----Jamie's PoV----

I cuddled closer to Luke's chest as my body started to heat up again. I love and hate my heat. I love it cause I get fucked into bliss but I hate it cause I'm always hot and sore. I want Ben-Ben, he know how to handle my heat perfectly. Luke does a good job but Benji could make nothing hurt afterwords.

"Good morning, Puppy" Luke said kissing my head. I opened my eyes, they instantly locked with Luke's.

"Luke I'm hot again. I want Benji" I whined making him sigh softly.

"I know but you know he can't. I'm sorry puppy, he may come home later but he can't do anything for you right now" He said lifting my face and connecting our lips.

"But I want my other mate" I said pushing him away from me. I want feel Benji's cold body near mine. I want to to be inside him or him in me. I want him and only him.

"Puppy" Luke's hurt voice flowed into my ears

"Luke, I want Benji or no one" I said turning my back to him. After a second I felt him get out of bed and leave the room. I know I hurt him, but it's true I want Benji and only Benji.

----Benji's PoV----

I hear my phone ringing and I peeked my head out of the shower to see Luke's ID pop up. I rolled my eyes and leaned over to grab my phone before answering in and getting back into the scalding water.

"Hi Luke" I said putting my phone on the little cattie in the shower.

"Help" He said sounding kinda irritated.

"What happened?" I asked dipping my head into the water to rinse out the conditioner.

"Jamie refuses to do anything about his heat until you get home. He said he only wants you." He said quickly.

"Why?" I asked running my hand through my hair.

"I don't know. He said he wanted you." He said sadly. That probably didn't feel to good to have your mate not want you but your other mate.

"Luke. You know I want to but I-I just can't" I said trying to make the water engulf me.

"I know. I told him that, he said it was you or nothing" He said and I heard a door close.

"Luke, I can't yet" I said quietly as I felt the tears start to fall. Flashes of the rape and beating flashed into my mind without my permission. "Luke, I-I got to go". I said shaking

"What's wrong love?" He asked me quickly.

"Please Luke not now. Please hang up" I pleaded with him grabbing at my hair and sliding down the wall to my knees.

"Are you ok Ben" He asked softly.

"Luke, just hang up!" I yelled as the tears started to flow faster. I heard silence for a second before a click signaling the call ending. I couldn't do it yet. I love Jamie with all my heart but not after what happened. I calmed myself down before turning the water off and climbing out of the shower and drying off. I don't bother putting my clothes back on, I just grab my phone and walk to the bed flopping down. I wrap my body in the fluffy comforter trying the block the world out. I feel tears run down my face as my body starts to shake. My father's face comes to my mind automatically. I feel my body loose all feeling as I feel his cold hands run over my body making my skin shiver in disgust. I pull the blanket tighter around me trying to focus on the feeling of that. Still the imaginary cold hands assault my pale skin and frail body. I squeeze my eyes shut trying to block out his face and the feeling of his hands. That was a mistake, when I opened my eyes My father face morphed into Luke scaring me even more. They are nothing alike, Luke is loving and my father was an emotionless bastard who only thought of himself. Luke is trying to make it up to me and my father just kept going. Luke at least had a little bit of an excuse to rape me, not my father. I started to calm down when the hands heated up significantly to the body temperature of a werewolf. Then I saw his eyes they were the same gold as that day. My breath quickened in fear when I saw his cold smirk. I felt my stomach drop and my body heat up as I started at squirm in an effort to escape him. I reached out trying to find my phone, but it was futile. Black dots blur my vision before it completely covers my vision and I fall into unconsciousness.

When I wake up I'm tangled in the blanket and the sun is barely up. I looked to be about 7 or 8 in the morning. I rub my eyes trying to rid the sleep from them. Then the events of last night flood my mind. I shiver and I feel my eyes fill with tears once again, I just want Jamie. I feel so...so disgusting and violated. I want Jamie to make it go away. ai fumble with my phone hitting 2, speed dialing Jamie's cell. I hear it ring three or four time before Luke's groggy voice answered.

"Hello" he said yawing.

"Get Jamie." I said as I heard my voice crack.

"What's wrong Ben?" He asked cautiously.

"Luke just get Jamie. I don't care what he's doing, just get him please" I hissed at him. Luke is one of the last people I want to talk to right now. I heard the bed creak and Jamie whine lightly. The I hear Jamie's excited voice.

"Are you coming home now?!" He asked happily. I could hear him bouncing on the bed happily.

"Jamie, help me please." I whimpered quietly, if anyone could make me feel...clean he could.

