Flashback

He took by my shirt and pushed me to the bed, he pulls up a gun and points at me. I widen my eyes and my jaw dropped. I didn't know what was going on, what's happening? Leila tried to push the gun from his hand but he pushed her to the floor. '' YOU LITTLE WHORE! I KNOW WHAT YOU BEEN DOING THESE MONTHS YOU LITTLE BITCH! '' He shouted as I was shaking of fear, '' I KNOW YOU'VE BEEN HOEING AROUND WITH YOUR BOSS! '' He shouts again.

This time my heart dropped, my stomach was exploding of nervosity. My head was pounding as I gulp. '' Does he pay you for this? How much do you get?! 5 dollars? 9 dollars? Don't you have any respect?! '' He shouts making me flinch.

'' What happened to the Nawal I knew? The one who was smart and always stood up for herself, she never let anybody disrespect her and nor did she let anyone disrespect her religion and family. '' His voice weakened, he was still holding the gun at me.

'' Sejad- '' I tried to explain but he interrupted me. '' Tell me the truth Nawal, what have you been doing with that guys, tell me or make you bleed in front of your friend?. '' He points at Leila who sit in the floor with tears storming down her cheeks. I look at him carefully and took some deep breaths. I was quiet for a few seconds, I stoop up from the bed.

'' I've fallen in love with my boss. I love Matthew. We've been dating for a few weeks. I love him, I love him Sejad. I will never love someone as I love Matthew. '' I look deeply into his eyes.

His expression turned from a serious to an expression I've never seen. An expression that shows that he will kill everyone tonight. He slaps my cheek really hard making me fall to the floor, he spits on me as he kicks me.

'' SEJAD STOP! '' I hear Leila shout. I scream, '' I will show you love, I will show you who you will love! '' He says as he punches me and pulls me up by dragging my hair.

He takes up his phone and dials a number, I look at him confused.

'' Afif, my brother how are you? '' He asks while looking at me. '' Alhamdullilah, meet me tomorrow at my place. '' A smile appeared in his face,

'' Wallah Afif I just think It's time for you to get married, don't you agree? '' He smirked at me.

End Of Flashback

I woke with pain all over my body, when I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror I saw that my lips are still bleeding from the slaps I got from Sejad and I've gotten many bruises all over my body. Tears are still running from my eyes, my heart is still beating and I'm still shocked. I'm forced to marry my brother's friend, I'm forced to marry a guy I'm not in love with and will never fall in love with. I can't say against my bother anymore, he would tell my father about me and Matthew or even kill Matthew. Matthew, the man I love and will always love... The man I imagined to spend my life with.

Flashback

'' I'm scared to lose you Nawal. '' He gives me a sad smirk, I threw myself at him.

'' Matthew! what are you saying?! You will never lose me! '' I shout and place my head beside his neck. I feel him smiling.

'' Promise me, promise me that you will you'll stay beside my side '' He says as I kiss his neck. '' I will never leave you, I will always stay by your side Matthew Bayaroads! ''

End Of Flashback

I felt my knees weaken and I could stand no more, I sat on the bathroom floor with my face on my hands. I began to cry really hard, I want Matthew beside me. I want him to hug me, make me laugh, I want him to kiss me and I want him to tell me that he loves me. I sobbed really loud, I tried to cry everything off my heart. I need to breathe, I need space from this world. I sobbed so much that I couldn't breathe anymore, I can't marry Afif. I just can't marry someone else than Matthew. But if stand against this marriage my brother would either kill Matthew or tell my father who would kill me.

Ya Allah, please help me, even though I disrespected you and myself. Ya Allah, please.

'' What? '' I looked at him with my eyebrows furrowed, he took a deep breath and looked down for a second. '' Matt, she's getting married. With her brother's friend. '' He stutters, I felt my heart break into pieces, I felt cold and I couldn't breathe. I looked at them, they were both looking down. Nawal can't marry another guy, she won't marry another guy. She isn't that type of person who marries someone she doesn't love. She told me that she would always stay by my side and never leave. She told me that, she told me that she loved me. I walked fast towards Ryan and took him by his shirt.

