'' It hurts so much in my heart. My heart is broken in pieces, and no one can fix it but Matthew. I love him and he loves me but we can't be together. We can't love each other, we can't. '' She sobs, I look at her with mixed emotions. I'm shocked and sad. I hate to see her like that, I hate seeing her crying. Nawal isn't that type of person who is depressed and negative, she is positive and a happy girl. She's always smiling and laughing, It's strange seeing her like that. But what's more strange is that Matthew, my biological son, and Nawal who is like my daughter loves each other. Even if I had a feeling about it It's weird to hear it from Nawal's mouth. And I knew this would happen to both of them like It didn't with me and Richard?

'' Nawal... Listen to me honey, fight for it. '' I smile at her, she wipes her tears her away and looks at me confused. '' What do you mean Auntie? '' She asks. I sigh, '' Fight for your love, fight for each other. Even if you think It's impossible, make it possible. '' I tell her as I stroke her hand. She sniffs, '' Auntie, It's not going to work. Sejad or Baba will kill us. '' She sighs, I giggle. '' I thought the same when I was young, I thought my dad or my eldest brother would kill the man I love. '' I say, she looks at me confused. '' I was in love with an atheist too Nawal... I went through everything you're doing now. '' She widens her eyes at me, her mouth turned into an 'O'. '' Auntie... You- ''

'' We met in high school, his name is Richard. He was the popular guy you know. Every girl in that school had either slept with him or dated him. All the guys were friends with him and they respected him. He never noticed me, but one time I fought with his girlfriend and then that was when he noticed me. He's squad bullied me and they called me names. Then one day we had a history project together, that was when we got along. We had so much fun while we were doing the project, we made fun of each other and fake beat each other. We started hanging out secretly and I can tell you, It's was the most beautiful days of my life. '' I smile at her, She doesn't say anything, but I could tell that she was shocked. '' How did you find out that you liked each other? '' She stutters.

''Every time my eyes laid on him I got these butterflies going crazy in my stomach, he always winked at me or smiled at me and that made my whole body explode. So I knew that I had feelings for him, and I thought that It was one-sided. But little did I know. '' I winked at her and she giggled. '' I noticed that all my guy friends would never talk to me again, and I thought It was very weird. I asked them why but none of them told me why, but one of them did. He told me that Richard threatened them that if they ever looked at me or talked to me he would kill them. So I decided to talk to him, we ended up arguing and we didn't talk for a week. The next week he took me to the school library and we continued arguing until he suddenly kissed me and confessed his feelings for me. After that we dated for three years, we weren't married but we still got a kid together. '' I tell her, she looks at me confused. She looks around as her mouth is still open.

'' I know, I lost my virginity before I got married. And I will never forgive myself for that, but when you're in love with someone you don't know what you are doing. You're to busy to make that person happy. I was in love with Richard, and he was in love with me. I knew that I wasn't going to have the opportunity to marry. That's why I wanted to make a family with him before I got married, and I wanted to by dirty so no one would marry me. Because I thought that I only belonged to Richard, even if we separated. I still feel like I was his and he's mine. But that's when I made a mistake. '' I sigh.

'' My father found about us, he found about Richard. He found out that I had a son, and when I was pregnant my father had no clue because he wasn't living in the USA then, he moved back to Iraq when I started high school because he had a job there. After three years he came back and found out about everything. He threatened me to kill my son and Richard. Instead of fighting for our love, I left them. I left them because I was scared that something would happen to them, that was my mistake. I wish I could go back in time and I wish I had done something. I regret it every day and I miss them so much. And I still love Richard, I love him every day and I will never stop loving him. '' I tear left my eyes. Nawal hugs me tightly, '' I'm so sorry Aunt Rima. '' I hear her whisper in my ear. I started crying, '' I met my son a few weeks ago, he looked in my eyes and even smiled at me. But of course, he didn't recognize me. '' I tell her.

'' So please Nawal, don't stop fighting. You will go through so much pain but as soon it stops you will be the happiest girl in the world with a man you love. Understood? '' I sob, she nods. '' Yes, I will. For you and Matthew. '' She says underneath her breath.

We put Matthew on his bed while he was drunk, as soon we got out of his room everyone looked at me. '' You will tell us every little detail. '' Logan crosses his arm, I sighed and walked over to the living room. Everyone sat on the couches as they looked over to me. '' Okay fine. '' I rolled my eyes. '' You will ask questions and I will answer them. '' I tell them and they nod. '' Who is this woman? '' Lucas asks with widening eyes, '' Nawal Hassan, 22 years old. Born in California but her parents are from Iraq, and she's Muslim. '' I tell them. Logan raises his eyebrows, he's shocked. '' Where did they meet? '' Logan furrow his eyebrows, what's up with their expressions. '' In the club, Nawal was beating our old friend Karim for beating his wife who's her best friend. Karim pulled her scarf, Matthew saw it and he stopped him. She thought he was helping Karim and she started yelling at him, I was there. '' Jacob explains.

