《The Devil I Love | Jikook Smut |》Chapter 46: Patience
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"What about waiting forever? There's nothing wrong with having a little patience, Jungkook," Taehyung assured and watched the boy let out a hopeless sigh. "If you really want to get to know Jimin, then there's no problem waiting. At the end of the day, you can't be too sure about what's on the other side... maybe he wants to be certain you'll be there for him. Remember, you two just started getting close to each other!" Taehyung went on as Jungkook let out a sigh and thought to himself further.
"I understand that... but I just want to be there for him. These feelings I have... they won't go away! And the more I hope to be there for him, the more curious I become. He doesn't like certain things and he behaves oddly when I try opening up conversations when it comes to who he is. What if he doesn't want to let me in?"
"Ah, Jungkook... you're overthinking it! Calm down. I'm sure he wants to know you too. Things just won't be easy off the bat. He's human too, this isn't some children's book where he will fall in love with you just like that, he needs to know you and understand you! Of course... I suspected this, you've never been closer to anyone like this so, I can't blame you," Taehyung answered and began to pace around the studio.
"You're right, Taehyung... he just...worries me."
"How come?"
"The way he reacts to certain things I do towards him, the way he despises being called an angel, the way he grows distant towards work related topics and how important he truly is to his company..." Jungkook mentioned and let out a scoff. "Did you know Directors are very close to their idols? Who would have thought... someone that has a higher position in the Industry would revolve around the idol so much. You know, I would have guessed the manager would call many times or an assistant, but the Director? Not a chance..."
"What do you mean?"
"The Director called Jimin many times yesterday because Jimin chose to spend the day at my place... I didn't think he would be the one calling, but even the manager didn't call as much! The industry is a weird business," Jungkook said to himself before letting out a chuckle. Unaware of what went on behind closed doors as Taehyung only raised a brow. "I know you have a thing for theories on famous celebrities... Do you know what this is by any chance?"
"Well, it's not a lot I can work with, but what I do know from what you told me, I'm guessing Jimin hates his job and his image. If my boss was to call me all day when I'm off, I would get upset towards that person and my position too!"
"That's the thing... Jimin didn't have a day off. He escaped and came to my place, begging to stay and clinging onto me like I would save him from his job. Not everyone likes their job, but wouldn't living a famous life like his be easy? It should be... but he always tells me he's working all week and never has a break to see me. Does he hate his career because of being overworked?"
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"What I've seen is celebrities sometimes being overworked... or But surely no one would try to harm Jimin, right? At the end of the day, I bet that Director was just trying to get a hold of Jimin since he is the one who's behind his career, right?" Taehyung continued to spitball his ideas onto the table as Jungkook only tried to connect them, but they didn't make any sense.
"If the Director was just trying to get his attention and call him, why would he spam his calls all night? Why would Jimin carry such a dull face when I mentioned the Director being a good man before and why would he get so upset at me calling him his angel? That doesn't make sense... Does Jimin hate his boss? Does this all connect with Jimin hating the feeling of me touching his chin or despising a certain position in bed?" Jungkook thought to himself and suddenly thought the worst. "No... I don't think something that bad might have happened to him. He's the world's most loved human being! "
"Jungkook?"
"Y-Yes?" Jungkook snapped out of his confusing thoughts and let out an exhale.
"Don't think about it too much... I'm sure he's fine! Just a little overworked, upset about working and maybe he doesn't like being reminded of it... not everyone loves their own jobs or anything related to it. That could mean why he doesn't like being called an angel and wanted to escape it all with you to take a break from the madness. But, I can't assume everything... I just want to clear up your mind because I know you can get a little frustrated here and there," Taehyung assured. Wanting to use the best of his knowledge to clear Jungkook's thoughts but of course, he couldn't go on any further since Jungkook didn't give him enough to work with.
"What about... his tendency to cling onto me? The many roses he sends to my apartment and the way he wishes to be the only one on my mind?" Jungkook questioned. Recalling the night he was drunk and Jimin came over. "He told me a few things that night I was drunk... some I can't hold onto and make out, but some I remember... and that was mostly when Jimin told me that he didn't want to see me with anybody else..."
"What?"
"I could just be losing my mind and my memory couldn't be that good since I was drunk, but I can remember him saying things like that to me... what do you think about that? Is he obsessed?"
"Wow... I would have never thought Jimin was like this at all," the older man claimed and ran his own hair back carefully before pondering what Jungkook just told him. "Like I said before, maybe he chooses to escape it all with you? I don't know... but the things you tell me about Jimin being the exact opposite of what he's portrayed to the world, seems as if he wants to escape everything with you and have no one else interfere with it! I could be wrong, but I've seen things before when I come up with theories! Despite the ways of him having... fun... with you every now and then, clinging onto you, running off to you, and staying with you, seems as if he wants to escape the way he's seen by everyone. I can't assume, but what I can tell you is that he might look a little obsessed... yet, we don't see the bigger picture to even assume that."
