"Hey Jordy" I say as I enter the kitchen

"Hey Belle, feeling any better?" He asks me

"Not really, but thankfully Caleb's wonder pancakes got rid of the cramps so I'm not going to complain"

After I fell asleep yesterday, I slept all through the night. It was the most sleep I've gotten in one night my whole life. Cheri said Caleb did stay until she got home around seven and left a little after eight.

"Wait Co was here yesterday?" Ace asks me

"Yeah he walked in in me dying" I shrugged as I sit down next to him. I know Arrex and Beck are staring at me with their usual questioning looks but I ignore it and look over to Jordan

"So did you hire Lexi?" I ask him, I haven't been able to talk to him since yesterday so I don't really know what happened with all of that.

"Uh yeah I actually did" he says hesitantly

"Wait you hired Lexi?!" Beck and Arrex both start to laugh as Ace looks at him with wide eyes.

"Okay you won't believe me when I say this but I kid you not, she's actually a really hard worker. Like she did a lot yesterday." Jordan says

"Wow really?" I question. I gotta be honest, I wouldn't expect that from her. She seemed like the typical spoiled princess.

"I'm dead serious, she's actually in there right now for her second training day" Jordan grins "And she wasn't a total bitch to the customers"

"Wow I'm actually slightly impressed" Arrex laughs "who would've known?"

"No one" Beck laughs

"Okay I'm going back upstairs, I'm half way through this season of gossip girl"

"I'll join you, I haven't watched that show in a while" Jordan grins as he follows me up

"I still can't believe you let your little sister watch that show" I laugh before entering my room

"I make her cover her eyes at the sex scenes so its fine" he shrugs "So haven't seen Dallas around lately"

"We just went out Friday night" I shrug

"You did?" He asks, I sense an undertone to his voice but decide to let it go for now

"Yep, why the questions about Dallas?" I inquire. He's never been this interested in the topic of Dallas.

"Eh I mean it's just I guess weird that Caleb was here while you were suffering but your boyfriend wasn't" he says simply

"Oh my god not this again" I roll my eyes "Caleb was just there, you know how he is, he just, he helps me, and doesn't judge me."

"Dallas does?"

"He doesn't outwardly say it but I can just see it" I tell him "He's used to pristine and polished girls, all of his passed girlfriend were, but that's not me. I know if he saw me yesterday,he wouldn't have said anything but he definitely would've thought different of me"

"So he would've seen you as your actual real self" Jordan deadpans

"No-well- yeah I guess. Dallas hasn't seen me like that and Caleb has." I say simply

"If you can't be yourself around him then why are you with him?" Jordan questions

"Cause Dallas is just, hes sweet and nice"

"Yeah but you don't do sweet and nice. You like adventure and fun, and sarcasm. You aren't the pristine and polished girls that he's used to, you're fuckin loud and outgoing and just you. You shouldn't have to hide that cause you're afraid someone won't accept it" My best friend reasons. I hated when he was right, and he partially was. I was just happy with Dallas and I didn't want to give that up.

"I'm just saying there's someone else you should be with" he adds. So this is why he brought this up. I think Jordan is like the OG shipper of Co and I,

"Okay and I'm saying there's not." I retort "You seem to forget my brothers?"

"So that's the only thing stopping you?" He smirks at me

"No it's one of many things."

"Enlighten me then on those other things."he antagonizes

"Fine, so obviously my brothers, issue one. Two, we've known each other our whole lives, three, he doesn't feel that way about me" I tell him matter-of-factly "nor do I him" I add

"Okay the fact that he's known you your whole life has no bearing on anything."

"Yes it does, don't you think things would be weird?" I ask him

"No actually, you guys would just be you." Jordan refutes

"Fine what if we break up? Then it would definitely be weird"

"You won't" he puts simply "You two are endgame. That's it"

"Yeah okay, all couples do. Love is just a concept made up by some sad person who had attachment issues. Things don't last, especially as young as we are" I sigh. I don't believe all that much in love, I haven't for a while now.

"Love is real Belle" Jordan reasons "You know love. You love me, you for sure love your brothers, and dad and Cheri. You love the girls and Ty and Wes and yes, Caleb too."