We all look at him, '' Really? '' Lucas asks shocked. He nods, '' In my perspective, Nawal and Matthew always argued. So how did they even fall for each other? '' He looks at me confused. I sigh, '' She started working in his company as his assistant's assistant. The first days they argued but then they got along and she became his favorite person. I could see in his eyes that he was starting to like her, he looked her in a different way. He talked and joked with her in a different way. And he was always laughing with her. '' I say in a serious tone. '' One time he had a fight with her and then a few minutes later he saw her laughing with a guy. He was shouting at her in front of everyone, he dragged her to the elevator and he confessed his feelings to her. '' I tell them.

'' Fuck, this is literally a movie. '' Lucas giggles, Logan shakes his head. '' And now she is engaged to another guy? '' Logan asks, I nod. '' Wow, Matthew is probably dying inside. '' Lucas says. '' Shut up Lucas. '' Logan frowns and Lucas shuts up. Jacob sighs, '' We gotta do something, he loves her. We need to help him. '' He says. '' We could, but how? '' Logan crosses his arms.

I woke up with pain in my head, I slowly sat up from my bed and saw that I was still wearing my outwear clothes. How the fuck did I even get here? The last thing I remember was me getting into my house. I shake my head, I walk out of my room and walk into the kitchen. Suddenly my eyes lay on four familiar guys. Ryan, Jacob, Logan, and Lucas? They look at me, '' Logan? Lucas? What the fuck are you doing here? '' A big smile appears on my face, I walk fast towards them. They look at me with a confused expression, I hug them both. '' When did you come back? Bro, It's been so long! '' I say. '' You don't remember? '' They ask, I slowly shake my head. '' What are you talking about? '' I smile at them. They shake their heads and hugs me again. '' We missed you, bro. '' They say. I laugh. '' I did too. '' I smile at them. I itch my head, '' Crap I drank to much last night. '' I say and shake my head. I drink a cup of water. I feel everyone's eyes on me, I look at them. '' What's wrong? '' I swear they are being so strange. '' Like are you sure you don't remember anything? '' Jacob asks me, what do they mean?

'' What are you talking about? '' I look at them confused. '' Why did you drink last night? '' Lucas asks. I furrow my eyebrows at him, What's their problem? Can't I drink? '' I felt like it. '' I answer. '' You know what, this feels like a police interview. I'm heading to work, see you later guys. '' I say and walk back to my room. Suddenly Nawal pops up on my mind, ugh. I try shaking my head but she's still on my mind. I think about what she said last night, about her wanting to marry a Muslim guy. Ouff, What are you doing to me Nawal?

a few hours later

I'm sitting in my office working on some papers, we are almost done with the gowns, they looked beautiful when I saw them. I even imagined Nawal in one of them, fuck everything is about Nawal. I hear some knocks on my door, '' Come in. '' I yell. I see Loren.... and Nawal's auntie coming in? What is she doing here? I immediately get up from my chair and walk towards her. '' Boss, Nawal's auntie wants to talk to you. '' Loren smiles at me. I look at them confused, '' I'm sorry, am I disturbing you? '' She asks, I shake my head. '' No, No! Of course, come here and take a seat. '' She smiles at me and sits on the couch in front of my desk. I sit in front of her on the other couch. Loren gets up and that leaves us alone. '' Do you want something to drink Auntie? '' I ask her, she chuckles. '' It's fine. '' She says.

'' I'm here to talk to you about Nawal. Nawal told me about you guys. '' She says, suddenly my heart drops. '' She told me about your relationship. '' She smiles at me. I looked at her confused, I don't know what to say. '' Nawal loves you, she has been crying all night in my arms. She told me that she loves you and she wants to be with you, but she can't. She's scared that you'll get hurt. '' She tells me. Somehow I feel more relaxed, I really thought Nawal didn't want me. But my heart still beats for Nawal, I'm so dumb for not figuring this out. '' Auntie, Nawal, she's hard to figure out. I don't know what she thinks. I love her, but sometimes I don't if she even wants me near her. '' I sigh. She shakes her head. '' Nawal loves you the most, don't you ever think that. Nawal wants to build a future with you, and you should fight for your love, do you understand? '' She says with a serious tone.

I smile at her response, '' Matthew, as long as you fight for each other you will stay together until your life ends. '' She says, my heart starts beating really hard as I big smile appears on my face. '' Thank you so fucking much Auntie, Thank you so much. '' I say, I take her hand and kiss it. Suddenty I hear my office door open. I turn around and see my father coming in, '' Matt- '' He suddenly stops. He's eyes lands on Aunt Rima. His eyes widen, I look at Aunt Rima. She's looking at him while shaking. She stands up, '' Think about it, Matthew. '' She smiles at me. She's about to leave when my dad holds her by her wrist. He's jawline sharpen, '' Dad, let go of her. '' I say with a serious tone, I walk towards them.

I see a tear leaving Aunt Rima's eyes. She looks down, My dad lifts up her chin with his finger. His eyes travel around her face. My dad bites his lower lips and fakes smiles, you could see the anger in him. I don't know why, but he was clearly angry. '' You decided to show up now? Huh? '' My dad holds her wrister tighter. I look at him confused.

'' Richard, let go. You're hurting me. '' She says underneath her breath.

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