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"You're right... Jimin's actions are concerning. I've picked up many things he dropped and followed in his path, but I can't say much just yet if I don't know. I don't want to assume that he's obsessed with me when I don't know how he even sees me! This could all mean something... he offered me a job that will result in me living with him. This could be a step closer to him, it will give me an opportunity to see him for who he really is," Jungkook managed to make some sense in his own mind and Taehyung only smiled and patted his back.
"But just in case, learn to observe, listen, and be patient. Sometimes, things aren't always there, you'll have to find them for yourself. He will open up to you eventually, depending on what it is, don't force him. "
"You're right. Thank you, Taehyung..." Jungkook said and smiled to himself before looking up at the older man. "You know, I'm glad we're friends! I can talk to you and joke around with you so freely... It's amazing. It makes me feel better to vent to someone I trust on my thoughts and worries about Jimin... I could never get this close to Yoongi. It's possible, but I think I will need to have several conversations with him before I can become a closer friend to him."
"You know, I don't really remember what happened between Yoongi and you that night we went out drinking. Are you two friends now?"
"Well, it's there... I don't have feelings for him anymore and I've accepted the rejection. Besides... WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME HE WAS WITH HOSEOK THIS WHOLE TIME?!" Jungkook shouted and began to laugh into his hands. Covering his red face at the memories of Yoongi showing the promise ring to him that night. "They wear matching promise rings. Ah, why couldn't I catch onto the idea that he was aware of my feelings for him...? Why didn't you tell me?"
"Oh... I didn't really know that either..." Taehyung whispered and nervously scratched his neck. "For someone who knows a lot about theories...I can't really read the room that well, but I can assure you I didn't know a thing! If I did, I would have warned you, I promise! You know you're my best friend, I wouldn't do that to you! We're... we're endgame..."
"Endga- you know what? I'm out of here, we have a whole day filled with appointments!" Jungkook laughed. Walking out of the studio space as Taehyung tagged along.
Concurrently, Jimin laid his head against the windows of the car. Not sure what to think about now. He was silent about what happened earlier, but also glad to know Jungkook was going to work with him. His medications helped him avoid negative thoughts peering into his mind, but he knew it wasn't strong enough to save him from what the Director caused. Jimin continued to press his head against the window and close his eyes, all while Namjoon sat a seat away from him. Watching him and having a worried stare over his face.
Jimin didn't utter a word to him the moment he left the office and now they were silent in the backseats of the car. They kept the automatic window separating them from the driver, closed at all times so their conversations would always be kept private. However, Namjoon always thought it was pointless since Jimin would never talk to him privately about anything.
"Jimin..." Namjoon asked. Breaking through the thick atmosphere filled with silence in the air as he reached over to the younger man, but hesitated to drop his hand over his shoulder. "Are you... how was the- are you.. okay?"
Jimin opened his eyes, looking out the heavily tinted window and gazing out to the dark world with his own puffy eyes. "I'm fine..."
"Oh... so, I wanted to ask, will you work with Jungkook soon?" the manager questioned. Not wanting to bother Jimin about what happened within the meeting before.
"Yes, I can't wait to see him. Only then I wouldn't have to take my medications..."
"Um... Jimin, that's not a good idea... Jungkook can't treat your-"
"You don't know what you're talking about... you won't understand," Jimin spoke under his breath and continued to see the many buildings pass them by. "What he means to me... is something no one could understand."
"Ah, Jimin... please don't depend on him to cure you," Namjoon thought. Not sure of what Jimin could say if he chose to say that to him at that very moment.
Namjoon became anxious about what Jimin was setting himself up for. So he sat there and watched the miserable soul try his best to avoid the thoughts of what happened in the morning. Only after Jimin's medication wears off, will it strike him at night and result in him crying himself to sleep. This was the endless cycle the model lived in and hoped to run further away from it with the thought of Jungkook. Not even daring to talk about it to anyone at all in order to cope with it in the best way possible.
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Terminal
My heart was shattered that day. It was on that day that I realized that life had an end, and that mine was coming. It was on that day that I realized that I was going to die. Leukemia, they told me. It's almost over. I didn't know what to do after that. I thought that maybe it would be best to die right then, get it over with. I thought that I could push myself away from all my friends, all my family, stop them from missing me after I was gone. I thought that I could handle it on my own, that perhaps the world was better off without me. I was wrong. So please help me, I'm dying. Save me, I'm falling. They tell me I won't survive. Please catch me, because if you don't, I'll shatter. I can't grab on anymore, I can't keep fighting. It's going to swallow me up. My name is Alyssa Gray, and by the time you finish reading this, I'll be dead. ________________________________ A few warnings and things to note: -I've put up the tramatising content tag due to a lot of mentions on death, dying, illness, and a mother who tends to be rather cruel. I know that I take a perspective that many will strongly disagree with, and I'm okay with that. Just be warned that this isn't lighthearted stuff. This is real, and death is real, and this part streaches beyond the fiction into reality. -I'm going to say a minor spoiler, but I don't want it to take you unaware because it is something to be aware of. At one point, my MC attempts suicide and fails. It's a very violent scene and I will put up the gore tag after writing this, and it's also just really depressing. If this will be triggering, you need to be aware of this before you read it. -This is a christian book. It may go against some of your beliefs. I hope that you can read and comment anyway even if some of it does not sit well with you. Credits for the cover go to the user 'Media in Sanity'. Your help and assitance has meant so much to me, God bless you in your writing and your endevours. A proud member of WriTE. I've promised to finish this fiction and update it at least once a month. My schedule is very irregular, and I'm working on that, but I'm going to do everything I can to make sure that this book stays out there. I'm not ending it until it's done.