"You know what I mean" I state "I mean romantically, it's near non-existent and every relationship I've seen and experienced through my life is proof. My parents, that turned out well" I scoff "She wanted to have all of us, she told my dad he was the love of her life but as soon as things got hard she left. What about Ems parents? Kerry thought she loved that man with her whole heart, and he just hurt her over and over again. Ryan and his girlfriend of six years, they fell out of love. It's not real. If you love someone and love was truly real, then you couldn't possibly fall out of it no matter the circumstances. Proving that's it's just a mere attachment and not actual love"

My best friend was quiet before speaking up again. "What about your dad and Cheri? Zach and Mal? Kay and Arron? Hell, even my parents! Sure you have so many examples of not-love but you miss all the examples of real love. You don't show it but you're guarded, ever since your Mom left, you don't allow yourself to get too attached"

"Why do you think that is? Huh maybe it's because the one person a girl is supposed to rely on her while life, besides her daddy, the woman whose supposed to help guide her daughter through life, told me she hates me? I mean sounds reasonable to me. I don't get attached to very many people because they just leave in the end," I state. I save myself the heartache, I don't get attached and when they leave I'm not hurt.

"What about me? I've been here since almost day one, Caleb has literally been there since the day you were born and so has Em. We aren't planning on going anywhere anytime soon Belle. I am not going anywhere. I love you so much, and you deserve to be happy. Tell me now, does Dallas truly make you happy? Like the kind of happiness and comfort where nothing else matters, the kind that you've never felt with anyone else before?" he asks sternly.

I have never lied to him. Since I've known him I have never seriously lied to my best friend. There's only one person I have ever felt that with and it wasn't Dallas. "Yes he does" I say

I guess there's a first for everything. I felt like shit.

"Okay" he says as he lays back down "I love you Belle"

"I love you too Jordan"

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"God Chuck is a douche" Jordan scoffs as we stat the second season

"I mean I've kinda started to like him, I have a feeling under that whole asshole act he's a really good guy" I refute.

"You always like the assholes" he pouts

"No I don't!" I argue him. I mean I didn't always like the assholes, it was just this one specific one.

"Yes you do! You like Chuck, you loved Damon, and we can't possibly forget about Alex Karev" he huffs. We got into arguments over this, all of the characters he hated, I loved.

"Okay so maybe I like the asshole" I give in with a laugh "I can't help that I see the good in people!"

"I'm sorry but that's probably your worst downfall" He concluded as we watch our show.

"Oh without a doubt" I agree with him " I'm not trusting enough, but I see the good in almost everyone no matter how shitty they are and you are too trusting and will fall for someone after knowing them for a day"

"We make a great pair don't we?" He laughs at us.

"Hell yeah we do" I agree

We both start randomly laughing at eachother, a normal occurrence when we were together: only as I go to lean back I forget in sitting on the edge of my bed and fall right off. Of course we both just burst out laughing even more

"Fuck are you okay?" Beck questions as he enters my room

"No" I cackle, I physically couldn't breathe I was laughing so hard

"We really aren't" Jordan Chokes out. I honestly don't think he could breath either

"Well let's go crackheads, Ryans on Skype" Beck grins as he leaves my room

"Let's go" I punch Jordans leg before running out of my room and down the stairs

Jordan chases after me as we crash into the living room where my brothers, Caleb, Arya, Christian Em and Amy are already sitting

"When did you guys get here?" I question

"Caleb's been here for about an hour and we juts got here like two minutes ago" Em grins

"Get over here bitchface we wanna see you!" I hear Lance yell from Ace's laptop

"I'm coming asshole hold on" I laugh as I plop next to Ace and wave at the two boys on the screen

"God we miss you guys" Ryan says with a loud sigh. The last time we talked to him was that one night I cried myself to sleep. The same night Caleb snuck up and got me ice cream.

"Dude so much has happened since we last called y'all" Caleb grins at Ryan and Lance

"We wanna hear everything, after the fuckin day we've had, we need it" Lance huffs

So we told them everything. Jordan told them how he was promoted to manager at Kanes, Em told them about her shopping trip yesterday when a cute guy asked her out and she rejected him, they both got to actually meet Amy... and witness her roast Jordan, they heard all about state championships and possibly everything else that's happened in the passed months.

"Oh how could I forget!" Jordan starts to say making my heart drop. Here it goes, he's gonna tell them about Dallas. "Bails broke her arm punching someone!" He chimes making me visibly relax

"You what?!" Ryan questions with furrowed brows. He hated it when I fought, he was terrified that I'd get hurt. I mean, it's not like I did it often. I hated it myself, but at the same time, when a friend needs help, you help them.

"Good job girl!" Lance cheers "I'm so proud of my baby Ski" he says making me laugh

"Okay first off it wasn't my whole arm, just my wrist and a few knuckles" I clarify, Jordan can be so dramatic sometimes

"Okay I need more context, why did you punch someone?"

