She didn't knew when his friends left because after dinner she came to her room and didn't leave it

Next morning when she woke up she found Rohail no where, thinking he must have left for office, she decided to search for her clothes

She couldn't wear the black dress all day and she didn't wanted to wear something from cupboard

After looking for it for hours she found her suitcase under bed and her dress inside of it

If she have searched for it here yesterday she wouldn't have to wore the dress he gift her

Sighing she picked a dress and went to take shower

After breakfast when she didn't had anything to do she decided to call Khawar but then knowing her father could tell her sadness even from her voice she didn't call him

Just like that three months passed in London, Roshni couldn't understand Rohail

Sometimes he behaves so lovingly with her then second moment he is rude and distance

After finishing the household chores she opened t.v to distract herself

Stopping on a cookery channel she decided to learn something new, Rohail didn't like the food she cooks because either they are spicy or oily many times he ordered something from outside

The chef was making spaghetti even looking at it Roshni felt her nauseous hitting, covering her mouth she ran to bathroom and empty her stomach

She didn't had any energy in herself and went to her room to rest

Laying on her bed she remembered something which made her again sat up

A big smile broke on her face when she realized

"Rohail!" When in evening he returned she softly called him and waited for his reply to see how his mood is

"Hmm!" He casually said taking his shoes off

"Woh apka din kaisa tha?" Hesitatedly she asked

(How was your day?)

"Theek Tha? Kyu?" He looked at her suspiciously

(Good? Why?)

"Nahi woh bas aise hi....." She quickly said and left the room to kitchen and decided she will talk to him on dinner

(Just like that,)

"Rohail woh hune na apse kuch kehna tha," but she was also excited to tell him

(I wanted to tell you something,)

She again entered the room and found him sitting on the sofa with his head leaning backward and his eyes close

She sat beside him

"Kya hua Hai?" He irritatedly opened his eyes and looked at her

(What?)

"Woh actually...... Aaj humari tabiyat theek nahi thi aur...."

(Actually I got sick and........)

"Kya hua tumhari tabiyat ko?"

(What happened to you?)

"Kuch khaas nahi bas woh...... I'mpregnant," closing her eyes she fastly said and opened her eyes to see his reaction who was trying to figure out what she said

(Nothing just...)

"What? But......" When he finally got it his brows furrowed

"But how?" Roshni raised her eyebrows at his question

"What do you mean by how?"

"But Roshni we have always used protection then.....?" He whispered-yelled

"Doesn't matter how, aren't you happy?" Roshni who thought of he will be happy

"Roshni Hume abhi bachhe ki koi zaroorat nahi hai,"

(We don't need kids right now,)

"Bachhe zaroorat ke hisaab se nahi paida karte," Roshni furrowed her eyebrows

(We don't have kids according to needs,)

"Roshni.... Okay let it be," Rohail drop the conversation and went to bathroom to change

Roshni couldn't understand what to do, because that wasn't the reaction she was expecting

They both didn't talk to each other on dinner and sleep on their sides

Both minds awake for same reason but different emotions

Roshni place her hand on her stomach and felt like the life inside her breathing

That made her calm as she fall asleep

"Roshni! Roshni!" Next morning Rohail woke her up,

"Hmm!" She opened her eyes the first thing she saw was breakfast which was placed on the side table

She looked at Rohail then quickly got up

"Relax! Maine breakfast bahar se order Kiya Hai aur Kar bhi liya hai tum Aram se nashta Karo, Shaam ko office se aaunga toh Dr. Ke pass chalenge," Rohail told her and kissed her forehead

(I have ordered breakfast and had it, eat well in evening we will go to Dr.)

What was that? When Rohail left for office Roshni thought but she shrugged it off

In evening she was ready in her mustered coloured kurta with white churidaar that she matches with chocolate brown hijab

The car stop in front of hospital they both get down, Rohail was walking ahead of her and a little faster that it was hard for Roshni to match up with his speed

They entered the cabin of gynecologist, the Dr. Was a middle age women with her short blonde hair and lips which were red by lipstick

After she did some check up on Roshni she told Rohail Roshni is pregnant

Didnt he believed her? Roshni looked at Rohail, but didn't said anything

"So... Dr. I have already told you everything," Roahil said, Roshni who was looking at her hands furrowed her brows, she was confused what he is talking about but didn't asked anything

"Yeah I know, and I have prepared everything you just have to sign this document," Dr. Handed him a paper and left the cabin

"What was she talking about?" Roshni looked at Roahil

"Jo bhi baat Kar rahi Hai tum khamoshi se karogi," Rohail said while signed

(Whatever she is talking you will do,)

Roshni looked at the paper he was signing that made her heart skip a beat

"Roahil? Aap..... Yeh...." she couldn't bring the words out of her mouth

(This?.... You....)

"Rohail yeh aap Kya Kar rahe Hain," she finally managed to find her voice

(What are you doing?)

"Roshni! Pichle kuch mahino se tumne apni marzi ki bohot Karli ab Jo main kahunga woh karna Hai tumhe,"

(You have done whatever you wanted but now you'll donas whatever I'll say,)

"Rohail nahi, please nahi." Roshni nod her head negatively

(No, please no.)

