Where am I?

I suddenly felt my consciousness again. Shookt! Am I finally getting reborn, again?! Geez, how many years have passed this time? I hope Neji's still alive or got reborn.

Wait. Where am I?

*Beep* *Beep*

What was that sound? Am I in the hospital? Did the gang managed to save me? Am I in the Village?

I was bombarded by a thousand of questions. I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't. I tried widening my senses but it's weird. It feels like I can no longer use my chakra anymore. No, I can't feel my chakra anymore. The weird thing inside my body was gone. Who took it?

I can't even widen my physical senses anymore. What happened? It's as if I've become normal. No, I'm abnormal. But...

"Doc! Doc! She's waking up!!!" A sudden voice roared wherever I am. I really can't feel them even their movements.

And there I tried to open my eyes again and I did. I closed it again when I my eyes greeted the light from the ceiling. It feels like I slept like a thousands of years or whatever.

As soon as I opened my eyes again, the ceiling looked... so different from usual hospital ceiling.

It has become modern.

I gasp and was about to sat up but a sudden warm hands wrapped around my shoulder to stop me from doing what I've wanted.

My eyes went wide as I recognized this 'someone' in front of me. 'M-mom'? H-how can she be with me? How come I've come back? How. What's happening? No... no. I don't know what to feel anymore.

I've come back to my real world and left the Naruto world.

I'm back being Alexa and not Kashina.

"M-mom." I uttered and then she wrapped me in her tight and longing arms. We both cried. While she cried in relief, I cried in grief.

I left Neji alone.

"How are you feeling, love? Is there anything you need? Are you hungry? Do you want mommy to call the doctor back?" She asked frantically and I chuckled. I missed mom.

I didn't say anything but hugged her again. I guess, even if my mom in Naruto world died, I still have my mom in the real world. That's reassuring.

"I love you, mom." I said to her and she gladly wrapped her arms back to hug me.

"Silly, kid. Mom always love you too. You scared me. I thought I'd lose you too baby. Mom really freaked out." She sobs and it pains me hearing her sobs. "I... can't lose you, my baby. You know how mommy loves you."

"I know... I'm sorry. I love you too mom." Always.

::

Days have passed, I'm still recovering. It's been 3 years after the incident that happens to changed my life in an instant. Yup, I'm in coma for 3 years. I still don't know what should I feel.

Relief? or Grief?

"Alex, I'm going to buy some of your clothes, do you want anything?" Mom asked after placing the basket of fruits above the center table.

"Hmmm, full volume of Naruto Shippuden mom." I giggled when I saw her twitched on me before sighing in agreement. "I love you mom!" I shouted before she could close the door.

There's nothing I could do anymore.

But I'm full of regrets right now. I can't even fulfill my last promise to Neji before I died. I wonder how is he? Did he successfully change the Hyuuga Clan? Is he married now- ouch.

Even so, I can't afford to find out his status now. If he's married or what. It pains me.

I know that Naruto and the gang would be successful, what troubles me the most is Neji. He was supposed to die, right? But mom and I changed his destiny. So I'm wondering how's he? Did he mourn over me? Did he finally moved on? I hope he did. I don't to see him mourning over my dead ass.

I want him to be happy. That's all.

Even if I couldn't get reborn back to his world anymore, I will always remember him. My love for him wouldn't be lessen no matter what may happen. I would gladly choose to stay single forever because I know... I couldn't replace him nor forget him.

It's something that fixated my ideals. It's as if it's programmed inside my head and my heart that the only person I could love was him.

But it's unfortunate that we lived in two different worlds.

I'm from the real world while he lived in Naruto world.

::

Mom came back, holding a paper bag that contains Naruto Shippuden Manga. And then mom notified me that she'll be going down to talk with the nurses about my current condition so I took this chance to read Shippuden.

It feels nostalgic, actually. Everything that happened here, I've experienced it. It's just I wasn't on the manga.

I feel sad a little but then managed to pulled myself back.

"There's nothing I can do anymore." Wasting my tears wouldn't do anything. It'll just tire me and it's bad for my current condition.

Naruto war arc is definitely my favorite arc, always. Nothing has change in the plot even though I just got recently went in Naruto world. I continued re-reading the manga until I satisfy myself. I would laugh with Naruto's dumb antics and God knows how much I missed the team especially my brother-hen, Kakashi. How's he by the way? I know that he'd become the 6th Hokage.

Pfft. Imagine how embarrassed Kakashi was after calling him 'Lord 6th.' He was like Minato 2.0 HAHAHAHA.

I stopped on my track when I reached the part where Neji was supposed to die. I couldn't help but to cry. He really died in the series and no matter what I do, that wouldn't change. I just cried. I released everything for the first time after waking up. But at least, I felt how lovely his love was. How we've become one and how we badly loved each other.

I'm glad to that I've become his girlfriend.

"I'm sorry..." I uttered. I'm so terrible at keeping promises. Of all people, Neji's was still chosen by the destiny. "He truly lived up to his nickname 'destiny boy'."

After I cried that day, I slept. I didn't bother to continue reading that arc anymore. It brings pain and grief on me so I let it slide. I have to move forward but I wouldn't forget.

Months have passed and I got discharged. Mom and I went to my favorite restaurant to grab a bite. I have placed the book that I postponed to read on my bag so I could continue to read it whenever I feel to.

I shrugged and let mom decide what's the best for me. And of course, she knew what's my favorite meal and ordered.

"You know that I love you so much mom, right?" I asked while grinning on her and she rolled her eyes on me.

"Kid, I've been with you ever since you got out of me. And I love you too, my child." She retorted back before handing me the chopstick so we could start eating our meals.

I finished eating earlier than mom so I decided to brought out my book and continued reading.

I was surprised when Neji's supposed to be dialogue about Hinata and Naruto was replaced by

I gently stood up my chair and told mom that I'm going to the restroom for a bit.

I stiffened as soon as I reached the cubicle.

What is happening? How? Did Neji knew that I wasn't from his world? What's with the sudden change of dialogue?

I also checked my social media and it was bombarded by questions of why's and what. They knew that Neji doesn't have a lover, if he had, it should be Tenten but what he said...

Is he here? No, I don't want to place my hopes up. I can't afford shit to be shattered. No! Neji's from the other world! How... did he know? Gooddamn destiny! Please stop playing with me!!!

I continued reading until he finally died in the book. I started to check every pages he appeared but his dialogues was the same as the series. the only thing that changed was his last words before he died. What in the world...

I was about to walk outside the bathroom but suddenly bumped into someone and I immediately apologized. It was my fault for being so preoccupied.

Neji's here. If he died in the series and knew that I'm from the other world, he'll be here or was he already here, searching for me? No. Wait. shit, the man.

"I'm sorry." I apologized and looked up but stopped when I met his white-lavender iris. Long hair. Handsome. Daddy-no! My eyes widened in realization.

Tears have flowed in my eyes as my heart started to skip a beat.

I don't know what to do. It's him

"Silly..." He mumbles. "I have finally found you, Kashina."

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