"I feel so relaxed," I said, unable to stop touching my arms and thighs, as we got dressed, because of how smooth and soft they were. I feel like a brand new baby. "Thank you both so much, it was much needed"

"Absolutely, it was our pleasure Ma-ri" Jimin grabbed my right hand leaving my left for Taehyung to hold as we strolled out of the salon "What are you thinking for lunch? I'm starved"

"I don't have a specific taste in mind, honestly I would be fine with anything"

"I could go for some barbecue," Taehyung suggested. Jimin and I agreed and walked to the car, Jimin opening the back door for me then closing it once I was inside.

Taehyung drove for less than fifteen minutes then pulled up in front of a small restaurant whose aromas had us salivating from the outside. The middle aged lady at the counter welcomed us and sat us in the most secluded area that could offer per my request. Seated, our server comes over quickly and takes our order and we get the grill hot. Our drinks come first then two platters of assorted cuts of meat and the accompanying side dishes to complete the meal. We didn't waste any time and began grilling beef and pork slices.

Not a lot of talking was happening. We were too hungry for conversation. Tae and Jimin sat with their backs facing outward so the patrons would not easily recognize them and I sat across from them observing those inside and outside the establishment. Making it halfway through the meal we all kind of slowed down and sat back in our seats with full semi full bellies.

"Good choice Tae, that was delicious" I said before taking a shot of soju. I flagged down our server for another bottle, mainly for Jimin and I since Tae didn't drink much and was driving.

"So what do you have planned for the rest of the day?" Jimin asked stuffing a piece of lettuce with side vegetables and meat

"Yoongi and I are going to hang out for a while. It's been a few weeks since he's been able to pull himself away from work so I told not to make any major plans for today because I wanted him to myself"

"Thank God. Some days I fear he will work himself into an early grave" Jimin stuffed the wrap into his mouth all at once which puffed out his cheeks and lips. He really does look like a little baby chick.

"He's gotten much better but that's how Suga-hyung is and he actually likes his work so it's not a complete burden for him. It's his passion." Tae says, defending our elder

"That's true. I remember the old days and get scared of him reverting back to old, bad habits"

"Yoongi is in a stable and healthier mental space these days. He also knows he can talk to us and his therapist should he ever need to, don't worry too much about him babe. He's fine" I add, seeing his progress through their concerts, documentaries and reality shows I've been catching up on.

"Are you watching our content?" Tae smiled my way chewing on pickled radishes

"Maybe" I replied with a shrug and a smile back. "I watched seasons one and two of Bon Voyage, the The Wings Tour, and some episodes of Run BTS"

"We look terrible in Hawaii, especially JK" Jimin laughed covering his face in retro embarrassment

"You were all so adorable. I love it" I cooed. We finished our meal and one of them paid and then we were on our way home. "I had such a good time with y'all today, thank you so much for my date it was relaxing and yummy"

"You are welcome, thank you for joining us. I had a great time too"

"Yeah we should try to incorporate a spa day like that in every few months" Jimin suggested earning approval from Tae and I "Cool, I will get us on the book for two months from now"

"My bed is calling me, I'm going to sleep for a little bit" Tae yawned, then stretched his arms. Jimin smacked his ass and I burst into laughter at his reaction.

The three of us separated, Taehyung went to take a nap and Namjoon had promised to help Jimin with songwriting. I stopped by my bedroom to change into some comfortable clothes and put my phone on the charger since I fell asleep before doing so last night. I found Yoongi in the small studio that was added to the home, he waved me inside with his gummy smile.

"Hey beautiful, how was the spa date?" he asked

"Fantastic, I am as smooth as a newborn baby and my muscles have never been more relaxed"

"Good, glad you enjoyed it. Did you eat yet?" he turned in his chair and patted his lap for me to sit

"Yes, they treated me to barbecue so I am stuffed" I pat my stomach "Ugh I need to stop being such a pig, I haven't done a single workout in two months"

"You look good to me but if you want to workout you can always come to our building and use the gym there"

"That's not a bad idea"

"I never have bad ideas" he boasted with a playful arrogance "I'm Min Suga, genius"

"Okay Mr. genius, tell me another good idea right now, don't even think about it" I raised my eyebrow

"It would be a good, no, a great idea for you to kiss me right now" he replied. I leaned in and down a little to touch his lips to mine, they were cool and moist. I put my right hand on his chest, feeling the thump of his heart and deepened our liplock.

