"Nothing is going on between us." I say as I walk past Leah and sit down where I once was.

"Like hell there's not. I heard most of that conversation Y/n and that definitely wasn't nothing. What is going on?" Leah asks, her words serious and her face even more so.

I looked up at Leah and sighed. I knew she'd find out eventually but now there's not anything to hide from her since we're nothing now.

"I like him, okay. I know you don't want me to and I feel bad, but I can't help who I like. Besides, you don't have anything to worry about now, I want nothing to do with him ever again." I say, feeling myself on the verge of tears yet again.

Leah stared at me for a moment before her jaw fell to the ground. "Were you two dating?" She asks. I say nothing as I nod.

Suddenly, Leah's face turns to anger but to my surprise, It wasn't towards me. My eyes widened as Leah stormed out of the bedroom, bursting straight into Namjoon's room.

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" Leah yelled, her voice echoing throughout the whole house.

The next thing I knew she was yelling at Namjoon, asking him how he could do something like that to me. Not letting him get a single word in, Leah chewed his ass out.

All I could do was sit there and listen to everything she was saying to him.

It ranged from how the hell had this even happened all the way to he was a piece of shit and didn't deserve to be with someone like me.

By the time Leah came back to the room I had started to feel a little bad for Namjoon. She really didn't go easy on him at all.

I mean it's good that she hadn't because he needs to know how messed up what he did is. As much as I feel bad, I don't at the same time.

"Now it's your turn. Why didn't you tell me?" Leah says as she sits down across from me, giving me her full undivided attention.

"I didn't want to make you upset. You always said you never wanted me to like your brother and so I just acted like I didn't. I hope you're not upset with me." I sigh, not needing to lose my best friend too.

Leah sighed as she leaned her head back. "I'm not upset, y/n. I am that you didn't tell me sooner but I'm not angry. I just wish he wasn't such a douche bag and ruined it."

I let out a breath as I mentally agreed. Things were going so well and were still so new and then this happens. I could never win.

"So what now? You two aren't gonna try to talk it out?" Leah asks as she glances over at me.

"I just don't know if I can forgive him for what happened..." I say, still extremely hurt about how everything had gone down.

"You have every right to be upset but I don't think his intentions were to hurt you. He's just so set on being some douchebag for his friends that he loses who he really is in the process." Leah says and my eyebrows raise.

That was probably one of the only times I've heard her speak remotely good about Namjoon.

"I just can't get over it, not right now anyway. It's still so fresh and it just hurts. I just wish none of this would have happened." I sigh, choking back the tears.

Leah frowned as she came over and hugged me. I melted into her arms as I tried to hold back on crying. I had cried enough tonight.

When Leah pulled away she gave me a soft smile. "I love you y/n, you know that. I just want what's best for you and as crazy as it sounds, I think Namjoon is just that. Yeah what he did was incredibly stupid and I will never forgive him for that but all my life he's always been there for me and for you as well. I always had a feeling he cared about you a little too much but I just didn't want to believe it. I know he makes some stupid mistakes sometimes but we all do." Leah says then continues with,

"It's obviously all up to you but I think you guys should at least sit down and have an actual conversation. Just try to hear him out, or don't, it's completely up to you. Just know I support whatever decision you make."

Leah's words were a bit shocking to me. I had never imagined she'd speak so highly of Namjoon. I understand the sibling rivalry hatred thing but at the end of the day, they're still siblings and love each other.

Deep down I knew she was right. I should at least just talk with him and let him tell me his side of things.

Although I didn't want to hear it, it wasn't fair to not let him speak at all.

I knew I needed to hear him out and as much as my mind kept telling me not to, my heart was screaming at me to just listen.

Sighing, I make up my mind. "Thank you, that means a lot." I say and in return Leah gives me a warm smile before the two of us head to sleep.

I knew this talk with Namjoon wasn't going to be easy but at least I had tonight to sleep on it and calm down.

That way I could go into it with a somewhat clear head. That seemed like the best possible idea right night.

That night, I fell asleep with the horrible memories of today.