Itachi finally decided to talk with me. I immediately teleported even though it's late at night. I left the village exactly 11:59 PM and appeared beside Itachi.

We're inside the forest. I widen my senses than the usual to check if he's alone. My senses were sharp so even if Kisame decided to suppress his chakra, my markings on Samehada will notify me. I looked at Itachi's glowing Sharingan, I sighed. I already told him not to overuse his Sharingan. He just won't listen, isn't he?

"I already warned you but you didn't listen. You'll get blind if you overuse that!" I scolded him. He seems surprised of my sudden outburst so he gently closed his eyes to deactivate his Sharingan. He knew and he realized that I won't be starting our conversation if he continued using his Sharingan on me. His onyx eyes met mine and it was addicting. Luckily, I manage to pull myself together. I cleared my throat.

"You're not backing up, aren't you? No matter what I say you'll let Sasuke to kill you..." I said helplessly. He just stayed there directly looking at me without wearing any of his emotion but his eyes were lively unlike last time. "You're the only family that Sasuke has left... please, don't throw your life away."

Damn, this is what I hated the most. The feeling of pain lingering around my heart. The feeling of broken heart because I cannot do anything. Damn.

"Why are you doing this?" He asked in cold voice. With that question, a single tear escape my eyes. "I told you that I care..." I whispered. I clenched my fist to ease the pain that I'm feeling. "It wasn't enough reason for you to meddl-" I cute him off. That's it, I'm tired.

I immediately slap his face but he didn't budge. "Because I care for you so damn much and it pains me seeing you throwing your life like that!" I finally said the word I shouldn't have. I ride my emotions which is bad. "I... I also promise Shisui... I promise Shisui to look after you and Sasuke... so, please... it's not too late..." I'm barely hanging. My sobs became clear so I had to cover my mouth for me not to make noise. I looked down, I don't want to see his reaction.

Ever since the day that Shisui and him dropped me off the academy. I'm always looking for him from afar. I watched how he interact with others. I watched how he and Shisui train together without getting caught. I watched how... how he have fallen in love with Izumi. And I watched how he witnessed Shisui's death and then on how he awaken his Sharingan. I'm watching him from the moment our paths have crossed.

I'm not expecting him to care me back. I'm expecting him to wake up because Sasuke needs him more than me. Sasuke needed him. He's the only family he has and yet, they're preparing to kill each other. They're both headache.

"Your feelings is your weakness. Pathetic."

I see, Uchiha thing. But sorry Itachi, I'm used to Sasuke's bickering so it won't work. I wiped my tears before wearing a smile. "Yeah, you're right. It's my weakness but it's also my strength." I told him before rolling my eyes on him. He didn't react, he's still starring at me - I don't even know what he's thinking. I don't care anymore.

"Ah, Sasuke will leave the village for power." I told him. See, Sasuke can caught his attention. Huhu, how to be you Sasuke Uchiha? T^T. "Because you add another fuel in his burning hatred. He'll leave to search for power - enough to defeat you. Remember this, Itachi... I won't let you die. I don't care if you wish to die in Sasuke's hands but I will never let you die, got that?!" I yelled at him. My voice roared inside the forest which causes the birds to fly away.

"I can't return your feelings." Ouch.

"I don't care. I'm aware of your goals and I have no intention of forcing you to love me back. Just don't throw your life away, Sasuke needs you more than anyone else." And more than me. And the silence roared between us. It's not an awkward but not comforting. We're both thinking but we still stayed in our stoic expression. I have no plan of removing my mark on him so I'll leave it there.

"I'm going now, take car-" But I was cut off when a pair of strong arms suddenly wrapped around my waist. A sweet scent travelled inside my nose - It's Itachi's scent. I almost cry.

I leaned my forehead on his chest. He's towering me. I tried my best to not to cry but I failed. I silently cried. He just tighten his grip when he heard my sobs. I felt him rested his chin on my head so I let him be.

He didn't say anything, he just hug me. I think it's his thank you for caring him. It's also a sorry for not being able to return back but It's okay. He's not obligated to or to accept my feelings. What I want is for him to stop throwing his life anymore.

I may or may not lied about not giving a care whether he can or not, it's still affected me. Slightly.

I pulled myself away after satisfying myself. He sure do smells really good. I already memorized his scent which addicted me so much. This is bad.

"I'll be going now." The moment I saw him nodded, I teleported away. I was in the town, my feet's drag me in here and I stopped when I saw Tsunade's favorite resto bar and I immediately found her drinking alcohol in the corner. Does Shizune knew about this? It's already 12:30 AM.

I ordered a bottle of Sake before sitting down in front of her. "I beg your pardon, Tsunade-sama. Fancy meeting you here." I told her. She just laughed because of my politeness so she told me to drop it off because it's okay. "Then, why are you here? It's already late, huh? Ah! You're minor!" Says who!

The waiter put my alcohol in front of me together with the shot glass. "Hihi you brat! Let's have a toast!" She exclaimed. I think she went here to study about Lee's conditions because I found some books about cells and muscles and so on. I don't care. I'm broken hearted.