Our mouths moved as if they were made to fit together like a puzzle, his tongue sliced through and wrestled mine. I melted into the kiss willingly, letting any thought that wasn't about Yoongi flee my mind. One of his veiny hands held my knee and the other was pressing on my lower back sending heatwaves up my spine. A natural stopping point occurred and we both pulled back, my eyes still closed as I savored the taste of him.

I feel his breath, quickened, on my lips still damp from his tongue and I imagined how good they'd feel on other parts of my body.

"Want to find out?" he asked and I fused my eyebrows together

"Do I want to find out what?"

"How good my lips will feel on the rest of your body" my eyes nearly fell out of their sockets and my body tensed up

"You can read my thoughts!"

"No" Yoongi laughed "At least not like they show it in movies but you just pictured a very vivid image in your mind love"

"Oh, right, duh" I face palmed and started bouncing because of his laughing at me "Stop, it's not that funny

"It is. You're so cute when you get shy or embarrassed which is something I didn't think you were even capable of" he expressed sobering up from his fit of laughter

"What makes you think that?" I asked, massaging the back of his neck as we talked. It amazed me how being with them has helped me grow and unlock a part of myself that I didn't think existed

"You seem so tough and resilient that I didn't think you would open up and accept us so quickly, not that I have a problem with it. I was just expecting you to put up more of a fight"

I understood what he was saying but I was tired of fighting by then "I didn't want to fight anymore. I was exhausted and lonely. Truthfully, I hated being by myself all the time but I was afraid to let people in. I assumed everyone would hurt me but leaving me so I tried to become a person no one wanted to approach while secretly wishing someone would see through my facade. I spent most of my life, until this point, thinking I was unwanted then learning that my soul-mom didn't want me confirmed all the feelings I ever had about myself being unwanted and unlovable"

"Do you still believe that?" He asked simply, my answer shaping his reply

"Not as much. I know my grandmother loves me, I know Minji and Minsu love me and I know you love me too but sometimes those negative thoughts rear their ugly heads and I began to doubt it and wonder how long before any of you leave me to feel alone and unwanted again"

He exhaled through his nose and ran his fingers gently up and down my spine "Ma-ri, I know it will take more time for those feelings to dissolve but if it helps at all I want you to know that I love you. I love you so much and I never want to be without you again, you are such a special person deserving of all the love your heart can take. I hate knowing that you have spent so much time alone, hurting and feeling unwanted. I feel like I should have tried harder to find you sooner, but these are the things that cannot be changed so I don't want you to spend your precious time dwelling on them. You are SO loved, you always have been even when you didn't see it. Your mom loved you and your dad loved you. Baby you are literally surrounded by it now and you will never again have to wonder or doubt if you are"

I couldn't help the tears that spilled from my eyes hearing him say those words to me. It is one thing to hear someone say they care about you or that they love you but to really feel it... To know in your mind and heart that you are actually, truthfully, genuinely and honestly loved is a feeling like no other. It is indescribable. The look in his eyes was absolute, I had no doubt in my mind that he meant every word. He used his thumbs to wipe away my tears as they fell and kissed my nose then my lips.

"Thank you Yoongi, I really needed to hear that. I'm not blind to your actions either but hearing you talk that way is the reassurance I needed to accept that coming back here was the best decision of my life even though I didn't know it at the time. I love you too, so much more than you probably realize and I'm so fortunate to have you" I planted lingering kiss on his lips "Thank you"

"I will always be here for you Ma-ri"

"I know," I whispered. He was sitting in his desk chair so he rolled over to the short sofa along the back wall

"Sit there" I did as he said and sat down in the middle of the sofa, watching him move around the room. He clicked around on his computer screen and the lights went from normal to deep purple.

I looked around, admiring the pretty color only for it to fade into a rich pink then after about thirty seconds it faded again into red. "What are you doing Mr. Min?" I asked, entranced by the light show

"Showing you one of the many ways I love you" he replied with a lick of his lips.

Goosebumps covered my skin. I watched his every move from that moment on eagerly until he was standing in front me. I looked up slowly and when my eyes finally met his face I saw his eyes were low, dark and predatory. I gulped knowing things were about to get intense and I was all the way in.

"Wha-what are you going to do to me?" My throat was suddenly dry and my voice was barely there. Yoongi dropped into a squat and tucked my newly pressed hair behind my ears

"Take you to the stars" he smiled and I swear I saw fangs under the red light encasing the room and him

Yoongie rested on his knees and reached for my legs, adjusting them to his liking. My knees were bent and my feet rested on the edge of the couch leaving my thighs apart.

