2 years ago

"That was fun."

"Yeah," I hum, pulling the covers over my naked body. Now that it's over i'm back to being shy about showing myself, especially around Jace.

"Still hurt?"

"No," I lie.

"Good." He gets out of my bed and starts getting dressed and I blush when he catches me watching. But he's so perfect. I can't even believe we just had sex. I've been crushing on my brothers best friend since I met him when I was twelve, and how unexpected that three years later I would find out that he feels the same.

"Where are you going?"

"I gotta get home."

"But-" I frown. In the movies, after they have sex they usually lay with each other for a while. I thought that's what people do, not just walk out as if he didn't just take my virginity. I guess not.

"What?"

"Nothing." I sit up, making sure my body is hidden.

"If Alex sees me here-"

"I get it," I nod, smiling. As soon as he's gone my smile drops from my features.

Why am I so down? I just did it with Jace Daniels. Every girl in school would be jealous of me right now if they knew, and everyone in my grade would drop dead.

"Hey, Dad," I sigh, sitting at the dining room table next to him as he does work on his laptop, whatever work it is he does exactly.

"What's up, Yasy? Seems like something's been bothering you these past few days."

Just that Jace has barely answered my calls or texts and when he does he just says he's busy. "Nada. I'm great."

Dad raises an eyebrow. "Want anything to eat? I'm going out and could bring you something back."

"No thanks." When he closes his laptop and stands up, I make an in the moment decision. "Actually, can you drop me off at Jace's place?"

"Jace? What for?"

"He's helping me do my science project that he did last year."

"Okay, but don't stay too long. Boys don't deserve the pleasure of your company." He touches my shoulder and I smile up at him, not bothering to tell him how wrong that is.

Jace lives with his Mom most of the time, so I know that's where he'll be. I also know the way around his house as I've been there a couple of times. Knocking on the door, there is no answer which tells me his Mom must be out and he must be upstairs and can't hear me.

"Jace?" I call after going inside. I call his name again but there's still no reply, so I walk up to his room. He's probably sleeping.

His bedroom door has the typical teen boys banners on it, saying keep out and other crap like that. Who is he trying to keep out? I doubt his Mom would want in and the only other person who lives here is his six year old sister. He might as well be direct about it and write 'keep out Alice'.

"Jace," I mumble before twisting the door handle and pushing it open. What I see is not what I expected however, and instead in front of me I find Jace hovering over a naked girl, who I can tell in seconds is drop dead gorgeous. She's breathing heavily, and I figure the noise is why he couldn't hear me shouting him. Jace freezes in his position and looks to his left, seeing me at the door and I swear that from his face he can see my heart breaking there on the floor.

"Yasmin-"

Not until I've closed the door again and got outside the house is when I allow myself to breath. Oh god. Oh god it hurts. We had sex two days ago... and he's already with someone new. But he told me he loved me. He told me he's always loved me.

I scramble into my pocket and try to call my Dad, but it goes to voicemail which makes tears stream down my face. I need out of here. Who else can I call who's not busy right now? Alex.

"What do you want?"

"Can you-" I sniffle and have to catch my breath. "Can you come get me? I'm at-" I sob against my phone, unable to stop it.

"Where are you?" I can already hear the anger in his voice.

"Jace," I cry and Alex hangs up.

What if that means he's not coming and that me crying over Jace is just pathetic and he's not even gonna waste his time dealing with it? It's true. It's pathetic. His little sister has done something so stupid and naive with his friend who is a player. I knew he was a player but I thought it would be different with me. How could I be so stupid?

Within five minutes i'm about to start walking, having myself believed that Alex isn't gonna come, but then his car pulls up. He must have broken like fifteen laws to get here in that time.

Alex gets out, leaving his door open and taking one look at me then setting his sights on Jace's house.

"Please don't, Alex, please," I stand in front of him, using myself to hold him back.

"What did he do?" He yells.

"Nothing! It was me being stupid!"

"Yasmin, tell me right now or I'll ask him."

"No, don't," I panic, sobbing more. "He's with someone else... and- and we..." I can't say anything else, I just drop my face onto his shoulder, crying and hoping he won't lash out at me.

"You had sex? With him?"

I grip tight onto his shirt, those words physically hurting me and I nod. There is noise behind me and I panic even more from the thought of it being Jace or even worse, the girl.