I pour my alcohol on my glass before meeting Tsunade's shot glass and then we drank it straight. Yah, Tsunade's already tipsy and I think she's been here for a while now. When will Shizune will notice that Tsunade's out of her room! Come on.

"So, why're you drinking kid? I'm surprised that you have a high tolerance!" Well, on my past life as Alexa, I started drinking when I was 12 and since then I've been drinking hard drinks from clubs or parties. When I transported here, I made my body strong, enough to rival my body when I'm still Alexa!

No Alcohol should left behind!!!

"Well, Tsunade-sama. I made my heartbroken!" And then I chug on my Sake bottle before ordering another 1 liter of Sake. "HAHAHA, Kid! Congrats, you just received a pain!" Yup, she's enjoying the sight, Let her be. And then after the waiter arrive with another bottle of Sake, I drank it straight. I'm not tipsy but I'm pissed.

I snapped back when Tsunade suddenly clap her hands. "Damn kid, I like you. From now on we're sake-buddies, got that?!!" She exclaimed. I wore my shit eating grin before nodding. This is hella troublesome! I'll definitely stay on Kakashi's room at the hospital after drinking. Mom and Dad will kill me. "Ne, Kashina... who's the lucky guy?" She told me after drinking straight to her bottle. She ordered again. I'm surprised that she manage to drink 5 liters of Sake but still not contented.

"He's someone that I shouldn't name." And then I laughed when I saw her gained an anime vein on her forehead. "You're no fun!" She retorted before grabbing her new bottle. "How about you, Tsunade-sama? Are you in a relationship?" And that made her quiet. She probably remember Dan - her ex-boyfriend. Dan died I think when second shinobi war. The death of Dan closed her heart to her limits.

Even though she's aware of Jiraiya's feelings for her... she just won't love him. Maybe because they're not meant for each other? Get your self a man like Jiraiya, he's so loyal! But a damn pervert!!

"Ah! Let's not talk about my love life!!" She hissed so I just grinned before drinking on my bottle. I don't mind using shot glass anymore. It's unnecessary. "Let's talk about our sex life, Kashina." I almost puke my alcohol because of that!

What the hell!!! I'm still a virgin! Even when I'm still Alexa!! I died not tasting the pleasure of that intimacy but I hope, here! HAHAHAHA!

"Damn, Tsunade-sama... I'm still a minor!" I reasoned out but she flashed her shit eating grin on me so I gulped. "You? A minor? you can even drink 3 liters of sake in front of me and you're telling me that you're a minor?!" What the! Sake and Sex is different!

"Maa, Tsunade-sama... that's a different story, you know? Well. In all honesty, my mind's still not thinking about that, about sex. Besides, I can't! Mom, dad and Kakashi-niisan will definitely kill me!" Damn, I imagine mom's frying pan flying towards me, dad's raging eyes and Kakashi's dark eyes. Whooo, I felt shivers.

"Hmp! You're no fun! But I'm telling you... get a laid girl!!" And then she laughed so hard until she finally passed out! I just shook my head on her. She's finally drunk. Few moments have passed, Shizune finally found us.

"Pardon her, Kashina-chan." But she stopped when she noticed that I'm also drinking. "Ah, no, no, It's fine Shizune-san. Tsunade-sama's already drop. I'll leave her to you." And then she nodded before carrying Tsunade's unconscious body. She's so troublesome when she's drunk, huh?

I drank straight on my bottle to finish it up. Tsunade paid for me so I didn't bother to put out my wallet. Since I'm not that drunk but tipsy, I decided to walk towards the hospital instead of teleporting. The cold breeze touched my body and it made me shivers. I wasn't wearing any jacket or haori's. Just black T-shirt with Nara crest on the back and black fitted high-waisted short.

I roamed my eyes around. Even if it's night, wait, what time is it? Oh SHOOKT! My watch says 3:00 AM!! Hahaha, Damn. That's okay, I remember I have no plans for tomorrow. Upon arriving at the hospital. I teleported on Kakashi's mark. I was surprised when I saw him sitting on his bed while reading his perverted book.

"Oh, you're awake now, huh?" I told him. I made my way to the bathroom to pee and to wash my face first before placing myself to the vacant bed beside Kakashi. I noticed him looking at me and not to his book so I asked what's wrong.

"Are you drunk?" He asked.

"Nope, just tipsy. Why? I'm with Tsunade-sama." I told him before resting my head on the pillow. I'm not feeling drowsy so I just looked on the ceiling, trying to remove the pain inside my heart. It's true when they said that alcohol won't help you to recover. It's just a pain in the ass.

"What's wrong?" Kakashi asked with a hint of concern. But I didn't answered on the spot. I don't want him to know that my heart just got broken and It was Itachi who did that. Yeah, he's right, I'm really pathetic.

"I've been hoping that everything will be okay... but what always happened was the opposite..." And then I release my laugh before shaking my head off. Sooner or later, Sasuke will leave the village. I know that I can't stop him from leaving... it's just I want to talk with him to tell him that I'm here no matter what will happen or what he'll do in the future. That I care for him as my brother. I want him to say goodbye to me because the next time we'll meet, we're enemies.

That's all. That's what running inside my head. And God knows when everything will be okay but still... I hope... I hope to damn to my extent that everything will be truly okay.