"Perfect" he spoke then pulled my legs straight. He grabbed the hem of my sweater, pulling it up so I raised my arms for it to come off. I don't wear bras in the house so my naked chest was exposed for his viewing pleasure under the trifecta of colored lights.

Tossing my sweater to the end of the sofa, he travelled his hands down from the tips on my fingers to my arms and chest. His hands were cool despite him being indoors all day and dressing in layers. He cupped my breasts, shaking them a little for his own amusement while I just kept my eyes on him. Watching his dark orbs take me in was quite fascinating, seeing the way his pupils would dilate and shake and shine, he loved what he saw whether I was purple, pink or red.

Moving from my breasts, his hands contoured my curves until he arrived at my waist. Without hesitation he pulled the waistband of my leggings down, I lifted my hips to make the disposal of my clothing easy for him. Yoongi pushed my legs back up so that my knees were once again bent and my thighs apart so my shining jewel, was on display for him. His tongue swiped over his bottom lip slowly, he knew I was watching and what it was doing to me.

He leaned in to give me a lusty kiss, his mouth eager but he took his time reaching my core. Leaving a trail of open mouth kisses down my warm skin; covering every inch of my neck, nibbling on my erect nipples, licking down my stomach and kissing my pelvis. His breath was ragged and hot and so close to where I needed him most.

"Baby" I breathed, looking down to see him perfectly aligned with my womanhood. His eyes met with mine again but this time he stared into my soul, my mind was his, my thoughts were his, I could think of nothing that wasn't Min Yoongi, once again he's infiltrated my brain but I didn't care at all. He was my focus as I was his.

Yoongi's tongue was slow, warm and soft as he dragged it over my plumped up folds of flesh. Using said tongue to create suction over my southern lips then sucked on them together, licking and sucking repeatedly without separating them yet. It drove me crazy. He pulled his mouth away from me and before I could protest a delicious sting shut me up. He smacked my pussy making me curl my toes over the seat edge. A devilish chuckle fell from his lips as he looked down, surely noticing the throbbing I felt. Again, his luscious muscle tasted me and finally divided my valley, he lapped at my nectar dripping from my entrance, slurping along the way as moan after moan after moan fell from my lips. I rolled my hips into his face, hoping to coat as much of it as possible and make him glisten. He tapped my clit with his tongue, teasingly flicking it as I whimpered.

"Fuck," I cried out entagling my fingers in his brunette folicles ""

"Mmmm" he moaned, hooking his arms under my thighs and straightening his back, pulling my bottom half off the cushion so that I was only being held up by him. Driving his face in my pussy he licked and sucked until my legs were shaking but even that didn't slow him down. I believe Yoongi pulled that orgasm from the depths of my being, he quite literally sucked my soul out. My hips bucked against his face as he continued to eat me like I was the last meal he will ever taste, I screamed out his name while trying to pull away from him unsuccessfully.

"Yoon- shit, baby I came. I came!" He carefully pushed me back onto the sofa causing my upper half to slide up to make room. He unhooked his arm and gently let my thighs down while leaving kisses on my swollen pussy.

When he lifted his face the pink lighting gave a sparkling glow to his lips and chin that were covered in my honey, my chest heaved and my thighs still quivered as I descended back into my fleshly body. I fluttered my eyes open to see spots of light and twinklings that looked like stars. Yoongi dipped his head again, this time I felt soft kisses along my inner thighs.

"Are you back yet?" he questioned and all I could do was nod. I felt the cushion next to me sink so I looked over to see him shirtless and without pants holding my panties, he slipped them back on my body then pulled me on top of him. His lean arms wrapped around my torso and rubbed my back soothingly while my legs hung off either side of him

"Hmm that feels nice" I moaned into his neck "I love what you just did, a lot"

"I loved doing it, you're sweet and so responsive" he shimmied to lay flat on his back while keeping me in place.

"How did you learn?"

"Videos and sex books" I smiled against his neck then started sucking on his "Unnnhhh" he moaned.

Jackpot! I sucked a little harder and he moaned again, graver. Yoongi's hands slid down to grip my butt, rubbing it. We laid in the studio like that for an hour before getting up and cleaning ourselves, afterwards we sat in the living room cuddling with Jungkook who came in shortly after we did.

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I spoil you all but I don't mind because I love this book SO much! 💜💜

Enjoy... who knows when things when things will take a turn 😈