at her "and you implied their opinions when you asked what my friends would think. They corrected you by offering their honest opinions, not the false shit you conjured up. Now leave them out of this, What. Do. You. Want?" I say urging her to look at me. I feel my breath hitch as Caleb places a protective hand on my waist. He always did this as reassurance.

"Wow those are big words Bailey, you must be smart now." She says condescendingly

"The fact that you think those were and I quote 'big words' shows how truly unintelligent you are." I roll my eyes at her. I seriously have no idea where this confidence was coming from. I could physically feel my hands trembling yet here I am saying this shit. It was all false confidence obviously but I couldn't let her know that. I couldn't fall apart yet, not in front of her and sure as hell not in front of my brothers.

"And yes she is smart, as you would say. Though she always has been. We prefer the term scarily intelligent." Ace corrects her "You wouldn't know that though, you were alway too drunk to notice"

"Please" Mia scoffs at him "I had such high hopes for you Bailey. You could've been in college by now instead of fucking around at some silly high school. You were so unbelievably intelligent, But no you wanted to be like your father"

"You don't get to come here and insult us Mia. This is our home and our family, something you walked out in a long time ago. You have no right to even act like our mom nor are you in any place to question our choices. You have no right to push me when you've done absolutely nothing with your own life. Sure I could be in college by now, I have a 168 IQ level and can read just under 1,000 words per minute but I wanted to be a kid. I did not want to be dad, I sure as hell didn't want to be you and I also didn't want to be the version of myself that you imagined. I wanted to actually experience high school and friends and relationships. If you can't understand that then that's unfortunate, but I am not going to further explain myself to you. You were lucky you got that much of an explanation." I tell her sternly as I take a step towards her. She comes all this way from Chicago for what? To insult my life choices? To insult my friends and family? I think the fuck not.

"You could've been so much. But here you are ruining yourself."

"Oh fuck off already, I've heard this countless times before. I'm a disappointment? I know, I am failing myself? Believe me, heard that before! I'm a bitch? Where do you fucking think I got it from? You had always said I was just like you" I snap at her "I've heard it all before Mia, from the one person I should never hear it from too. Trust me, I haven't forgot"

Before I can even say more, my dads authoritative voice booms from the front door making all of us jump. Like I said before, he's a corny mush with us but anyone he dislikes says one wrong thing, he can turn into the scariest asshole ever. I believe there is one person he hates more than Mia.

"What are you doing here?" My dad interrogates as he comes to stand beside Caleb and I. Cheri at his side.

"I came to talk to my children" She states simply as she sizes up Cheri. Granted Cheri was shorter than her, but she could definitely kick Mia's ass any day.

"You lost that right. You are not to enter my home. Nor are you allowed to talk to my children, especially without mine and their agreement." My dad argues, raising his voice at her

"Jesus Adam, I just wanted to see my kids on their birthday" she rolls her eyes at him as she crosses her arms "Is that a fucking crime?"

"It is if you're breaking a contract. You have no right coming here and questioning my family."

"Your family? Last time I checked it takes two, I don't know who the fuck you think you are" Mia starts to take steps closer to my dad

"He's the one who raised us, provided for us, supported us, stood by us and loved us no matter what we did. Didn't see you doing any of that shit" Zach shorts behind us. He'd been quiet this whole time, obviously just as shocked as I was. He had always had the best relationship with mom, by the time she left he was already twenty-one, so he spent all of his childhood with her and honestly knew her better than all of us, well besides my dad.

"You've fucking brainwashed our kids into thinking you're the angel, well guess what guys? He not. He just an asshole" she says as she is now just in front of my dad "He was never home for me, he didn't even want all of you in the first place!" She yells at us. This wasn't news to us. Neither of them were home much when we were younger, the only difference was my mom was getting smashed at Kane's as she flirted with guys who weren't my dad while my dad was working trying to get his firm to the multi million dollar one it is now. She was destroying this family while he was trying to provide for it.

"We know" Ace says simply "Yet here he is, the one that still loves us unconditionally. All of us. He knows our favorite things, our lives and takes an interest in what we're doing. Sure he didn't initially want a shitload of kids, few people do, but that doesn't matter now. What matters is the fact that he's always been here, and you haven't."

"You all fucking disgust me. You all could've been amazing, far better than that, but you threw it all away for this" She states directing the last bit towards me "one can't read, the other is going into a pointless career, and another gave up countless opportunities"

I instinctively look at Colton at the comment. The fact that she had to mention his dyslexia only proceeded to piss me off even more, she couldn't speak to them like that. She wanted to get to us and including that comment without a doubt did.

"First off shut your fucking mouth. He can read just fine, do not make him out to be the incompetent dumbass you are, because he is far from it. And Beck isn't going into a pointless profession, he's persuing something he's passionate about which is far more than can be said for you. Now on my issue, I wanted to be a kid. I wanted to stay with the boys. So If you have a problem with that then you can shove it up your ass, just make sure to remove the stick that's already up there first" I spit out at her.

"You know, I can't help but think there's more to it? I mean what kind of girl hangs around so many guys all the time anyway?" She questions with a vindictive smirk looking right at me

"If you're insinuating what I think you are, then you are absolutely fucking disgusting. The only slut in this room right now is you." I state firmly with tears in my eyes. I couldn't take this anymore, I couldn't take her. She is so determined to make us miserable to the point of flying all the way to Texas just to remind us of our shortcomings and insult us.

"Mia you do not get to come in here and talk to my children this way. Get the fuck out of here before I call the police." Cheri sneers at her before my dad even can, stepping up beside me.