8 177Forgoing Hope
She died four months ago. It was said that she was crossing when the red SUV sped down the road. It was said that if she had left just three seconds later, the SUV would have passed by. They said it was an accident. But they didn't see what I saw. They didn't say what I said. And it's slowly killing me. The guilt is clawing at my insides like a dying cat. Was I the reason Hope was dead? Did I drive her to insanity and beyond? If I am, why would she come back and offer me a chance? A chance to fix everything. A chance to bring her back from the dead. A chance that I simply can't refuse.
8 80RUYI
How can you lose something you never have? When your own mother poisons you to gain pity from others, how should you feel? Why was I, the youngest, being married off? How could I care about something that was never mine? WARNING! Viewer discretion advised: Story contains adult content that is unsuitable for children. NOTE from the writer: I'm an amateur writer so please overlook plot holes, grammar issues, or anything else a story is supposed to have. This is my original story so... as the saying goes "if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all".
8 426She Becomes Glamorous After The Engagement Annulment (1)
The fat and ugly Nora Smith is the laughingstock of the town when her fiancé breaks off their engagement.He says, "The sight of your gigantic face and thunder thighs disgusts me! Don't ever pester me again!""What an idiot." Nora scoffs and turns around, her lips curling up into a smile.Later, when Nora successfully slims down, she returns as an astounding beauty.Her ex-fiancé comes to her bearing flowers and begs, "I was wrong, Nora. I'm willing to do anything as long as you come back to me." Nora rests her chin in her hands and smiles as she replies, "Real men don't dwell on the past." Angered, he says, "You're just a dimwit saddled with baggage that I dumped, Nora. No one will want you except me!"But following that...A young and popular singer tweets: "Nora Smith is my goddess!"An internationally renowned surgeon asks, "Are you free tonight, Nora?"Even the rich and influential hotshot whom everyone is scared of comes forward and says, "I can take care of my wife and children myself, thank you very much."This book is a Chinese novel written by Mr. Yan and he deserves all the credits for it. Link for the original novel will be provided at the end of the book.
8 1119Forcefully Yours (Mafia Love Story)
"Why don't you leave me?" I shouted, trying to mask away the fear that filled inside of me this time. "Oh Darling I wish I could." He smirked, almost leaning onto me. I could still feel the authority in his husky arrogant voice."Don't you fear Allah?" I questioned him and soon began to realise that my hijab was falling loose. This can't be happening, atleast not in front of him. I cried within the walls of my heart. He didn't deserve my love. "Don't teach me about Islam. Mind your own fucking business." He spat back. He surely had anger issues but unlike everybody else I always stood up to him. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction that he derived from dominating everyone, but today I felt weak, weaker than ever before. "My business? Well guess what mister you are my business. Remember you were the one who married me forcefully?" I tried pushing him back but all my efforts were in vain. "You know that I can do a lot of things forcefully but I don't. So be thankful bitch." He Snapped, hitting my heart exactly where it was weak. Tears soon filled my vision but I held them back. "Why? Aren't those girls enough to satisfy you?" I pointed back to his girlfriend who stood behind him half naked. "Enough!" He shouted, his grip tightened around my arms and I knew that I had pushed him off limits by now but guess what? He deserved it. ***She was not your typical girl because she knew the hard reality of life. She was a hard core feminist. In one moment she could spit fire but at the same time she could cry her heart out like a baby. Meet Syeda Anaabiya Ahmed, married to the man with the darkest soul to have walked on earth, Syed Humza Junaid. He was forced to marry her, after the love of his life Hazel betrayed him. He hated Anaabiya to his guts, for she was the only one not scared of him. But Allah chooses who he gives Hidaaya. What do you think? What will change Syed Humza Junaid?Join Anaabiya in her journey of ruin or maybe love. ❤️
8 244Her Hidden Self | ✓
Some people merely adopt darkness, but she was born into it. Hiding every gloomy secret, covering all the lies, she walks through the life devoid of all emotions. They all labeled her, those silly people, if only they had stop for a moment and observed. Looked into her eyes and see the wreckage behind them, see the hurt and the pain behind that anger. Nobody noticed, nobody tried to care... until that someone. • • •They loath each other and there's nothing anyone could do.Winter and Ethan are like fire and ice, like darkness and light, like hurricane and tornado they don't mix at all.But, fate, my friend is one hell of a player. So, what will happen when Fate works it's magic and the two arch enemies are thrown together?Amidst all the chaos, heart breaks and tears, will the truth finally come out and surrender? or will it act just as stubborn as the person, who hid it. Copyright © mysteriouslypoetic 2018. All Rights Reserved.
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