He looked up at me, '' Are you telling me this now? '' I looked at him with my eyebrows raised. He was quiet, nothing came out from his mouth. Like he was mute, '' ARE YOU FUCKING TELLING ME THIS NOW?! HUH? COULDN'T YOU JUST CALL ME! '' I shouted, he closed his eyes for a second. '' Mr.Bayaroad- ''

'' Shut the fuck up Loren, shut the fuck up. '' I said as I let go of Ryan. They looked at me with pain in their eyes, I shook my head and Imedaitley walked out of my office. I jogged towards the parking lot and started to drive, I drove to Nawal's village. I'm going to talk to her, I'm going to ask her what the fuck she's trying to do. What is this girl doing?

I walked out of my car and jogged towards Leila's house, I knocked really hard on the door but no one opened. I knocked harder, a few seconds I saw Leila opening the door. She looks at me confused, '' Matthew? What are you doing here? '' She asks me. I walked in and started to look around. '' Where is Nawal? Where the fuck is Nawal?! '' I shout. '' Please, Matthew can you calm down. ''

'' Where is Nawal?! '' I shout again, she takes some steps back. '' She's sleeping, she's sleeping! '' Her voice got louder. I took a deep breath. '' I'm here. '' I hear a familiar voice say. I turn around and see Nawal with bruises all over her face. My hands started shaking as my heart pounded, I walked towards her and held her face with my hands.

'' Who did this to you? Who did this to you? '' I whispered, tears ran down her cheeks. She tried to make me let go of her but my hands were still holding her face. '' Nawal, who did this! '' I almost shouted. She shook her head, '' It doesn't matter. '' She says coldly. '' Nawal, I'm already angry. Don't make me angrier. '' I said breathlessly.

'' Matthew, please let go of me. '' She sobs. '' Nawal, what are you doing? Why are you doing this? '' I look deeply into her eyes. '' You shouldn't be touching me, I'm getting married. '' Her response broke my heart even more, why is she doing this? '' Nawal, you aren't getting married. '' I shook my head, she pushed my hands off of her face. '' I'm getting married, and this is my decision. '' She yells.

'' You don't want this, you don't want to get married to a person you don't love. '' I tell her and she fakes laughs. '' What do you know? What do you know? Huh Matthew? You only know what makes you happy. Maybe I don't love Afif but I know I'll love him and he'll treat me better than any man has. '' She fakes smiles at me, my hand turned into a fist as I felt the blood boul inside me. '' Nawal, do you hear what's coming out from your mouth? ''

'' Matthew, I want this. I always wanted to marry a Muslim man, a man from the same nationality. What should I do with a man who doesn't believe in god? What should I do with a billionaire who has fucked more than thousands of girls, tell me, Matthew? Don't you think I deserve better? '' She smirks at me. I look down at the floor, her words are harsh. But they're true. What's she saying is true, but I just can't lose the woman I love. '' Nawal, we can't give up our love now. I love you, I love only you. '' I took some steps towards her as she took some steps back.

'' Don't waste your time on this Matthew, you should be in the club throwing money on girls. '' She fakes giggles, what happened to this girl? I'm not talking to my Nawal, this is someone else. Who did this to her? I can see that she's scared, I can see the horror in her eyes. '' Nawal, you'll never push me away. You are mine, I've said it many times. '' I tell her and she sighs. '' You can pretend that you want this marriage, but deep down there I know that you're begging for my hugs, my kisses and my love for you. '' I say pointing at her chest. '' You love me, and you'll always love me. But I don't know why you are doing this to yourself. '' She looks at me with her eyes widen. I kiss her forehead and look at her.

'' You won't have the chance to marry Afif. But if that ever happens, I'll kill him. '' and with that, I left with tears running down my cheeks.

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