I'm on my way home from the cafe I went with miku. The talk we had just felt different.....

It's been two years since I started to distant myself from people's, since then nobody really cares about me anymore other than my family. Fuutaro. fuutaro is a bit dense I must say. I met him when we just started highschool. I accidentally bump into him and turns out we were classmates. We didn't talk much nor did we interact with each other. We just be know each other by accident. Well in our second year he got transferred to a higher class because of his grades, meanwhile I stayed in the same class.

Well that's all about me and fuutaro. Nothing special about it. But you might be wondering about what happened after miku said that she's going to help me right? Well let's do some flashback shall we?

Flashback back at the cafe

Miku: "I see, then would you mind kenji kun?"

Kenji: "hmm?" I ask with curiosity.

Miku: "would you mind if I be the one that help you to socialize again?"

At that time I was left speechless. There was nothing I could say or do. All I could do is accept her offer.

Kenji: "sure" I said that with a small smile on my face.

Miku: " kenji kun, would you mind exchanging numbers and email?" She ask.

Kenji: " why?" I ask with curiosity because I never really play my phone that much. Other than looking at my gallery my contacts is around 10+ people.

Miku: "so that we can keep in touch. We could even go shopping together"

Kenji: " sure, here's my number and email" I said while showing my phone number to her.

Miku: "here's mine" she said while showing me her phone number.

Kenji: "we should get going, it's getting late" I said as take a look at my phone.

Miku: "you're right. See you tomorrow Kenji kun. Oh and here's the money for my drink" she said while giving me 500 yen. A normal person would say no and pay instead but I'm different. From what I heard from fuutaro, nakano family is rich.

Kenji: "thanks, I will pay it later" I said while taking the money.

She said her last farewell while waving at me. After a couple minute she left. I got up and go to the counter to pay our drinks. After I'm done paying I left the cafe and now I'm on my way home.

Flashback end

Nothing really special happen but hey at least I know someone wants to be my friend.

I'm currently in my room doing my homework. After a couple minutes of doing homework, I got a message from miku.

Message:

Miku: Have you done you're homework yet kenji kun?

Kenji: yes. I have just finished it.

Miku: can I copy it.

Kenji: sure... Let me send it to you

Miku: thank you kenji kun. Oh by the way do you want to come to the fireworks festival with me and sisters tonight?

She invite me huh? I never miss the fireworks festival because it has a special meaning for me. I never really go there to enjoy it, I go there just to watch the fireworks and ignite the memories of the dead. Why did the fireworks festival has so much meaning to me? Well you guys will know soon. As for miku invitation I have to decline it. Because I want some alone time.

Kenji: sorry I have other things planned tonight.

Miku: oh that's fine. Bye see you.

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Our conversation end just like that. I looked at the clock. It's currently 6:30 pm. Well, better get ready for the festival.

I'm currently wearing a yukata blue yukata with white stripes. As for my hair I style it a bit, I style my hair just like how she likes it. I leave my room and start heading downstairs.

I see my sister watching the news while drinking tea. She greet me apparently.

Kaguya: "are you going to the fireworks festival again, nii-san"? She asked while watching the news.

Kenji: "I am, well I'll be going now" I said as I excuse myself.

Kaguya: "YOU ALWAYS GO TO THAT DAMN FESTIVAL! AND YOUR EXCUSE IS STILL THE SAME!" she said while closing the television.

Kaguya: "WHY CAN'T YOU MOVE ON ALREADY! ITS BEEN THREE YEARS SINCE IZUMI NII-SAN DIED, TWO YEARS SINCE MAYA NEE- SAN AND ONE YEAR SINCE OBAA CHAN DIED!" she said while raising with a little hint of sadness in her voice.

Kenji: "you said yourself kaguya."

Kaguya: "huh?"

Kenji: "I tried to move on every year, but there's always another disaster when I tried to move on. So I decided not too. I distance myself from everyone including you. You must miss the old times right, kaguya? I'm sorry if I make you sad or mad but this is what I choose. Excuse me, I will be going now" I said as I leave the house.

Sorry kaguya, but this is how I want things to be.

I don't understand my brother sometimes. When we were young, he's so much different. He would be laughing, smiling and play with me. But after Izumi nii-san death. He start to become gloomy. But at that time, his girlfriend would cheer him up. They're the sweetest couple I ever seen. Maya nee-san always invited me to go with them even if it's a date.

We would go shopping together and all of that. But that didn't last long. She died because of ---------. I knew it because she told me herself. But she didn't let me told nii-san. Nii-san knows her disease after she died.

Maya nee-san died in spring season.

So it's not too far from summer vacation. In summer vacation we would visit our grandparents. But our grandpa has died when we were young so we only visit our grandma. Nii-san is very close to obaa-chan. Obaa-chan even called him by his nickname which is "ken-kun". But she never treat us differently. She called me "kaguya-chan" and I'm happy enough with that. During our summer vacation there obaa-chan would cheer nii-san up, she would make his favorite food, snacks and drinks. Nii-san give in, and started to move on a bit by bit. But that doesn't last long.

On our last week of summer vacation.

Obaa-chan got a sudden heart attack. She suddenly collapse while watering the plants. Okaa san quickly called the ambulance for her. She survived for only an hour. Her last word was "I love both of you equally, Ken-kun, Kaguya-chan I hope you both will be a wonderful people. Ai, please take care of your children just like how I take care of you. When they're sad cheer them up, when they're hungry feed them. Kei, please take care of my daughter and grandchildrens, I know you're a good husband and dad. Ken-kun, make sure to take care of your parents and sister, treat them well and don't forget to pray for me. Kaguya-chan make sure to study well and get into good school. If I get to choose how I will die, this is how I want it to be."

And that time all of us were tearing up, no one could hold they're tears. The most affected one is probably nii-san. I don't know about okaa-san, maybe she doesn't want to let her children see her crying so hard that's why she cry while leaning onto our father. As for me, I was crying just as hard nii-san but not as much. Nii-san cried on the floor and blame himself the most.

After obaa-chan death. School came. Nii-san didn't go to school for at least one month. But he eventually has to go to school. He said he doesn't want to be a failure in life and he want to help our family. As for me, I only take a three days break for school.

I always hope that there will be someone, I don't care who. Someone who will make nii-san happy again. Someone that can make nii-san smile. If nii-san already found that someone, I hope he will get back to his old self. I miss my old moment with you nii-san. I miss the old you, I want you to be happy again. You're birthday is near, let's all celebrate while we all can be happy.

To anyone, I hope you can rescue my brother from himself and the feeling of guilt. Because I want him to be happy again.

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Anddd that's it for this chapter. A new chapter will come next week. And if I'm being nice I will give you guys the new chapter tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.

And with that being said I'm off to take a short break!

ShinTooru out!