"Bonnie and Clyde came out that night" Arrex grins

"Oh shit" Ryan runs a hand down his face as Lance grins eagerly

"Okay, okay, so what happened was, this asshole guy who I got suspended crashed the party we were at, I walked out back to see him and Caleb practically nose to nose, so I decided to intervene and try to diffuse the situation"

"No she didn't, she didn't diffuse shit," Caleb comments in the middle of my story telling

"Hush up I'm telling the story" I grin at him, earning laughs from everyone "So there I was standing inbetween them, he was trying to pull me behind him, I, of course, didn't move. Asshole threatened to punch me, Co threatened to crush his windpipe, the guy went to hit me, I punched him before he even could, and then I punched him a second time with the same hand, after that Caleb jumped in and took over." I say quickly "He had a minor fuckin sprain and I had a cast for two weeks"

"I drew a dick on it" Caleb smiles proudly

"You two are dumbasses. Bonnie and Clyde need to retire" Ryan huffs. He always worries about us.

"I don't think they ever will" Arrex laughs

"OH GOD HOW COULD I FORGET!" Beck yells repeating Jordan's words "BAILS GOT A BOYFRIEND!"

Both Lance and Ryan's faces contort into a mix of frown and glare as their eyes fixated on me through the screen. For some reason I also feel Caleb physically stiffen beside me.

"Thank you Beck" I huff dripping my head to my hands

"It better be who I hope it is or else I'm going to kick someone's ass" Lance grunts as Ryan nods in agreement

"It's this douche Dallas" Beck scoffs

"Wait who did you hope it was?" Ace asks with a smirk

"No one. Why is he a douche?" Ryan cuts in before sending Lance a look

"He's not horrible" Caleb states "I don't like him but there are worse guys" he was lying. It was so obvious.

"Wait YOU approve?!" Lance yells at him

"Oh hell no I hate him" Caleb scoffs "but there are worse guys"

"I'm right here" I state as they all start talk about Dallas

"We he makes her happy so that's a plus" Em chimes. may shakes her head in agreement

"Yeah but he's also stupid" Beck retorts

"Again sitting right in the middle" I state calmly as everyone argues around me

"But he's also super cute" Amy smiles

"Looks don't matter if there's nothing behind it" Jordan and Caleb say simultaneously

"Guys! Do any of you want my imput on this matter?! After all, last time I checked he is MY boyfriend" I yell over all of them making both sides of me shut up

"Belle does he make you happy?" Ryan asks finally

"Yes!" I plead. Why the hell does this damn question keeps coming up today?!

After I say this I notice Caleb roll his eyes.

"Okay does he treat you right?" Lance adds

"Of course!" I tell them

"Then we won't have to kill him, just kick his ass a little bit " Ryan tells Lance

"You guys are impossible" I roll my eyes with a grin "You guys will like him, I promise! You'll get to meet him when you come home for Christmas!" I smile excitedly at the screen but I physically feel it fade as both of their faces drop.

"What?" I question with a heavy heart. I already knew what was coming

"That's what we called to talk to y'all about" Lance sighs

"We are probably not going to make it for Christmas, this assignment is just taking a hell of a lot longer than expected and some shit just happened today that's lengthened the whole assignment" Ryan adds

"Oh" Beck says quietly "Well that's okay guys,"

I knew it wasn't okay. Everyone did. We were all looking forward to seeing them.

"We're sorry guys" Lance says sadly. They both looked as if they wanted to cry.

"It's alright guys! Really!" I smile at them, trying to make them feel better

"We love y'all" Em says quietly "All we want is for you to be safe"

"Love you guys too" they both say "It's getting late guys, we should go"

"Yeah us too" Ace says

"Bye guys"

"Bye!"

I loved talking to my brother but I couldn't help but think if Everytime was going to end like this. All of us sitting in silence. Sadness heavy in the air. It wasn't just me this time.

"What the fuck." Beck sighs

"Yep" Co agrees from beside me

I just felt like shit now. I hated this, all of it,I just wanted to see my brothers, and I couldn't. I know he was doing something amazing, he's my hero along with so many others. But I miss him, every day I do.

"Are you okay?" Caleb mumbles next to me as he rests his head against mine

"Not really" I say resting my head against his chest

"Me too"

"You guys want Kanes?" Ace asks. He always knew how to cheer us up.

"Yeah let's go" Arrex says as he gets up, pulling Em up with him "Let's try and make the best of this situation"

"Agreed"