"Rohail yeh humara Bachha Hai aap isse marne ka kaise soch sakte Hain?" She placed her hands on her stomach shielding her baby

(How can you kill your own kid?)

"Abhi Hume bachhe ki koi zaroorat nahi hai,"

"Rohail aap......" The door of cabin opened making Roshni turned and see Dr. Has again entered

"Everything is ready," she informed Rohail

"Are you ready?" She asked Roshni

"No, I'm not, I don't want abortion," Roshni quickly said hoping the dr. Will hear her

"Roshni! Dr. I have already told you everything she is just scared," he whispered her name to make her quiet then turned to Dr.

"I don't want abortion, Rohail how can you think of killing the life inside of me?" She quickly nod her head negatively, then turned to Rohail

"Roshni Mera Tamasha mat banao,"

(Don't create any scene,)

She tried to make Rohail understand that's it's his baby how can he thinks of killing it, she tried to make Dr. Understand she didn't want any abortion but the words fell into deaf ears

Shattered she came outside of the hospital with empty womb, the warmness she was feeling yesterday wasn't present there anymore

How can it? When his own father killed him

Days passed and turned into weeks and weeks turned into months

"Yeh Kal main tumahra liye laya Tha but tum so rahi thi toh de nahi paya," Rohail placed a shopper on bed when she was making it

(I bought it for you last night but couldn't give Because you were sleeping,)

"Aaj Shaam ko office mein Christmas party hai, yeh pehnena tumpe achha lagega," he continue but when reply didn't came from her side he sigh

(There is Christmas party in my office, be ready in evening,)

"Theek Hai main office ja raha hoon," he loudly said and left didn't forget to slam the door after him

(I'm going,)

Roshni looked at the door then at the shopper, picking it up she placed it on table and complete her chores

She has become like this, cold, dry and gloomy just like the weather outside

In evening she was ready in the gown that Rohail gave her, it was a red gown with full sleeves which reached her ankle

She matches it with a black shawl and black hijab

Rohail made face seeing her hijab but didn't said anything

"Mr. Sayyed so glad that you came... And who is this beautiful lady beside you," when they entered the hall were party was held a middle age man came to them and shake Rohail's hand

"My wife Roshni, and Roshni that's our manager Mr. Charles," Rohail proudly putting hand on Roshni's waist

"Nice to meet you, and may I say you are beautiful," he took his hand forward for her to shake,

Which she didn't and politely nod her head

"Excuse me sir," Rohail said, grabbing Roshni's hand he took her to other side

"What was that? Couldn't you shake his hand?" Rohail whispered yelled

Roshni still didn't said anything, just looked somewhere else

Rohail took a deep sigh

"Chalo!" Again taking her hand in his he took her to a table where Mr Charles and one lady was sitting, whom Roshni recognize was the same lady who came to their home for dinner when they first come to London

(Let's go!)

"Roshni, you already know Ella," Roahil still did the formality

Ella nod her head at Roshni then started talking Rohail

Roshni was silently playing with her ring not paying attention to their conversation

She only raised her head when she heard Rohail laughing, he was never this happy with her even in the start of their marriage she has only saw him smiling not freely laughing

"Oh this is the couple dance, Rohail can I have a dance with you," Ella asked in not really asking manner

"Of course," Rohail got up holding her hand and she lead him to the floor were couple were dancing on slow song

Roshni felt her throat getting heavy when Rohail didn't even bothered to say anything to her, she looked at where Rohail and Ella were dancing

Roahil both hands were on Ella's waist and Ella's both hand were roaming from his chest to his shoulder teasingly saying something making Rohail smirk

When she couldn't see it anymore Roshni again bow her head down, she tried to appear calm but inside she was burning

If Roahil had the company of Ella and he is enjoying with her alot then why did he bring her with him?

"May I have a dance with you?" She raised her head when she heard a British accent just beside her

She raised her head and saw Charles has scoot his chair just before her and was leaning a little toward her,

"No thanks," She quickly scoot her chair away and said

"Oh come on sweetheart! don't be so naive, don't you know when man like Rohail bring their wife in a office party...."

"Sorry!" Obviously Roshni wasn't that naive, she angrily interrupt him

"Oh come on, if you don't wanna waste time so we can go to my suit," he again scoot his chair closer to her's

"I'm sorry but you have mistake me for someone else," she angrily got up and left

She was about to go to where Rohail was dancing with Ella but then she stopped in mid when she didn't find him nor Ella

She looked for him around the hall but didn't find him, she also didn't find Ella

Dejected she took her phone out from her clutches and dialled his number

Because there was loud song playing in background she leave the hall and came from where they entered

He didn't picked her phone, taking her phone down from her ear she was about to call him again but someone bupmed into her making her drop her phone

She looked at the back of the person who just walked away and didn't even bothered to say sorry then she looked at her phone which was laying on the floor it's screen shattered

"Allah!" She picked her phone and tried to make it work but it was broken

"Roshni?" She heard a voice behind her which was very familiar

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