"What's wrong Ben-Ben?" He asked, his words laced with concern.

"Jamie I need you" I whispered tears spilling over once again.

"Ben...Ben I need you too come home, I'll take care of you." Jamie said growling lightly. His growling has always settled me, I love his wolf Feliciano more than he knows.

"Make Luke leave" I said getting to my feet and walking to the bathroom on a hunt for my clothes.

"Ok Ben done and done. Please just come home." He begged me making me nod thought he couldn't see me.

"Ok, I'm on my way home. I'm sorry I just can't see Luke right now" I said pulling up my sweats.

"We understand Ben. Please hurry Ben-Ben" He said before hanging up. I opened my door and heard meaning coming from Alex and Jake's room, I rolled my eyes and pulled out a piece of paper and pen to leave a note.

'I went back home, sorry I didn't give you a heads up. You guys seemed busy anyway. make sure you don't cripple him Jake' I quickly scratched on the paper. With that I left and walked out of the apartment and through the pack house. I didn't have to worry about running into people because most were at school or work. I hopped into my truck and hit the gas to get home and to Jamie as fast as I could.

I reached home in 10 minutes without hitting anything on the way. The car was barely off by the time I was in the front door. The door was not open for long be cause my body was soon pinned to it by my panting mate.

"Your fucking finally home" He growled in my ear making a shiver run down my spine. He started to kiss down my neck and pull at my shirt instantly.

"Jamie Please calm down. Jamie, please don't hurt me"

"You know I would never hurt you mate" His voice came deeper and more swiftly.

"Feliciano?" I questioned him as he picked my ass up making me wrap my legs around his waist.

"Yes mate. Could you please help me now? I would really appreciate it." He purred carrying me up the stairs to our bedroom.

"You know I will , but please be gentle. You know what has happened as of late" I begged as I was dropped on the bed.

"I will try my best angel. I know this isn't ideal but I'll try to make it good" He said with soft orange eyes. He smiled down at me kissed me lightly.

"Thank you Feli." I said moving my head to expose my neck in full submission. His mouth went straight to my neck and his warm hands snaked up my cold chest. His hand brushed against my nipple making me yelp in surprise. I felt him smirk on my neck. He let his teeth sid over the soft flesh of my neck making a shiver run down my spine. He made quick work of my shirt tearing it from my body. I saw his eyes darken at the scars littering my torso.

"Sorry" I whimper softly. His mouth came down to one of them and kissed it softly.

"No, it's not your fault." he said as his hand hovered around my pants . He curled a finger through one of the belt loops. His eyes met mine once again and he tugged on them lightly. I nodded at him giving him my permission to continue. He had them off me in seconds and moved to my underwear. He lowered his face to my semi-erection under the thin layer of fabric and took a deep breath. It sent a shiver down my spine, seeing his eyes darken even more. he pulled the down and threw them across the room. His hand picked me up and he lowered his mouth and his tongue darted out to lick my tip. I gasped in surprise and he repeated the action before moving down my shaft and licking it base to tip. I felt a bead of precum rise to the slit of my now rock hard erection. His tongue lapped it up quickly before he took me to the back of his throat. A moan escaped me as his hand moved down my crack to my twitching entrance. He bobbed his head and circles my hole with his finger. He let one slowly slip past my tight ring of muscle. It was slightly uncomfortable but not unbearable. He moved it in and out slowly letting me get used to the new intrusion. I let my hands tangle themselves in Jamie's thick black hair and he let another finger run around the rim of my hole before sliding it into me. I let out a yelp at the pain that shot up my spine. Jamie halted his menstruation to let me adjust and let his free hand come up to cup my sac. I relaxed and he then continued to stretch me for what was to come. After he he got 3 fingers inside of me and he thought I was stretched enough he pulled them out. he shed his pants and pulled the lube from our side table and grabbed himself. He poured a generous amount into his hands before rubbing him self down. He lined himself with my hole and slowly pushed into me stretching my ring. I bit my lip trying not to cry out. Once he was fully sheathed he leaned down to my ear and whispered more sweet nothing trying to calm me down. One of his hands slid down my body and behind me so he was cupping my lower back. I let my arms wrap around Feli's neck and tried to relax a bit.

"Love, please I can't stay still for much longer" He whispered taking a deep breath in the crook of my neck.

"It's ok Feli, you can move" I said quietly tightening my hold on him. He started to move slowly and he kissed my cheek.

"I love you" He purred to me

I love you to feli" I said quietly and he picked up speed.

------A/N-----

Fuck you guys, I'm tired and my feet are broken.