"Who do you think you are?" Mia snaps at Cheri, who just smirks in response

"I'm the one your kids call mom. Now I'm not going to repeat myself again, leave. You've caused this family enough harm"

"If that's how you want to fucking be then so be it. I'm leaving, the same way I did awhile ago. I never loved you guys, all of you are fuck ups and always will be, so I hope you're happy with that" she spits at us one that time before storming out of the house. Once again, she left us, only this time I felt a sense of relief. That was short lived though as I looked around at my brothers who had looks that I'm positive only mirrored mine. the

Colton had tears silently streaming down his face as he tried to keep a straight face. Lenny pulled him into a hug and he buried his face into her neck.

Aces head was down, he wasn't looking at anyone or anything. He'd start to cry if he did.

Arrex was nowhere to be found, He most likely retreated to the backyard to get away from everyone. He always wanted to be alone when he was upset.

My heart grew even heavier when I looked at Ryan who just stood frozen. The expression on his face the same as when he saw mom punch me when we were younger.

Zach just looked pissed, the angriest I had ever seen him. He was always the mellow easy going one. Now he looked like he could kill someone.

I felt myself tear up as I looked at my twin. Beck, like Colton, had tears in his eyes as he looked straight at me. I could feel his sadness, his eyes were dark and the usual happy glow The was always present on his face was gone.

I slowly walk over to him before pulling him into a hug, he buring his face in my hair as he cried. His body started trembling as I wrapped my arms around him. I immediately stopped myself from crying, I couldn't right now, not with all my brothers here. I hated crying, I had to be there for them.

"Beck" I say quietly as he releases me after a few minuets. His crying had seemed to decrease, but the sad look on his face was still present. "I'm so sorry Beck"

"It wasn't your fault Belle" he says wiping his eyes and nose "I-I just need to go" he says quickly before storming upstairs to his room, slamming the door.

I quickly make my wya over to Lenny who is trying to console Colton.

"Hey Belle" Colton says sadly, wiping his tears

"Come here baby brother" I say quietly as he leans into me

"I love you Belle"

"Love you too Bubba" I reply "You aren't what she said. You are so much more okay?"

"Thanks Belle" he nods slightly before looking back at Lenny who just leans her head on his shoulder while linking her hand with his "I'm just gonna go downstairs, I need a distraction" he says again quietly

After the two of them both go to basement presumable with the rest of their friends, I take their place on the stairs. Bringing my knees to my chest as I stare off straight at the floor. Why would she feel the need to come here? We were doing fine without her, she's obviously doing fine without us.

"Arrex is out back with Em, and Ace is in his room." My dad says quietly. I watched Ryan leave a few minutes ago without saying a word while Zach just went to the garage with Austin Kate and Mal. We were all in our places. For some reason these were all the places we'd go when shit like this happened, when we were all kissed or upset.

Ryan always left, he never went super far and was always back a few hours later though.

Zach had the garage. It was his place to cool off and just be away from everyone.

Same with Ace and Beck. Their rooms were their safe places. Once they went in, they were there for the night.

Arrex went outside. He needed a place to get some fresh air. When he got anxious, he would feel suffocated if inside, he needed a place to escape which was almost always the backyard, or Nicos property in the woods.

Then Colton had the basement. He always needed something for a distraction and that was typically the best place for it.

"Are you okay baby girl?" My dad says before dropping beside me in the stairs. Thankfully my cousins had gotten everyone else out of the house.

"Are the boys okay?" I question ignoring his

"They will be. Don't avoid my question" he says sternly

"I'm fine" I state emotionless. I just wanted to know if my brothers were okay, everything else could wait.

"Bails you know you can always talk to me right?" My dad states with sad eyes that made me want to cry all over again. He blamed himself for all of this.

"I know dad. Thank you" I say kissing his cheek before standing up. "I'm gonna go to bed"

"Okay, love you bellaboo"

"Love you too dad" I try to muster up a smile as best as I could but in the end I know I failed.

I didn't want to talk right now. I absolutely hated talking about myself, let alone my feelings. I mean what's even there to say? My mom hates me and I'm sad? Well obviously, anyone would be.

I hear Caleb and Dallas both call me back as I walk upstairs. I ignore them though and just continue my way to my room.

Seconds after entering, my room, I heard knocks from the door. It was undoubtedly Dallas, no one ever knocked, especially when it was my bedroom door and not the balcony.

"Dallas, please I am just really tired" I tell him after opening the door. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't mean to snap at you but can I please just be alone right now?" I say once again, much softer

"Uh yeah, goodnight Belle" he say sadly as he gives me a quick kiss on the cheek

I once again try to show somewhat of a smile but still fail. I quickly say goodnight before closing my door once again letting out a silent sob as I leaned against it. I feel myself slide down before I'm met with the cold floor of my room. I couldn't keep doing this. I can't keep dealing with them. My mom, my grandparents my cousins and aunt. They were all constantly saying something bad about my family. They didn't even talk behind your back like normal people.

I feel myself begin to shake as I cry into my knees that I pulled into my chest. I just wanted her out of my life for good, I wanted to forget about her all together. I feel horrible for it, but sometimes I wish she'd just die. Who wished their own mother would die? What kind of fucking person am I to wish that?

I don't know how long I'd say there on my floor, in front of my door until I felt two strong arms wrap around me and I'm pulled into a strong chest. I didn't have to open my eyes to know who it was, theres only one persons arms I've ever felt this safe in.

"Shh Princess" He whispers quietly as he gently rubs circles on my back "I got you"

After a few more minutes of me crying, I eventually look up at him. He just smiles grimly before resting his head on the top of mine.

"Why did she have to come here Co?"

"I-I don't know" he whispers quietly "I'm sorry she was here at all"

"Not your fault my moms a raging bitch" I laugh bitterly as I sit down across from him on the floor "don't apologize for her shit"

"Note taken" he chuckles lightly "You just made a grown ass woman look like a total idiot, for what it's worth"