"I'm gonna fucking kill you!" Alex yells, pushing me off of him and walking forward. I look up, seeing Jace in only joggers which makes my chest burn.

"Just let me explain!" Jace puts his hands up to protect himself and I grab Alex to hold him back.

"Explain what? I warned you not to touch her!"

"Alex, please! Please can we go home!" I pull him as hard as I can, avoiding looking at Jace.

"Yas, I'm sorry," Jace says, his voice begging as if he's only saying it so Alex won't beat the crap out of him.

"Don't talk to her," he snaps, not budging no matter how much I pull him.

"Come on!"

"Wait in the car."

"No." Standing in front of Alex, I make him look at me. "I want to go home." His face softens slightly, but the glare returns when he looks back at Jace. He finally starts walking to the car, having a tight hold on my wrist and we get in. Alex drives fast, his lips pressed tight together as if stopping himself from screaming.

"I'm sorry," I tell him and my voice breaks.

"You should be."

"I didn't think it would be like this-"

"You know what he's like, Yasmin!" He shouts and I flinch.

We don't talk anymore until we're home, and I hurry out of the car, standing still once i'm stood inside. "I want Dad," I speak my thoughts aloud as Alex drops his keys on the table.

"Don't be expectin' to see him anytime soon."

From that thought I break again, letting more tears fall. I hold onto a chair to support my quivering legs and Alex watches me, his face turning sad.

"Come on," he takes my arm and starts pulling me. "Sit down." I oblige, sitting on the couch with him and he puts his arms around me which makes me cry hard into his t-shirt.

"I'm really sorry," I say, not sure whether or not he can make it out through my cries.

"Stop saying that; you have nothing to be sorry for." His voice is much softer now.

"I'm sorry for crying like this to you." I never do, and Alex barely talks to us and when he does he acts like he can't be bothered being in our lives, and he's probably wishing he could get away from me right now.

"Seriously, shut up."

"Just a tip for your future wife; when she cries don't tell her to shut up."

"Hey, I say that in a loving way. When people I care about cry I snap into nice mode."

I pull away from his shirt, breathing in some cool air and wipe my eyes. "I wish none of this happened."

"Me too."

I screw up my face, trying not to cry again. "I really, really liked him. I thought he liked me too."

"Look, I should have explained this to you but I figured you already knew. Jace will do anything to get girls into bed. He'll talk to them and make them feel all amazing for weeks if he has to just for one night in bed and then he'll ditch them. That's what he does."

He said he loved me. We'd been sneaking around together for almost two weeks, and he didn't text me after we had sex. It makes sense now.

I, Yasmin Fuentes, am an idiot. I will always be an idiot. For the rest of my life, I will be a naive little girl who makes the wrong choices and gets hurt, because I don't know how to not do that.

"Yas, he isn't worth your tears," Alex pulls me into him again and I realise tears were streaming down my face again.

"It's what I get for being an idiot."

"You didn't know any better."

"Why did she have to be so pretty? Why was I so stupid to think I was anywhere near his league?"

"Stop it, Yasmin. Are you fucking blind to every guy crushing on you? Jace is a little rat containing nineteen different STD's, and you have this innocence about you that people find attractive. Do you know how many guys I've heard talking about how much they want to take your youth, in nice terms."

"Well that's gone now. And for nothing."

Alex's hand balls into a fist and I feel his body tense against me. "I can't believe he did this to you."

"It's all very believable now," I mumble and pull away, looking at Alex's shirt where there is a big wet patch from my tears. "Sorry, i'm crying on your shirt."

"It's fine." He pulls me to him again, putting both arms around me this time. This reminds me of the days we were really close, but over the past few years Alex has become distant and I forgot how grateful I am to have him. I'd be wailing in a corner alone right now without him, or I'd probably be walking from Jace's house. I don't like to cry in front of people. Even since I was little when i'd fall in the playground and had blood gushing from my knee, I wouldn't let one tear escape until I was alone, whereas all the other kids would cry their eyes out. However, maybe this one time it's better to have someone.

You'd think I'd run out of tears at one point, but Alex and I sit there for hours and they don't stop. In that moment I decide something. I will never have sex with Jace Daniels again. I will never trust Jace Daniels ever again, and I will make him regret this so bad.

I can't be this naive little girl anymore, because this girl is on a train heading straight into never ending heartbreaks. I need to make some changes.

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